Sometimes I get overly obsessed with a certain person, and then I slowly start to despise them as I realise they do, in fact, have flaws
the psych facility I stayed in at 17 didn’t give me a room due to my being a wheelchair user.
i was forced to sleep on an air mattress on the floor in the dayroom of the psych facility because they were “afraid i would fall”.
the dayroom was the “hub” of the facility. i had to try to sleep while patients were getting prepped for admission at the desk only a few feet from me. while people were getting blood drawn, meds administered, etc. i barely slept.
they also didn’t let me bring my own wheelchair in, and made me use a hospital wheelchair which was not fit to my orthopedic needs. my shoulders still ache when i see one of those fucking rust buckets.
psychiatric care is not safe for physically disabled people. if i have another mental health crisis, I will choose anything over going back to one of those places. i would rather die by my own hand than go back there and be subjected to that kind of treatment again.
inpatient psychiatric care is typically only for physically nondisabled people.
psych facilities will often simply turn you away if you have mobility aids or specific medical or access needs they are unwilling to meet. i have also heard stories of them doing things like taking away people's communication devices.
institutional psychiatric 'care' is a mixed blessing at best, but since it's what we have, it should be available to everyone who needs it. people with non-psychiatric disabilities are more likely than average, not less, to need this type of care. but it is often not available for us.
hi guys i've decided to revisit tumblr and make a post again because social anxiety is stupid and the internet is mean but it's not worth avoiding people just because ur scared of getting judged for literally anything. you can't live your life hiding yourself because of constant fear of judgement and i know it all too well. i know tumblr is one of the only social media sites anyone can be themselves on anymore so i have retreated back to tumblr. so hi hello how has the hellsite been
guys i feel sick af and having a cast succkkkssss :(