And now I listen to rock songs
As if I was casting a curse on you, a person who wronged me or was just plain wrong
Beating my
Back with the switch of embarrassment
Counting down from ten turned into
Counting down to when school ended
Destroying potential masterpieces and
Daring to act like my best friend
Examining me
Even to the point of just pure cruelty
Forgetting that we are the
Future
Getting what you wanted you
Gypped me
Happily fed the
Hatred in my heart
I'm still not social and I'm still not great at verbalizing
I clearly learned a lot from staying back
Javelined me with feelings of stupidity and low self esteem you
Justify this because you think it did me good
Knotted my life and slowed me down which
Killed me on the inside with depression
Lengthening my suffering by an extra year and my
Language, once again, has not improved
Motherfucker you
Misunderstood
Nervous because of your harsh, toughness maybe you
Never considered that it was you who was the problem
Ostracized me from my
Own class and best friend
Painful were the years that
Passed but the one spent with you was the most painful
Quivering were my lips, you were the ruling
Queen
Repress my feelings and I hold them inside so that I may move forward instead of staying in the same
Repulsive place where children’s minds are forced into corruption
Suffocation in my Thanksgiving bonnet with a
String under my chin holding in the awkward discomfort
Thinking back on those days with you causes me
Trauma
Underestimated are the soft introverts who are
Usually warm and caring rather than cruel, but now I have
Venom in my
Veins
What made you think that you should be in charge of my fate, while you aged,
Without talking I became stronger in my silence
Xenial from my classmates I so dearly miss and yet
X-rays will not show how much I hurt
You didn’t let me go down fighting,
You tried to sugarcoat my life
Zero in vocabulary you were a
Zealot