I Cant Sleep - Blog Posts
I can’t sleep…
PERFECT TIME TO MAKE HORRIBLE DRAWINGS \o///
can we ignore the fact that i’m awake at 3:00am and probably will get a lecture from my friends? um yea!!
This was an attempt at drawing aph Japan…it’s decent enough tho 🇯🇵 (’ε’♡)
They take half an hour to reply to me and I just think they want me to fall asleep before they can answer
New enrichment activity: deconstructing old clothing that can’t really be donated because I have a new interest in sewing/making clothes 😼
Guys…. HELP ME!!!! School starts today at 8 am
AND ITS 3 AM RN AND J LITERALLY CANT SLEEP LIKE I’VE BEEN TRYING TOO SLEEP SINCE 12AM!!!I even tried listening to relaxing music and it STILL WONT HELP!!!! !!
(Send help please)
If one more thing sets me off I'm blinding myself during the eclipse tomorrow can't stand looking at these cunts
Hot boring night and no AO3 in sight what shall I do... I have finals tmr sleeping isn't an option
Run away further, it's Bad Love
I’m 17?? What the fuck.
What kind of ache is this, that I think of someone holding my face in their hands with softness, and I start to cry.
The sole idea of someone being soft with me shakes my bones. Its scary. But if it ever happens, I would treasure every second of it, like a pirate.
Does that makes sense?
People, let me ask you all a question:
What do you think when you have an existential crisis or a mental breakdown?
I think that I am in need of a boyfriend or a romantic partner.
Then I recover and think that what I truly need are two things: to play the argentinian hymth in the Big Ben as a public manifestation of defiance, and to try to be a better christian.
Am I the only one that has those ideas?
period
It hits harder when it's always like that especially emotional pain
Put my dumbass to sleep please.
I envy people who can fall asleep as soon as their heads make contact with a cushion. I am lying in bed awake at 1 in the morning thinking about how I am horrible at socializing. Tell me your methods please .
To socialize and sleep.
ROUGH DRAFT chronic illness and insomnia
You can't sleep lying on a nail bed. The spikes digging into you. If you lay properly, it distributes all your weight. One wrong move and you're in agonizing pain. You roll around all night, trying to get one minute of rest.
You wake up after trying to sleep for hours. They ask you why you're so tired. No one sees the spiked bed, only you.
when i was fifteen, i rode my bike home from work and stopped at a pumpkin patch. it was one of those shitty seasonal pop-ups. i had stopped by before my shift to see the animals, and one rabbit had caught my eye. she was bigger, yet more timid. she had this beautiful black fur with little grey spots around her face.
it was almost 37 degrees out and they were just in a pen on the pavement with no water.
i knelt by it and reached my hand in to feel the one i found earlier. nothing. i tried to shake her awake but i was too late. she was cold and stiff, even in the heat.
i ran for the owner and showed her what I’d found. she wasn’t sympathetic or remorseful, there wasn’t an ounce of guilt in her expression. she grabbed the rabbit by the hind legs and threw her in the dumpster behind the concessions.
her body was so stiff it kept its form the whole time. so i took her. and i held her in my arms. it was difficult to balance my bike while holding her so tight but i took her to the park and i dug her a little grave.
i still see her. still feel the dirt under my nails. maybe if i had come sooner.