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maybe if this was another person , camille wouldn't be so persistent , but she doesn't think she could easily let darius go . sure , she's fully aware by now that she's the fucking problem , and it's times like this that reminds her she wouldn't always get what she wants , but that doesn't mean she'd just sit back and do nothing about it . not when darius is right here , and all she could think about is how she could possibly turn back time so they would still be together —— she knows it's a little too late for that right now , but still , camille likes to believe she would've done the right thing if she was given the chance . after all you never know what you got until it's gone , right ?
his answer isn't what she hopes for , and even when he's trying to be nice about it , camille thinks he's just fucking with her right now . “ so you don't believe it , ” she remarks , feels another tear fall down her cheek . camille knows she should just bite her tongue , should just suck it up for now and gives him more time to think , but she doesn't really has any patience for that . all that she's hearing now is that darius no longer wants to be friends with her , and as much as she deserves it , it makes her more upset than anything else . god , she could feel her whole body trembling at this moment . “ why though ? ” she repeats , hands curling into ball of fists on her side . did he know that she went back to julien while he was away ? then again , it's not like they're keeping it a secret this time , she wouldn't be surprised if he knew .
“ because i don't love him , that's why . ” she breathes , “ he means nothing to me , darius . he's just some guy i fuck around with , that's all . ” and it's the truth , but it's hard to believe her words when everyone knows she's been spotted around julien grimaldi often enough that it would be ridiculous to assume otherwise , even if most of the time it's just them arguing in the middle of the street . things have always been so complicated between them anyways . “ i just didn't know what to do when you left me , ” she knows she shouldn't go back to julien though , given their history , and yet that's what she fucking did . “ well , it's true that i did go back to him , but we're already broken up at the time , so it doesn't really matter now , does it ? and please , if you don't think we'd ever be friends anymore , just fucking say it . ” it's easier for me to let you go that way .
camille sure knows how to lean into the dramatics. maybe it wasn't always a conscious decision but she drags the hurt out in the exact way he dreaded when he recognized her. “ you're in no position to make any demands from me. ” it's not meant to be a challenge but maybe his tone makes it that way. it's not like he'd be any less callous. they way she handled them built up so much resentment in himself. he's not sure where to put that hurt down. people like camille don't change overnight. the year that he was away was not enough for anything grand to take place. he thinks that maybe it's a little bit of his own fault for playing into her behavior when they were together. he did what she wanted, found ways to do it before she even asked. from where he was standing, it was princess behavior. some people don't really grow up. though it's not like he was very grown himself. “ i want to believe that at some point we could be friends again but that's all i can say for now. ” that's the thing about knowing someone so well. he's sure he's had that thought a million times over tonight. he knew her too well and it was difficult to see them at odds. she really would stand outside all night for an answer from him (they're both so stubborn). he eyes her up and down with a look of pity. julien grimaldi didn't seem to cut it for her but that was never darius' problem. “ why though? where's your white boy? ”
“ well , like i said , the one and only spidey i know is you , so of course , benny . you're the only spidey in my world , ” she admits , couldn't help the smile lingering on her lips when she's around him . “ i mean , that's good for you , really . who knows you could finally keep a secret from me ? ” she teases , shoulders lifted in a casual shrug . “ i guess i'll never know anything about your future projects anymore now that you're getting good at this , not spoiling anything before it's out , thing . not even to me , ” with her arms crossed , camille lets out a dramatic sigh , “ and here i thought i'd never lose that privilege . . . i get it , benny , i'm not special to you anymore . ”
“ does this mean that i am the only spidey in your world? ” he almost sounds cheesed at cami’s words, hands on his chest, eyes twinkling, lashes fluttering and everything. “ and that’s the thing, cami— i didn’t say a single word about the spidey trio. i got threatened into not spoiling anything and i actually didn’t say anything, not even to you. very impressive, if i do say so myself— especially when we remember that i have the tendency to spoil everything to you… guess i am going through a character development. ”
“ honestly , no truer words have been spoken . i'm always a sucker for mini skirts , but like you said , we don't wanna be scandalous and not - so - accidentally flash our asses to the entire alley . . . well , not today . ” it's definitely something that camille would do on purpose . anything to get people talking about her , but with aria around she's ought to put on her best behavior at the moment —— unless aria is down for a little misbehaving , of course . “ i know right ? did anyone really not think about it at all ? that's so crazy to me , like come on , people . it's 2024 , let us have some cute bowling shoes for once and all ! but for real , that better happens before this year ends or else i'm super convinced that they all hate bowling . ” shakes head at the thought , but instantly nods at aria's question . “ sure , we can totally go grab dinner after that . i really don't mind whenever so i'll leave that one to you , babe . ” she's never been picky when it comes to these things , and it's only fair to have aria decide on their dinner place since she already suggested for them to go bowling . “ the only thing i'm worried about is the power that we hold when we're together , i bet it'd be too much for them to handle , ” a pause for dramatic effect , and camille breaks into laughter at her own words . “ other than that , i got nothing to worry about for sure . but really , who cares ? paparazzi should be fucking banned at this point but they're not , so we might as well just do whatever the fuck we want , am i right ? ” paparazzi might be brutal , but they are the least of her worries right now .
" that's exactly what i was thinking ! oh fuck it i'll just wear the boots , in a perfect world i'd wear a miniskirt but i don't really like the idea of me bending over to roll the ball and flashing my ass to the entire alley , " it's a sacrifice she has to make to maintain at least some decency . " honestly now that you mention it , i'm kinda shocked none of the big names have gotten on that ⸻ nike or something really needs to get on that , i can't believe they've made fucking pickleball shoes before bowling ones , " there's a story somewhere in there , she thinks , tucking that thought away in her mental file cabinet as she pulls her current shirt over her head and tosses it to the side of her closet . " are we just going bowling or do you wanna go grab dinner or something ? there's a few places i've been wanting to try but i'm honestly not opposed to just roaming around until we find somewhere that looks good . . . but only if you're not too worried about like , paparazzi , i've heard they've been on the fucking prowl in soho recently , " she says , pulling on her shirt and disappearing around the corner to hangers sliding against the metal rods as she flicks through her rack of skirts .
looks up from her phone when she hears the familiar voice , excitement written all over her face at the sight of jisu . “ glad i could be your knight in shining armor and save you from that boring gala , ” comes her teasing , followed by a chuckle . “ i've been good , ” it's like an automatic response , because really , what else is she supposed to say ? camille has had worse days and today feels rather mundane than anything else . “ kinda have a few days off work so i don't really know what to do , ” she laughs . it's why she has texted jisu about going out for dinner tonight , never been the type to really stay at home and do nothing . “ and i think we haven't seen each other in a while too , right ? it's really good to see you , ji . ” lips pulled into an affectionate smile . “ you look stunning , by the way . i love your dress . ”
𝗪𝗛𝗘𝗥𝗘: sake no hana ( japanese restaurant ). 𝗧𝗜𝗠𝗘: 9:12pm. 𝗙𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚: camille addario ( @salvateure ).
lithe hands smooth over the front of her zimmerman dress, perhaps a little overdressed after leaving a gala at a nearby art gallery. she had been desperate to leave after two hours, and was happy to see the text from camille. jisu tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ear while the hostess leads her to the table, and a smile spreads once she sees the other blond. " hey! " jisu beams, thanking the hostess as she slips into the vacant seat. " i'm so glad to see you— i was losing my mind at that gala. " jisu sets her purse aside and settles her hands on her lap. " how have you been, cam? "
“ well , i'm in my bad guy era , remember ? of course i'm gonna twist your words , ” she lets out a laugh , fighting the urge to roll her eyes at his following words , “ okay , that absolutely has nothing to do with me not moving past my fangirl phase . ” their first meeting still makes her a little giddy every time she thinks about it , so maybe he's not all wrong about it either . “ i mean , how could i get over you ? nobody has ever serenaded me before and you made me one less lonely girl . . . that shit is kinda hard to forget , you know , ” she teases , only to break into a fit of giggles soon after . “ i thought a while ago you're flattered that i called you a natural , why are you so offended now ? damn it , logan , pick a fuckin' side . ” mirrors the look on his face , “ yeah sure , let's get us some ‘42 so we can feel like hot shit too —— oh wait , my bad . we're already hot shit now , aren't we ? ”
" don't twist my words ! " his exclamation is accompanied by a laugh — that's not at all what he'd MEANT , but she'd got him good . " oh , a natural , huh ? you flatter me ... thought you moved past that FANGIRL phase . good to know i've still got it . " hand rests over his heart , shooting a playful little smirk — and WINK — her way . hey , if she gets to tease him , then it's only fair that he gets to dish it right back ! it's all done lightheartedly , evidenced by the smile adorning his features . " you're ANNOYING . " he says it with love , " look , if this is your way of subversively telling me i'm being a dick , i've got the message loud and clear — but you can't say i'm not right . " he gives cami a look , " let's go get some '42 for ourselves . maybe your friend actually has a POINT . "
rolls her eyes playfully at mai's reaction , “ i'm not saying it's bad , okay ? you're making it seem like i just told you this is the worst thing i've ever tasted , which is not . ” camille never meant to be a buzzkill , seeing how excited mai was about the mac n ‘ cheese , but she's always been blunt when it comes to her opinion . “ well , now that you asked me about it , ” she takes a moment to ponder at the question —— the chicken caesar salad she's having right now might be good , but it's definitely not the best bite she's ever had . “ you know lady m ? their mille crêpes cake is to die for , especially the tiramisu one . that might be the best bite of my life so far . maybe we should go get some after this ? my treat . ”
sighing in defeat , mai looked down dejectedly at the bowl in front of her . “ unappreciated in your own time , ” she said to the cooling noodles , shaking her head in sympathy . “ not even the truffle oil was enough to get you rave reviews . ” she had to remember to actually leave a rave review to the restaurant , despite her opinion not being shared by everyone . “ i see your point , though , and now i gotta know what the best bite of your life was . ”
closed starter for wes @frivclous setting: someone's house party
lets out an embarrassed laugh now that her cover has been blown , “ okay , okay , you got me . i don't even know anyone else at this party . ” it's not often camille crashes into house parties , but she was feeling a little reckless tonight —— nobody could figure her out until she meets wes anyways , so what are the odds ? “ but if anybody asks , i can say i'm with you , right ? i mean , they probably won't , but it's nice to know i've got an alibi either way . ”
closed starter for ria @rhiannvns setting: any thrift store
usually spotted wearing designer clothes when she's out and about , most people aren't aware of the fact that camille also enjoys thrifting once in a while . browsing through the new arrivals section , she comes across a fellow patron who she notices has been eyeing a certain clothing for a while . “ you should get that one . i think it'd look really cute on you , ” she encourages . sure , nobody asked for her opinion , but she figures it won't hurt to say something anyways .
camille knows this is not easy for neither of them , but even when he's hurting , darius has always so patient and kind with her . she had expected for him to at least scream at her , to maybe shove her away and refuse to even stay a second longer and listen to her bullshit . she had already imagined the worst possible scenario that could happen , and yet now that they're standing face to face , all that she is reminded of is how badly she doesn't deserve anything from darius anymore . still , she finds herself wishing for some sort of miracle , and had he reacted way worse than this , camille would have been convinced that there's no hope for her to mend what's already broken .
“ no , it's not okay , ” she could feel tears welling up in her eyes , “ i know it's not okay so please , darius , just yell at me or something . tell me you hate me for what i did to you , anything , just fucking talk to me , alright ? i need to know if you still want me in your life or if it's really over between us . ” maybe it's a selfish thought —— camille believes that they would find their ways to each other again no matter what , but having spent so much time away from darius makes her think that she might get it all wrong . what if darius has actually moved on and she's the only one still hanging onto the idea of them together ?
pulls one hand away to wipe the tear falling down her cheek , “ i'm not leaving until you tell me your answer . ” this is what she came for anyways , and if darius truly doesn't want her in his life anymore , she'd try her best to stay away from him after this . “ tell me , darius , do you really think this is the end for us ? ” she knows they have already broken up , but she needs to hear it from darius again .
“ cami—it's okay. sorry—don't apologize. ” darius was never good with words. his thought process is all the divvied up emotions and things he'd like to say placed in a supercut. incoherent thoughts breed incoherent words, and he ends up hounding whoever had upset him. it's not fair to camille and anyone on the receiving end of his hurt. “ i don't doubt that you loved me. ” that's darius running on his own time. what could he have done at the height of his hurt? he'd never yelled at camille before—of all people, he didn't ever plan to.
but betrayal reaps a need for blood: he doesn't even hear it from camille. maybe if he did, he'd swallow whatever pride to try to understand—to try to make it work (because he wanted it to). it strikes him as a great loss: how does anyone deal with losing one's greatest confidant, companion, and lover all in one ? “ can you blame me—? ” it's the kind of pity party he hates to see and he pities her for a second. “ —stop that— ” because he knows she's hurting herself. open palms gather her hands in his. some things never change. he practices his self control and she loses her self control. “ it doesn't matter anymore. ” things like this were meant to stop hurting after awhile. it had been awhile. “ i'm not in the space to hear what feelings you don't and do have. ” camille addario is simultaneously the last person he wanted to see and also likely the last person he'd see tonight. “ compose yourself until you get home. ”
closed starter for miyeon @lovesues setting: smashing stuffs at rage room
“ i don't know if you've done this before but let me tell you , this is a fucking life saver . ” miyeon doesn't strike her as somebody who would enjoy breaking things but hey , that doesn't mean she wouldn't . “ okay , before you judge me or anything , i don't do this often —— it's been a while since the last time i did this and we all have something we're upset about sometimes , so why not ? ”
closed starter for josie @delicatlueur setting: new club grand opening in nyc
“ oh come on , babe . you can't just refuse to come with me at the very last minute ! we're literally almost there , ” she tries to reason with josie , but really , she's not going to take no for an answer —— it's how she even gets josie to leave her house in the first place . “ a friend gave me two vip invites and i haven't seen my best friend in a whole ass week . can you believe that ? a whole ass week , josie . plus , when was the last time you went to a club ? ”
closed starter for laurie @stclaires setting: empty balcony at some party
leans her back against the balcony as she takes a drag of her cigarette , a smile appears on lips when she catches a glimpse of laurie , waves him over . “ i promise i'm not trying to ditch you . just need a little breather , is all . ” she knows laurie would understand , but she doesn't mind his company either . if anything she's actually glad he's the one who found her , his presence always brings her comfort after all .
camille is very much aware that she should have never gone back to julien . anyone in their right mind wouldn't , but that's the thing , she wasn't in her right mind when she came back crawling to him . it's a bold move , shameless even , because while the public already had a target on her back , she went and did the only one thing that she shouldn't have —— her reputation has already been tainted anyways , but it gets worse every time julien grimaldi is involved . still , she finds herself enjoying every second of it . maybe deep down this is what she wants : the push and pull , the never - ending cycle of fighting and making up , the intense hatred mixed with desire . she knows he's no good for her , and yet she couldn't seem to find a way to leave ( she already did once , but is it considered leaving if she still comes back around like this ? ) , and now that she and darius are already broken up , there's nothing stopping her from falling back into old habits . maybe she's a little fucked in the head , but she loves the idea of being with julien , how he always bring out the worst in her . it makes her feel alive in a way , and it doesn't help that he knows just the right ways to keep her around either . but things with julien are just that , something she clings to for some sort of relevancy , something that makes playing the villain a little more tolerable . after all two is better than one , right ?
it's all fun and games between them , but she couldn't deny that every time he calls her name in that stupidly sexy french accent of his , it makes her feel giddy for all the wrong reasons . sure , he's got a fucking point . “ well , if you put it that way , ” she lets her words trail instead . julien definitely has the upper hand in this situation , but maybe it's about time she puts him back in his place . “ wait , did you hear that ? ” a brief pause for dramatic effect , “ that's the sound of me not giving a single fuck about what you think . but you know what ? i'll give you that —— it's true that you make it so fucking hard for me to leave sometimes , but don't get it twisted , yeah ? you're not that special to me . ” this time camille drops the smile on her face , gaze still on his , “ if you still didn't get the fucking hint , i'm dumping your ass , jules . and please , keep his name out of your fucking mouth . you have no rights to talk about him like that . ” it's almost laughable how she still wants to protect darius when she was the one who hurt him the most , but really , she could tell that julien probably brings him up on purpose , knows that she'd get all worked up over the mention of her ex .
julien isn’t some shining example of a good guy . no , far from it . he’s selfish , oozing ego and packed with a substantial dose of narcissism . so damn convinced he’s the center of the universe , so damn sure that anyone who’s ever heard of him wants him . and honestly , he’s not entirely wrong . plenty of people would kill to be camille right now , would act like the perfect little partner for the perfect little prince . but that’s the thing , julien doesn’t want that . he wants the drama , the thrill of the chase , that intense heat . and camille delivers just that — she brings the fire , the passion , the intensity , and gives him just enough of that ‘ love to hate you ’ energy to get him completely hooked . he loves the way her eyes practically roll into the back of her head but still betray desire . loves the way she yells at him in public , making them the talk of every tabloid website . and he absolutely loves explosive shouting matches that only wind down when they’re both naked , spent , and blissfully satisfied . but does he love her ? no . he loves that she’s his , that she brings something thrilling to a life that’s supposed to be so dull and boring . and that’s the reason , ( and he’ll swear it’s the only reason ) , why he’s never gonna walk away .
maybe this was his plan all along — to bring out this side of her . then again , maybe he actually thought she had a shred of loyalty to him . who really knows with this guy ? “ ooooh , now that’s the feisty camille i know and love . ” a smirk appears to lips as index finger traces her jawline , a gentle mockery of affection . “ you forget , chérie — the last time your loyalty slipped , wasn’t it my name on your lips ? you say you don’t do loyalty , i say you’ve been mine , all mine , since you cheated on that little boyfriend of yours . ” the real message here boils down to the fact that julien is a horrible human being . he couldn’t care less about loyalty or who she’s with , at least as long as he fits into the picture somehow . but , oh , if she ever considers revisiting things with her ex , that’s where he draws a line . hits a nerve on his fragile ego , maybe ? “ enough with this ‘ shoo , bad boy ’ act . weren’t you saying the same just last week ? and the week before ? and yet , here you are . seems you cannot resist , eh ? oh , but suddenly , you’re turning a new leaf for your oh - so - bland ex - boyfriend , just because he’s made his grand retour ? mon dieu , that’s truly … fuckin’ disappointing . ”
anyone in their social circle would have known that camille and darius go way back , and they were best friends before they were lovers . maybe that's why this whole ordeal hurt more than it's supposed to be , because what's worse than a heartbreak if not a betrayal from someone who you think would always have your back ? camille stays quiet at his question , knows well that she had been one of the reasons for why he starts smoking in the first place . hands raised to hug herself , as if trying to keep herself from falling apart , a reminder that she would have to push through this conversation no matter how painful it would be . after all she doesn't think she could stand seeing him around and not talk to him any longer , even if she knows he's probably sick of her by now . hell , even camille knows she's sick of herself . how could she not ?
she feels her nails digging into her skin at the thought . darius has been nothing but nice to her —— he's always been supportive of what she does , never seemed to question her choices or why she desperately wanted to be in the spotlight when he himself despises it . he never cared for the fame and attention , and even when their relationship wasn't made public , he always made her feel loved and seen . it's not like they were unhappy , and yet she still ended up in another man's arms , as if what they had was never enough to begin with . his words make her speechless , feels the pang of guilt rising in her chest . camille braces herself to look at him , trying to clear the lump suddenly caught in her throat . “ i'm sorry , ” she blurts out , because really , what else is she supposed to say to that ?
“ i'm sorry , ” she repeats , like a broken record . “ i really am . i know i fucked up so bad but , ” there's a pause , a moment to collect herself , and a sudden realization that there shouldn't be a but . “ i'm sorry , okay ? that was so fucking stupid of me and i know saying this probably wouldn't make a difference , but fuck it , darius . it's always been you . i've never loved anyone like i loved you . i mean , i still fucking do , but god , that doesn't even matter now , right ? ” maybe she should just shut the fuck up . “ you don't even fucking trust me anymore . ”
not that there was much to prepare for, darius just didn't think they'd speak for awhile. awhile because they'd known each other for so long. he woke up one day and saw his best friend in a different light. for better or for worse. “ when do you think ? ” it's hard to not sound as bitter as he does. he shifts uncomfortably: leans onto the wall one second and then stands on his own weight the next. he doesn't make eye contact either. because her eyes, maybe he missed her eyes—dark brown and honey sweet. a part of him is sure she's here to remind him of what's been broken. there is nothing like knowing someone so well. too well ? there's that prying question: did you go back to him? but it's none of his business and he bites his tongue at the thought. it's unfortunate for him that he knows her crave—the way camille rushes in for the affection, the validation. they're all with their own vices, he just never thought he'd be the one she was trading in. “ well, i didn't want to see you. ” his family made that much clear. he knew they missed her more than they'd ever admit to him. it took them awhile to get used to her and it took them awhile to move onto the idea of her. “ how— ” he wants to say something snarky, ask her why she cares. but he knew why she cared. “ yeah. ” darius expels a long sigh. he had practically held his breath since he saw her. then a rare, defeated, “ you hurt me, you know ? you didn't even consider me or what i was—to stay—god, cami, seeing you makes me wonder if i can ever trust anyone again. ” what he wants to say is: everyone could've wronged me but it was never supposed to be you.
“ i distinctly remember mentioning it to you though , it's not my fault that you chose not to listen to me , ” she rolls her eyes playfully , couldn't help the laugh that comes out after . maybe there is a possibility that she might have left that information out when they were talking , but confidence is key , and she's never been one to admit defeat easily , even for something as silly as this . “ god , no , can you even imagine that ? i would have probably came back from the dead and get changed because there's no way i'd be caught looking like this in a club . people are never gonna let me live it down , dead or not —— i could never recover from that , ” she invites herself into the house , hands intertwined as they make their way to aria's room . “ oh , don't worry , my place is just as messy , if not worse . ” camille gives aria a reassuring nod , taking a step behind to have a better look at the options shown to her . “ i know i said we're dressing cute , but that black top would look so hot on you , especially with a longer skirt and boots . and i know the ugly bowling shoes are such a buzzkill , but we can always take pictures before or after bowling —— seriously , how hard it is to make cute bowling shoes ? is it just not possible to look cute while we bowl ? that is so fuckin' ridiculous . ”
" i distinctly remember you not mentioning a single word about bowling , " now she's definitely the one who's not dressed for the occasion , leather mini - skirt certainly a bit much to be spending her night getting drunk and rolling balls into the gutter . " just to be clear , i meant no offense by my earlier comment i just know you and i know you wouldn't be caught dead in a club with jeans on , " she laughs , her head motioning towards the inside of her house , a silent invitation to come inside . " i'll get changed and now that you're here you can help me pick something better to wear , " cold fingers are laced between camille's pulling her towards her room where they're met with the sight of various pieces of aria's clothing sprawled out between the floor and her bed . " don't mind the mess , i was having a bit of an outfit crisis . . . " hands are freed as aria crosses through her room , heading straight for her closet . " okay , this one , or this one ? " she holds out the two for cami to get a good look at , " or i could go with like a longer skirt with boots ? ugh , but then we're gonna have to wear those ugly bowling shoes so it really doesn't even matter , huh ? "
see , camille would have agreed to his plan in a heartbeat , if only he hadn't mentioned her ex or implied that this had anything to do with his return to new york . that was his first mistake , to think that she would ever want to hurt darius ( she never meant to , even if her actions sometimes suggest otherwise , especially with julien involved . ) and comes julien's second mistake , to think that she has some sort of loyalty towards him —— what a fucking joke . it makes her want to laugh , but instead she settles with a coy smile as she looks up at him . “ oh , julien , ” she drawls . “ you out of all people should've known better that i have no fucking sense of loyalty . ” it's self - deprecating , but it also means ' my loyalty absolutely does not lies with you . ' hell , at this point camille is probably only loyal to herself and nobody else . “ i don't know what kind of message you're trying to send here , but i'm not doing this shit . here's what i'm proposing : just you and i , why don't we just stay the fuck away from each other ? ” for the record , this is not the first time she has said that to julien , but somehow there is a hint of seriousness in her tone this time . “ and if it's true that darius is actually back from hiding , then maybe i don't fucking need you anymore . ”
julien has this … claim … over camille . and it’s wrong . god , it’s all sorts of wrong . but he charmed her away from her ex once , didn’t he ? so why wouldn’t he think he could do it again ? “ so , i hear darius has emerged from his … comment dit - on ? ah , yes , hiding place , ” mumbles , lips ghosting her neck , barely touching , breath warm on her skin . he’s so damn confident , so very sure , as fingers tilt her chin up , up to meet his gaze . “ to that , i propose a night out . just you and i . oh , and a horde of paparazzi , of course . think of the message that’ll send , hmm ? it’ll paint such a vivid picture of where your loyalties truly lie . ” // @salvateure
“ well , if it makes you feel better , all the best people are crazy —— i'm pretty sure i've heard that somewhere . ” camille believes everyone has a little crazy in them anyways , it's what makes life so much fun and interesting . “ right , of course you are one of those people that read zodiac horoscope , ” she laughs . “ i would be lying to say i've never done it , but it's a little bit tricky , don't you think ? once you read the horoscope , you might want to believe it , so even if it doesn't happen the way it's supposed to be , you'd find a reason behind it , which is why in the end they all make total sense . that's just how it works , i think . it's not like they're real . we're the ones who make them real , you know ? ”
" well when ya' put it like that, i definitely sound crazy, " van chuckled, rolling her eyes at herself. suddenly fortune-telling was the tamest thing she could do in new york city . . . but what could she say ? she had her fears, and there was always something super off-putting about an old lady and her crystal ball. " maybe it's a business . . . but you don't think they're even a tad bit real ? never read your zodiac horoscope and thought, well, damn, that makes total sense ? "
“ i don't even know what i was expecting —— maybe it's the fact that it's based on the making of facebook , which is kinda interesting , but not interesting enough that you wanna recommend it to someone else . and yeah , maybe i did expect it to be a lot better than that , so i get what you mean , ” she offers her two cents , followed by a chuckle . “ well , nobody that i know , but rowing for fun doesn't even sound that abnormal . it's definitely not something i would do for fun though . to each their own , right ? either way eduardo saverin deserved better . ”
˙ ៹ movie night @ charlie's place
“ to be honest , with the way people talk about this movie i think i was expecting it to be a lot better than that , “ a kernel of popcorn is tossed into her mouth , the credits to the social network rolling across the flat screen that hung against the wall of her living room . “ well . . . let me not say that ⸻ it’s not like the movie was bad , i think the winklevoss twins really just freak me the fuck out , “ her head shakes , “ seriously , what normal people do you know that row for fun ? “ ( @salvateure )
“ i mean , of course not . i couldn't even imagine the second - hand embarrassment , but then again you're probably right . you wouldn't let that happen if it was somebody you know . ” camille knows she would have done the same if she was in teagan's shoes . “ did you at least try to stop them though ? i just know i would , even if it's none of my business . either way , what's done is done . i bet people would forget about it the next day —— unless somebody got it on camera , then they would just have to live with it for the rest of their life , sober or not . ”
“ i don’t . thank god . could you imagine ? ” teagan responds with a light chuckle . it really could be worse , the balloon stabber could’ve turned out to be her sister . paige is known to be dramatic after all . a stark contrast between the two yoon sisters . “ then again , if it were someone i knew then that definitely wouldn’t be happening in the first place . but you’re right some people just aren’t the brightest so we should be managing expectations . ” probably explains why teagan is so selective with who she lets into her inner circle . “ super drunk or high i get . i’m sure we’ve all done some questionable things . but sober ? now that was a conscious decision . i need them to live with it . ”
it would be a lie to say that camille isn't afraid that things would take a turn for the worst . she has always known that darius has a bit of a temper , but she's not usually on the receiving end until their break - up , in which she rightfully deserves in a way . a sigh of relief escapes from her as the tall guy eventually retreats from the situation , and she follows him to the side of the building , somehow feeling a bit antsy now that it's just the two of them here . at his question , camille opens her mouth to say something , but she couldn't seem to find the right words —— their relationship has already reached rock bottom at this point , and yet a small part of her still believes that she could save this , whatever's left of them , anything .
“ i didn't know you smoke , ” comes out her response , eyes glued to the cigarette in between his lips , momentarily catches herself staring for a second before she finally looks away . “ when did that even happen ? ” she could probably tell , knowing that she too has been indulging in some new bad habits since the last time they saw each other . she lets out a scoff , “ seriously , darius ? do you think that's what this is all about ? me trying to get back my things ? i don't even care about them . i just want a fucking excuse to see you . ” this is so pathetic , she knows , but she'd be damned if she doesn't take this chance to talk to him now that he's here . “ i heard that you're coming back to new york . is that true ? ”
old habits die hard. at least it's what his friends throw out whenever darius finds himself some trouble. it's the first time he's been back in months and he hears: ' the prodigal son returns. ' it's enough of a reason for him to shove his shoulders up against the other. textbook barfight: the force is enough to knock the stranger over a neighboring table, their friends gather, the two are idly held back. see, he heard that tone right. or wrong—the youngest suwan had a bone to pick with just about anyone. “ you know me, but who are you ? ” on a bad day, he would've done more but it was meant to be a good night. the following happens simultaneously: he looks over at his friends, notices their confusion, and he hears a familiar voice. camille addario is always going to be the last person darius would like to see. at some point they all thought the two would run as suwan-addario. he's disappointed (read: hurt—it's like reopening wounds he thought had closed) when he realizes who it is. “ alright, ” he decides. “ not worth it. ” his friends know him well enough to give him space. “ what do you want ? ” is what darius leads with. they end up tucked to the side of the building with his lighter struggling against his cigarette. his tone is dry and rugged—practically mumbles the question at her. “ i don't have your things anymore. ” it's why he ignored her texts about it. “ it's all tossed. what do we have to talk about ? ” because sometimes, words are put together to hurt others.
“ so you're saying i've got no standards or something ? touché , logan . ” of course camille only says that to mess with him , it's apparent from the playful smile toying on her lips . another laugh comes along at his following words —— how could she forget that she's in her bad guy era right now ? thank god for logan ! “ oh , trust me , i'm not . it's just that i'm not a natural like you so sometimes i get distracted . ” once her attention drifts back to logan , “ well , fuck him , i guess . i mean , if the logan im is offering to get me a table in the vip section , how could i possibly say no to that ? my friend over there absolutely got nothing on you . ”
" i've got standards , contrary to popular belief . " lips pull into a small smirk . it's not that he necessarily minds partying with the normies , it's more that he'd rather not have phone cameras pointed at him every time he moves . logan has learned over time to be more CAUTIOUS about such things . he lets out a short laugh , " thought you wanted to be the bad guy now . don't tell me you're chickening out already . have i taught you nothing ? " eyes follow her gaze to the man in question , giving his head a quick shake , " highly doubt it . look at him — feels like hot shit with his bottle of 1942 . he's not gonna notice anyone unless they're trying to take that bottle out of his hands before he's done milking it . "
“ well , what can i say . . . if i were you , i'd be obsessed with me too . ” there's a cheeky grin on her face now as she looks at vivi , glint of mischief evident in her eyes . truth to be told , camille doesn't do it on purpose , but now that it has become her signature look , she's not complaining about it either —— in fact she kinda thrives with it . “ why thank you , babe . i totally needed that ego boost but okay , enough about me now . ” she instantly lights up at the mention of a bedazzled microphone . “ ooh , a bedazzled microphone for when you're on stage sounds really cute ! it's probably a little cliché for a singer though . how about a cute little necklace with your name ? or just your initial on it , you know , regina george style . either that or maybe you can wear 5 rings that spell sweet on one hand . that would be sweet i think , pun absolutely intended . ”
" oh , don't flatter yourself , camcam . " she's rolling her eyes , but it's true : shes loves cami ... even if their dumb little arguments suggest otherwise . that's her bitch ! " and they're so you , like ... classic , CHIC , but somehow a little edgy at the same time ... you've done a good job building a brand for yourself . marketing genius ! " she beams , " hm ... well ... besides you ... i don't really know . maybe i should have a little necklace that you never see me without ? or , like , a bedazzled microphone for when i'm on stage . have you seen how pinkpanthress always has a purse on her when she's performing ? — something cute and memorable like that . "
“ okay , i've never been peer pressured into eating glue before nor had i ever peer pressured anyone into doing so —— who the fuck would peer pressure somebody into eating glue anyways ? that's just fucking bizarre . and sure , you might say you're fine right now , but isn't that still dangerous ? like are you sure you're not just gaslighting yourself into thinking that eating glue is fine ? we should probably get you checked or something . ” maybe camille just got lucky she didn't have much peer pressure growing up , and she would like to believe that she could very much stand up for herself and say no to doing things that she shouldn't be doing ( re : eating glue ) but maybe kids tend to be more relentless and it's easier to give in to peer pressure when you're younger . with a tilt of her head , camille gives the other an eye roll before saying , “ all i'm hearing right now is excuses , babe . i don't know who the fuck dragonrider420 or whatever that thing is , but if you're too scared to do this you can just say so . i'm not gonna peer pressure you into it . ” camille has never been the ultimate peer pressurer after all , even if she might seem like she is . “ if anything you were the one trying to poison me with your glue - infused drink , ” she teases , followed by a laugh . “ you can just put it on my tab and throw it out so we can both stay alive , by the way . i promise i won't snitch on you . ”
with phoebe crane, whose mouth is silently constructing eloquent aspersions of the decidedly un-babe-like kind, there is no calm before the storm. there is only the rambling tornado that sends limbs flying into a sign language with no signal for stop, that breaks the fujita scale into the components of a virgin mojito. curse her for thinking camille would understand. then again, if camille couldn’t get behind the extremely real feminist movement of turning fungal overgrowth into a fashion statement, there was no way she’d get the glue-eater tag trending without some real persuasion. if she almost knocks the shot glass over while presenting her case, it’s a happy coincidence that only highlights the passion with which she defends her life and its questionable continuation. ‘ i didn’t do it on purpose! either the wrong-alcohol-putting-inning or the glue eating. you know what peer pressure is, right? i mean, i guess you’re basically the ultimate peer pressurer, but that just means you have a civil duty to drink glue with me whenever you’re done with whatever you’re dressed up for, ‘ she says, scrawling a jumble of digits and decimal points onto the counter with the chipped tip of her fingernail in an attempt to calculate ninety-nine per cent of one hundred. her concentration is broken by the other’s dalliance with negotiation, which phoebe replies to with a grin that’s all incisors. incisors that are also covered in the shiny, fake flavour of expired lip balm. ‘ uh, we’re out of straws. save the turtles, y’know. also, god is a woman, and i dmed her about this whole sitch and she said that i cannot leave my campaigns to the grubby hands of dragonrider420. ‘ in one swift motion that suggests ample history with health inspectors, she brings out a photo of her favourite npc thus far – a grotesque goblin kid with pupils shaped like daggers. ‘ do you really wanna condemn this adorable baby to eternal oblivion? ‘
closed starter for darius @oiympian setting: some bar in nyc
it's one of those nights where camille goes pub crawling with some friends , going from one bar to another and by the time they get into the nth bar she's already starting to feel a tad bit intoxicated , which is why she almost couldn't believe her eyes when she spots him across the room . camille could recognize that tall figure anywhere , even from the back , and once she manages to catch a glimpse of his side profile , she's convinced that her gut is right —— that's definitely darius suwan , and of course he's in the middle of the bar about to fight somebody , so camille stumbles on her way towards him , swiftly places herself in between the two before she turns to face darius , hoping that her presence could distract him from the other guy . “ thank god i found you , ” she purrs , followed by a giggle . “ it's a little crowded in here , don't you think ? ” one hand tugs at his arm gently , “ let's go somewhere a little more private , yeah ? ”
“ i would hate to disappoint you , ” comes a pause in an attempt to mimic mai's dramatic reaction . “ but i'm not a big fan of mac n ' cheese . i mean , if you love it so much then more power to you . i just don't vibe with it as much as you do . ” still , camille leans closer to take a bite of it , not wanting to embarrass mai now that she already holds it out for her . “ that's pretty good , i'd say . not the most delicious bite of my life though . ”
𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 : open starter , @nepofmstarters 𝒘𝒉𝒐 : mai & anyone 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 : chelsea market , meatpacking district
“ not to be dramatic , ” she began , placing down her fork in order to better wax poetic about her lunch . “ but this is the best mac n ’ cheese i’ve ever had in my life . i swear they put something in this to make it so addicting — besides cheese , obviously . ” scooping a generous forkful , she holds it out across the small table in offering . “ here , try it . if it’s not the most delicious bite of your life , i’ll treat you to whatever you want . ”
“ to be honest , i didn't even know there are other spideys than you . ” camille isn't too familiar with superheroes movies , that much is obvious . how is she supposed to know that there would be two different spider - men other than benny ? “ i only watch the movie because of you , obviously . can't believe you didn't even warn me about the spidey trio in it . ”
⋆ open starter, @ after spider-man: no way home’s premiere.
“ so, ” benny grins once he has reached your muse, hopelessly seeking to finally have a normal conversation with someone — literally anyone! that wasn’t part of the never ending press, “ were you expecting to see the three spideys together or was it a complete surprise? ” @nepofmstarters
“ oh my god , please , whoever had their bagel scooped is out of their fucking mind —— i'm definitely with you on this one so nope , i'd say you're being reasonable . like how is that even allowed ? i mean , i'm not trying to judge people for the way they're eating but that's so weird . it won't be a bagel anymore if the inside got scooped out anyways . ”
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“ i heard someone asking for a scooped bagel . not to be mean but i kinda wished i wasn’t leaving the shop to hear the aftermath of that . guess they didn’t see that one scooped bagel tiktok . ”
“ first of all , that's so rude . second of all , which part of this screams we're staying in for you ? ” hands gestured randomly over her outfit , an offended look washes over her face . “ i was feeling cute and shit and now i don't even know anymore . well , at least i'm dressed for the part , ” she blurts out , motioning towards aria . “ i distinctly remember telling you to wear something cute because we're gonna go bowling . . . i guess you didn't hear that one . ”
˙ ៹ open starter :
“ um . . . i thought you said we were going out tonight , “ she gives [ name ] a quick scan with her eyes , one of them clearly must have misinterpreted the dress code for tonight’s plans . “ when you said out i thought you meant like to dinner or to the club or something , not out of the bed and onto the couch . . . “ ( @nepofmstarters )
there's a forced smile on her face when she looks at myles —— truth to be told , camille has been on her phone half of the time so she definitely has missed it . “ yeah , yeah , i totally saw that , ” she agrees anyways , head nodding to further reassure him . “ too bad i didn't get it on camera but hey , at least we both know you did it , am i right ? ”
closed starter for @salvateure ! ↪ after a game !
thrill of winning the game has completely blinded him to the fact that they're not actually friends , " — did you see that ?! 5 - 0 ?! did you ?! i made two of those goals — you saw it , right ? "