I Overthink Everything - Blog Posts
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I love my ship kid au but I feel so bad making content abt it cause like. I have 0 clue who made these silly little guys. Except for like 5 of them. And what if the og creators see my stuff and want credit. Or hate how I characterize and make their characters different to fit the silly trauma kids story.
ESPECIALLY when it comes to Kit. Idk who the fuck made Kit(Dust x Killer ship kid) but I love him. I have grown emotionally attached to him. But what if his creator hates him being used in other stuff? What if they hate the thought of Kit being heavily gay for and very confused about his feelings for another kid? What if they don't like how I treated his relationship with his parents or his siblings? What if they don't even WANT Kit to have siblings?
OH MY GOD AND CRILL?! I love Crill. Crill is 100% my favorite. But what if his og creator hates the idea of Cross literally abandoning his son? What if they hate the idea of his really strained relationship with Killer and Kit? What if they hate how I write him seeming like a whiney brat from Kit's pov or they hate how I write his interactions with Killer?
The whole point of Next Generation: New Beginnings(the fic based around my ship kid au) is strained relationships between family. That's why Killer is forcefully seperated from his LITERAL HUSBAND AND CHILD and is forced to forget them. That's why Cross abandons Crill to save himself and be actually geniunely happy. That's why PJ strives for his parents aproval and attention while Gradient has learned to just give up and try his best to do a better job raising his siblings than Ink did. That's why Crill hates Kit for being able to see the father that he always wanted, but feels like he wasn't good enough for.
Anxiety's getting to me chat :[