I Kin Them - Blog Posts

Scps as random quotes

035- I dont know who this BITCH is but she is KILLING IT! AH!

049-J- Occupation? The family disappointment

049- Call me an escalator because i let people down

035- LOWER CASE IS FOR THE LOWER CLASS

you know theres something about being a kid and not having many friends and constantly feeling stuck. like you know you’re meant for so much more but you just can’t reach it. you don’t want to die but theres nothing to live for and your life doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things and you just want something to change. 

and theres something about having a face and a name that belongs to you but isn’t yours. and you dont feel real most days even though you’re living the life you wanted. there’s violence in your veins that scares you and a hunger for something that you can taste but never quite see. and every day you’re drowning, drowning and praying for someone to throw you a rope you’re not even sure you’d take.

And then all of a sudden you’re surrounded by people who love you and know you and you can finally breathe. and on the bad days they bring you food and sing silly songs and remind you that you’re real and you matter. you get obsessed over stupid shit and you live day by day because you can’t survive any other way, but your friends listen to you ramble and support you. you’re everything you thought you could be and nothing like you imagined and you’re sense of self is still so fragile but thats okay. you have good food and good friends and  that’s enough to live for.

anyway, Dorohedoro is my favorite manga, can you tell?

The way they’re both literally so me in completely different ways is actually suffocating.

You’ve both ruined my life and I love you both so much I ache everyday that when I look in the mirror I am nothing but disgusted in myself for not being able to be happy even in the stupid life I love