I’d rather be a lot of things
Than myself
On nights like these.
I wish I were someone new
Someone I’ve never seen
Someone who can tell me I’m alright and
There’s nothing wrong
With me.
I’d rather be a mindless beast
Than see humanity again
And I’d rather not wake up
Than face myself again.
I’m scared of myself
And the person I’ll be
And I’d rather be a lot of things
Than myself
On lonely nights like this.
I wish I could just say
How very tired I am
But I’m wrong and I know it
I’m ruined and I know it
Please let me speak
But you won’t
And I know it.
I’d rather do a lot of things
Than try again for you
I’m so tired
I’d rather cry
Than tell you how this feels
I’d rather be ashamed
Than fail again
I’d rather, I’d rather
But that doesn’t change
I’m still myself
On nights like these.