Joy And Peace - Blog Posts
Sex to feel better.
I was very upset the whole day today. Just very out of my body, and I felt like I was too much in myself, and I could feel the blackness near my heart about to engulf me in depression.
Tonight, my husband was very concerned. He said that I wasn’t myself, and he missed me. He asked me how he could help me.
I said, “can we make love?” He smiled and led me upstairs. And for 30 minutes he brought me back to myself, and all the stress, anger, guilt, pity, hate, and at last, all there was left after I was brought back down to the world was a weight lifting off my shoulders, and such love for him. I even told him.
Me: I love you.
Him: I love you too.
Me: No, I mean, I really love you. I’m in love with you.
I wanted him to know, that this was the love I felt for him. I put all that feeling I had for him in my declaration, and I felt desperate in this moment. His one response that melted me, no matter how small was, “I know,” as he hugged me from behind and kissed my shoulder.
He made me feel whole again, he relieved my stress, he took my mind off my anger, and he put my depression back at bay.
Him: Did we have sex just to have sex, or to make yourself feel better?
Me: Yes.
Laughter ensues.
I’m so happy I want to share it with the world.
