Just Why - Blog Posts

My brother has just moved out of our parents house and has been on his own for the last three months. He was making good future plans and bad financial ones. Then he decided to change those future plans and like I want to be supportive but .... 😑..... The plans aren't good for him. Like it's his future but this plan is very impolsive but I mean it's not my life and I can't just micromanage him like our parents. Then my sister called the other day and mentioned it , asking me what I thought and I just let out a minute long sigh.

New Things to Beware on the Internet

On May 3rd, Google released 8 new top-level domains (TLDs) -- these are new values like .com, .org, .biz, domain names. These new TLDs were made available for public registration via any domain registrar on May 10th.

Usually, this should be a cool info, move on with your life and largely ignore it moment.

Except a couple of these new domain names are common file type extensions: ".zip" and ".mov".

This means typing out a file name could resolve into a link that takes you to one of these new URLs, whether it's in an email, on your tumblr blog post, a tweet, or in file explorer on your desktop.

What was previously plain text could now resolve as link and go to a malicious website where people are expecting to go to a file and therefore download malware without realizing it.

Folk monitoring these new domain registrations are already seeing some clearly malicious actors registering and setting this up. Some are squatting the domain names trying to point out what a bad idea this was. Some already trying to steal your login in credentials and personal info.

This is what we're seeing only 12 days into the domains being available. Only 5 days being publicly available.

What can you do? For now, be very careful where you type in .zip or .mov, watch what website URLs you're on, don't enable automatic downloads, be very careful when visiting any site on these new domains, and do not type in file names without spaces or other interrupters.

I'm seeing security officers for companies talking about wholesale blocking .zip and .mov domains from within the company's internet, and that's probably wise.

Be cautious out there.

Internet And Tumblr Don’t Mix

Me: Let’s look at tumblr

Wifi: cackles evilly

Me: Shut up, you’re not ruining a perfectly good day.

Tumblr: Sorry none of your images or text will load

Me: *screams in agony*

why have humans created things such as humanoid robots, and yet we are still using those horrible tiny things to put pictures in frames?

Why, why on Earth do I ruin so many things? Unintentionally hurt the ones I love or care about most...because I'm an idiot. I don't always sit back and look at everything. I get blinded by my emotions and what I think I want..and not what I REALLY want and need...

*Wakes up* Me: Oh cool, what're we gonna do today, brain?

Brain: Back to sleep.

Me: What? But there wasn't even an alarm-

Brain: Back to sleep.

And this is why Social Darwinism is a thing

This deserves a post. We are reading Othello in class and my friend, who cannot for the life of him can draw, drew this masterful piece of artwork and keeps insisting that Othello has a one sided love for Iago. I don’t know what the fuck to say to this…

This is just looming in my art classroom and the person who made it is so proud and knows just what they did. I still question it today.

Ooooookay.

So this is partially the blog post I promised to my awesome mysterious tumblr mutual @lostclouds-world and partially an autism issue rant. If you don’t want to deal with that kind of stuff go ahead and skip this one.

So my friend that I’ve caught feelings for, has also told me numerous times that if I ever needed to talk that she’d listen. Well, of course I took that at face value, and because of how crappy this week has been mentally and lots of things bothering me, I finally caved and just poured it all out, including how I feel. It felt great to get everything off my chest, but I almost immediately felt like I had made some sort of mistake. It was so unfair of me to just put that all out there, even though I’d been told if I needed to I could.

Well it took almost all day for her to respond, and it turns out I was flipping right. I had once again apparently overstepped, and overshared. I had no shot to begin with, and now I’m not even sure I’ve got a friend because I was having a mini-crisis and turned to someone who had consistently told me that I could go to them if I needed to get stuff off my chest. So that’s that part. Now for the rant.

So why the flip do I even trust anyone when they say they’ll be there for me anymore? That every time someone says that if I need to talk, that they’ll listen? Pretty much every time I trust that, it turns out to be a lie. And why the flip do they try to assume that I want them to fix it?? Like if I’m talking to someone about something I don’t want them to fix it, I just want them to listen. I’m capable of dealing with crap myself, but talking it out helps. I swear sometimes I really hate being autistic because I can’t ever seem to be able to understand what people actually mean. And more importantly, why the flip do neurotypical people say things they don’t mean?? Like just say exactly what you mean, not what you think you should say. I’d have a lot more respect for people if that was how it worked.

But it’s not how it works, and so I’m stuck in a seemingly endless loop of trusting people only to be told that they’re not my therapist. Like you bitch of course you’re not my therapist. You’re my flipping friend, and YOU TOLD ME I COULD TRUST YOU IF I NEEDED TO TALK. But when I actually need to talk, it’s always either “I’m not equipped to handle this” or some variation of “I’m not your therapist”. Like cool, I wish I would’ve known you didn’t actually intend to just listen and let me rant BEFORE I came to you to rant.

And you know what, maybe it is just my fault for ranting to them in the first place. Yet when I talked to my therapist about wanting friends who will listen and be there for me while not trying to fix my problems for me, I was told BY MY THERAPIST that I needed to find friends who would do that. And how the flip am I supposed to do that without trusting my friends? I swear that I’m going to lose my mind if even one more person that tells me I can talk to them when I need to about whatever I’m going through only to turn around and act like I’m overstepping a boundary. People can really frigging suck without being a horrible person.

Like I’ve had a lot of good friends who are usually good people that I trusted only to then essentially lose them because I talk to them about whatever I’m going through, good or bad. So I’m questioning why the flip I even try to trust people anymore. Maybe it’s because I like trusting people to be good people, or maybe it’s because I can’t seem to not take people’s words at face value. Either way, it’s just another way my autism is alienating me from those close to me. And I can’t help but feel like it’s all my fault somehow because I just trust people’s word and take them at face value. I wish I wasn’t like this and that I could just be normal and not struggle with this stupid part of living. I swear eventually the only people I will ever interact with is random people on the internet. Anyway, rant over. Thanks for coming, I’ll see y’all whenever. Hope y’all are doing better than I am

My parents (mostly my dad) always give me their old ticket concerts for me to put on my board. (And other things)

Some weeks ago my mom found this John pic they used in my country for a disco ad😭

WHY DID THEY USE JOHN’S IMAGE FOR A DISCO???

They didn’t even put rock music there😭

You can always start over with things- wrote something wrong? Start over. Ruined a project? Start over. But how do you start over with a faulted friendship? Can you start over, as if nothing happened before? How do you state the facts? How can you know when things started to go wrong? How do you know when the other person switched off along the way, while you were busy telling things, which are nothing if not truth? How could you start over?

I was so bored in my art class today after I finished my felt project I said screw it and made a mini jack he's so ugly

My project was this little mushroom guy.

So I was bored and I have no idea how I got to making this but here

i can just be sitting around and a random question pops in my head. “why do people eat ass?”

7,828,104,691 people on this fucking planet, and I had to fall for the gay hedgehog with the overgrown hair

Does anyone know why humans have an urge to pat random objects?

It's like the caveman part of me tries to please an ancient entity that blesses us with warm water and the other part is like: "Man,stop petting our boiler it's not like it feels anything"

And I still keep doing it just because I don't want it to be upset...

Nova would have been heartbroken when Tech died.

He was the one that told her she could do it, the one that helped her recover in her darkest times. He was the one that understood her anxiety in social situations.

Nova would have tried to use the force to save Tech. But she couldn't. She felt like she had failed him.

I don’t even know what’s happening anymore

good evening tumblr! for the low low price of $4.20 i will give you a fact that will ruin your night!

Something I never understood was why people shower in the morning? Like if you leave the house you get home sweaty and dirty and you just put on new clothes and go to bed!!!

Does anyone else remember when your teacher asked you to grade or “self assess” yourself on something because I hate that so much.

Don't know why.

But I DON'T FEEL RIGHT.

death sounds more appealing than period cramps