I both did and didn’t understand feeling so attached to the reality you’re shifting to that it emotionally affects you,,
like I understood when people would talk about their family or their significant others or their friends or their children in other realities and talk about how much they miss them,, I understand the concept of loving and missing someone
but I had never, personally, experienced it,, I had missed hanging out with them before and thinking of things we’d do if I were in that reality in that moment in time, but I hadn’t experienced longing over someone in another reality
but I do now and by the gods is it both the best and worst feeling in the world,,
I miss his voice and his dumb accent and his stupid witch cackles and the shitty way he dresses and his dumb flirting
I miss being in his arms and feeling him run his fingers through my hair and his hand in mine and how soft he would hold me like I was made of glass and how he loved me despite neither of us knowing what love was
I miss him
I’ve never missed someone like this before
it’s weird and it hurts, but I like it at the same time