So, under the influence of god knows what, I changed my user and kinda my whole vibe. I’ve gotten REALLY into scene stuff lately and decided to make it my branding
DO NOT WORRY ALL 3 PEOPLE THAT FOLLOW ME, CONTENT WILL REMAIN THE SAME.
Speaking of content, where’s that been?
CW: Mental Health BS and mentions of Ab*sive behavior
So, basically, I was working on some stage stuff (cuz I’m a theater major) and I was working tech/backstage stuff, (which was my first time doing so) and my stage manager was a BITCH. She would constantly verbally harass me and purposely made me feel insignificant compared to the rest of the tech crew and cast. There was even a moment she straight LIED to me RIGHT TO MY FACE. JUST SO SHE COULD GET UNDER MY SKIN.
Even though it’s been like almost 2 months since I’ve had to work with her, needless to say, I am deeply traumatized. My mental health has plummeted and I genuinely cannot go a day without fearing for my wellbeing the next time I even so much as have a CHANCE of seeing my SM again. I was in genuine paranoid episodes everytime I finished a show at my high school (volunteer work) she was somehow gonna be there.
So, yeah, TLDR: Stage Manager verbally abused me for 3 weeks straight and now I think I have PTSD
With all that being said, I do hope to post stuff soon. Maybe I’ll do a Kandi tour (cuz that’s pretty much all I’ve had the motivation to do) I’ve got some pretty cute stuff that I hope y’all like
Anyways, thanks for reading, all 3 people that follow me, I hope to do stuff and things in the future
hi! just a quick post i decided to make after a very eventful evening. i can’t talk for everyone, but there's something that people tend to do whenever i’m having a panic attack. i tend to shake my hands a lot, and tap them on any surface that will make noise. it is my way of keeping myself on the ground. most people come up to me, and immediately grab my hands. this does not help. in fact, i usually start kicking. shaking. yelling. anything that i can possibly do to make them let go. this makes whoever's there with me instantly go on the defense, which just elevates the situation. this has happened to me again, and again, and again. basically, stop restricting someone who’s already feeling compressed enough. you are not making anything easier.
thanks.