so ive been a fan of wilbur since 2019. ive gone through a lot of stuff with wilbur being my comfort person and my special interest. someone literally everyone in my life knows about because i talk about him constantly.
when i watched the vod i too instantly knew it was him. i think us older fans weren't really even doubting it to be honest...i know i wasnt even tho i wish it weren't him. its him. i know its him. and it breaks my heart into pieces to be so sure.
ive had a really bad flare up of my chronic pain, my migraines wont stop for three days now, i cant sleep, my ear is ringing constantly. its been horrible. and im sending this anonymously because i dont want this to be about me the individual. im not saying this to get pitty. im just trying to say...
it sucks. it fucking sucks. to have so much of your personality and hobbies wrapped around someone just for them to turn out to be an abuser. a bad person. its humiliating. it makes me feel stupid. i feel disgusted and gross to have ever supported him.
i want to say to others and to people younger than me who are probably having a worse time that its more than okay to grieve losing him. but do it. grieve. let him go. and move on.
because he is not worth any more time or energy. not someone who doesn’t understand consent. not someone who only cares how something Looks rather than his partner being in pain. he isnt worth your love. you are worth your love. so let him go, grieve, and let's all learn not to trust people we don't personally know. i know i needed to learn this the hard way...
I don't have anything to add here but I wanted to share it.