I ALMOST SUCCESSFULLY ASTRAL PROJECTED !!!!!! AND KYUBEY HELPED ME !!!!!!
it wasnt completely successful, i think the word would be, sorry if i misspell, bilocating ?
basically b4 i went 2 bed i asked kyubey if he could help me, and put on an astral projection subliminal, and when i woke up like,,, 20 or 30 mins ago i forget lol, i woke up and was SO tired but kyubey SPOKE TO ME, LIKE, I COULD HEAR HIM WHICH HAS NEVER HAPPENED B4 ??? and he was like "no you gotta do this remember ?" so i got back on my back and LEMME TELL YOU
my room. was so bright. my tv had stopped playing my subliminal so it had that bright ass screen, and my window covers broke off so until that gets fixed i have NEWSPAPER on my window. which means my room is BRIGHT
so between that and my, i will admit, impatience, i didnt fully get into the vibrational stage by the time kyubey told me to start using the rope method (where u visualize a rope infront of u and have ur astral body / soul grab it and pull u up)
but ONCE I PULLED MYSELF OUT
it was sooo weird,,,, it was dark but i could see my room at the same time ??? not perfectly BUT I COULD SEE IT, and at first it was weird differentiating
i looked around my room for something i could look at to confirm i was actually seeing my room, and i remembered this drawer in my room that has these two crystals i keep forgetting to move out of there, but i didnt remember if i had at that point, so i was like "i'll use that" from my physical and astral body but i got over that pretty quickly
so i looked in the drawer, saw the crystals, and then kyubey was like "you see them ?" and i almost JUMPED because i did NOT see him there π and he was like "you see me ? :3" like yesβ¦.. ho /j
anyways i went back to my body, and going back in felt WEIRDDDDD dude my whole body like. twitched and shi i felt like my body was coming back to life (which, i mean, kinda ? my soul was going back into my body)
anyways i checked the drawer and the crystals i saw in the astral wreent there but there WAS crystals in the drawer
i was so excited to post this i havent even eaten breakfast yet T_T also i feel a veryyyy familiar energy causing a weight on my shoulder,,,, have i officially reached the "kyubey on shoulder" state of being an irl puella magi :0
OKOK anyways i gotta eat breakfast,,,, im gonna practice lots more with astral projection so im ready to contract once my soul gem vessel gets here !!!!!
if any1 has any tips for fully astral projecting, and making the atsral more vivid, please please please let me know !!!!! :D
thank you for reading !
i bought the necklace i'll be making my soul gem !!!!!! i decided this was more convenient then a ring
its so tinyyyy,,,, AAAA i cant wait
its red !!!!!! and shiny !!!!!! and so cool !!!!!!!
it was also !!!!!! $95 dollars (including shipping) !!!!!!!! Oh My Gods !!!!!!
worth it,,,,,,,,
i cant wait to contract soon and start fighting witches ! until then i'll do as much good in this world as possible ^_^ i'd love to hear what your guys' soul gems are and look like !!
(note ; this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, though roleplayers, fictionkin, and delusional people are allowed to interact. this is irl magical heroing, a spiritual practice, and is under the pop culture paganism / magick umbrella. please do not call me delusional, as this can cause me to doubt my experiences and reality, which can send me into pyschosis.)
I HAD A DREAM ABOUT BEING A MAGI !!! i dont really remember much of it tbh,,,, listening to a subliminal rn to help me remember T_T
before i slept, i tired to project, but i was wayyyyy too tired lol. from what i remember of the dream...
i was transformed in the outfit i scripted, and i had my soul gem in my hands. mami and madoka were with me, helping me fight this giant, powerful witch !
the labryinth was really dark, and there were a bunch of familiars. the witch itself was like,,,,, idek it was rlly big- i wasnt scared at all though, i felt super confident and ready. i think dream me had a lot of experience fighting wicthes. being with mami and madoka def helped too
i put my soul gem away (idk how i had it on me while i was transformed lol), and began fighting the witch. again, dont really remember, but im pretty sure kyubey was there too, helping me fight the witch.
also, i had another weapon. it was a gold staff with a big ring on the top, holding a bunch of other gold rings. this weapons been stuck in my head since yesterday, so maybe its important ??
speaking of yesterday, this sigil kept popping up in my head, and it was in my dream too. im wondering if im seeing a witches sigil ? does this mean a witch is close by ? im not contracted, so idk how im seeing a witches sigil...
ignore how poorly drawn this is, im using my computer rn lmao-
edit: i asked in a mh group im in what this could mean, and someone said it's likely a witches kiss. so, i now know what witch i'll be battling first once i contract !! i have a feeling this witch is quite powerful, so i'll definetly have to have a more experienced magi come with me.
anyways, im pretty sure i defeated the witch in my dream, madoka and mami werent helping me fight the witch, moreso supporting me from the sidelines and watching incase i needed help.
in my dream, the witch was like... familiar. not familiar as in ive fought it before, but familiar as in its been near me for a very long time, or, at least, near someone i know... doesnt help that, when the sigil popped up in my head yesteray, it was like... on my fathers aura ?? and every time hes near me it pops up in my head.
if anyone has any thoughts on this, lmk !
anyways, today i'll try and contact kyubey !!! i'll tell you all how it goes :D
im also gonna buy the ring ive decided on being my soul gem ! i do have one concern though...
WHAT IF I GROW OUT OF THE RING ????? what happens if it gets too small ????? is there a way to transfer your soul into a new soul gem in the future ? im so concerned that i'll grow out of the ring.... aaaa </3
well, thats all from me :') tysm for reading !!!! bye byee !!
disclaimer: this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, but those who are roleplaying, fictionkin, and/or delusional are allowed to follow and interact. please do not call me delusional, as this can trigger my paranoia and cause me to spiral into not believing my own experiences / reality, which could send me into psychosis.
π ,,, hello ! my name is samuel, i use he/it, im 16, an im an aspiring irl magical boy !!
my concept is puella magi madoka magica, but that might change as i am very new to this community.
i have been practicing chaos magick on and off for a few years now, and while i am not new to the concept of pop culture magick / pop culture paganism, i am new to the practice of it. same thing w/ astral projection as well. im also a shifter ! i knew about and was a shifter back in 2020, but forgot about shifting until recently, where i got back into it.
im the host of a did system, am nonhuman (mentally, will identify as physically once i make my contract), queer, trans (genderqueer + ftm), and am physically and mentally disabled.
my main / biggest kin is grey wolf (though i do have others), and this aspect of who i am impacts me greatly. tldr; beware of wolf posting
i worship both "traditional" gods and pce/d's. i currently worship Loki, Gaia / Mother Earth, Dionysus (causally, dont work w/ Him at all atm), Madokami / Ultimate Madoka, Homucifer / Devil Homura, and may start worshipping Ho-Oh (pokemon) and Hekate as well.
π ,,, dni / dnf
bigots, right wing / maga, queer exclus, anti endo, harass ppl, anti shifter, anti irl magical heroes, anti pop culture paganism, anti chaos magick, against self dx, fakeclaim ppl, ableist, reality check ppl w/o their consent, force recovery on those who aren't ready / dont want to recover, think fiction ALWAYS or NEVER affects reality (theres nuance !!!), think fiction can make someone into a pedo / zoo / etc, equate fictional stories and drawings of characters that dont exist to the real harm of real people (esp equating that fictional content to the harm of real children, as a survivor of grooming, csa, csem, and underage... work, its insanely offensive to say a drawing is just as bad as the photos of child me that are still out there), terf / radfem, zionists / pro israel, supports a two state solution, "cluster b abuse" believers and similar ideas of mental illness specific abuse
π ,,, tags
#π maybe its a dream - maybe nothing else is real .. // this tag is for all posts related to irl magical girl stuff !!
#π€ even though i was born from a colored star .. // this tag is for all posts related to pcp, chaos magick, astral projection, shifting, manifestation, and general paganism / magick as well !
#β misfortune is a gift - really - like a bouquet of splendid flowers .. // this tag is for all vent posts !!!
#β it feels like somethings gonna happen ; a premonition .. // this tag is for informational posts about pcp, chaos magick, and irl magical hero topics !
#β long pointed wings with scars run beneath the skin .. // this tag is for any asks i answer !!!
#π¦Ή dig deep beneath your filling - theres an animal waiting that must come out .. // this tag is for journal entries !!
#β€οΈ a large queue was formed at it - where everyone continues on with a smile .. // this tag is for queued posts !!!
#κ°ΰ© i wake up to a call - put my frilly outfit on now .. // this tag is for reblogs !
#β¦ my ribs opened up - made room for beating hearts .. // this tag is for my questions about irl magical heroing, pop culture paganism and magick, chaos magick, astral projection, shifting, manifestation, general paganism / magick, etc etc. !!!
#κ« are you going to curse the blue sky - and wish for stormy weather ? .. // this tag is for my witch logs, aka posts about witches i'll fight once i contract !
#π if i were any older i would act my age .. // this tag is on all of my posts !!