Kinning - Blog Posts
So, I finally made compiled my full kin list and here are my observations:
1. Wow I’m a piece of shit aren’t I?
2. It’s the family issues for me, man.
3. ✨Trauma✨
4. No seriously, I’m such a red flag. 😭😭😭
5. They all have nice hair though.
6. I know most of them are total shitbags, but they’re my emotional support shitbags.
Feel free to judge me as much as you’d like.
I will hand bi-dog and gay lagamorph couple to every person i know
The sam and max fandom is DYING!! Reblog if you love S&M
They're us and we're them.
I never seen so accurate description between siblings on media yet. (From what I watched)
And having such close lore is CRAZY.
Could do a storytime, ask away
I never understood what it meant to kin a character.
Then I met Yamaguchi Tadashi.
I’ve always been a regulus kinnie, but recently I’ve felt like Evan and Barty’s weird kid if that kid had reg and James as uncles…
Just woke up thinking about this and I need tumblr to be my therapist for a second because I just need to explain my thoughts.
When I first watched BSD (Bungo Stray Dogs), I was ok with Ranpo. I didn't like nor dislike him until I saw his backstory. The story that made most fans cry made me feel so...unsettled. It was like looking in a mirror and it scared me.
I never believed in kinning before him. Relating to an anime character? A BSD one at that? I feel like people are just projecting because it's their favorite character. Those were my thoughts. But then I met Ranpo.
I understood him. I felt what that felt like when I saw his backstory. I felt like part of me was on the screen. For the first time ever, I felt truly related to someone on the screen. It scared me a lot. I kinned a person. RANPO AT THAT.
Actually seeing a part of me I activley try to ignore and deny was a slap to the face for me. It scared me. So for a while, I avoided him. I avoided media or fan content with him in it. Of course, he's in the show, so I can't avoid him forever though. I didn't like him because he scared me.
My entire life I felt like I couldn't connect with people. Not as in I couldn't be friends with anyone, though, that is also true. I didn't understand anyone around me. To me, I was a human. I was sentient, capable of complex thoughts, and I was able to lie and "control the 'people' around me". Looking back, that was a stupid sentiment.
I was human and everyone around me was an npc. That was pretty scary for me. I didn't understand the difference between us as a child. Though I knew that everyone around me was something other than me, I only saw me and them. And if I just said a simple hello, it could become us. I miss that.
When I met Ranpo on screen, it was the moment he said it was like they were all monsters that scared me. There was something he didn't have. Something he didn't understand. That's what he thought, but in reality, it's that he's the one who has something that everyone else doesn't.
For me, it truly was just something I didn't have. And for my whole life, I've been trying to figure it out. What makes them different from me? It didn't make any sense. Everyone understood something that I didn't. Everyone had this "rule" to being a human being that I didn't know about. And that was scary.
Dazai was a bit different for me. I loved him from day -30. Literally. I watched complimations of him being stupid months before I watched the show. Years even. I didn't kin him at all and he was just a silly but complicated guy for me. But then I noticed something after realizing I kinned Ranpo.
My whole life I felt that I was the only human and everyone around me was an npc. But really, it was more that everyone around me was a human and I was...something else. I didn't know what. But it wasn't human. I mean, obviously I am physically and in every scientific way, human, but there's something missing, y'know?
Thinking about it makes me feel so cringe but I really can't explain it any other way.
I don't consider myself a Dazai kinnie because even I can't completely understand the reason he thinks himself not human. I just related a small bit to the sentiment.
So as a um...thing hiding itself as a human, I felt exposed when I was confronted with Ranpo. I eventually came to terms with it and now I like Ranpo. Though he still unsettles me because of the similarity.
So yeah. That was my vent. :)
times are pretty rough rn, I don't have much of a choice, there aren't many options left, I might have to utulize my absoluye last resort, think it's time to let my demons loose..
I think it's time to start kinning Dean Winchester.