Still making opal, just lack a drive due to personal reasons... But once I am able to I want to make other stuff, more detailed I guess, like practice with bodies I guess, it might help me with my drawings and what not, it just seems I can pump out sculptures more than I can drawings, so it’s kinda discouraging when I draw something for a long time I don’t get as much satisfaction as seeing something sitting in front of me. I love drawing, it just feels kinda pointless even though I think I finally found “my style” after all these years, it’s funny though, ever since I was kid I’ve always been involved/interested in the same things, drawing, minerals, outerspace and sculpting, I would rarely hang out with others. I’d always just draw and dig outside looking for pretty stones and stuff, a teacher handed me clay with a sculpting book on how to make beads and tiny food when I was in 5th grade, I enjoyed building things out of wood in middle school and then ceramics in HS, it’s funny in HS it got to the point pretty much any teacher would let me sculpt and draw in class, I miss school, I miss being able to feel “important” or like I meant something, that I had people to talk to about whatever, being able to actually step outside without having a panic attack (heck a bear running in front of me at 5am on my way to school didn’t even freak me out as bad as just speaking to someone now. I’ve regressed so badly, I want to be how I used to be, I want to be able just to walk to a park and sit outside, I want to try my hand at an anime con again and maybe even trying to get a table in AA, but....I don’t know what’s happened to me, all these hopes and dreams I’ve had are all just....so hard to comprehend anymore.