“Don't call me a Kunikida Kinnie„
But you are. You have your goals in life, you know what you want and what you need to do, what is the best to do. You have your ideals and you follow them strictly, if something gets in the way and it's wrong, if it feels wrong, you end it.
And I'm your Dazai, I'm here, knowing that I don't do all things I should, that I don't make the right decisions. Knowing how wrong all the things I do are and how they will end up hurting both of us. I'm here to try my best just to see that it was never enough, that the progress I thought I was making was false and that we were doomed from the very beginning.
You will try to keep things right and friendly, not make each other even sader and all I will be doing is answering as if I'm fine knowing that I will scream at myself for all the things I did wrong the very same night, without you ever listening them. And I will end up thinking that even if I thought things were different this time, they weren't, that I lost you just like I lost every single thing in my life I ever loved. That it was all my fault for not being good enough for you and that I will cry my eyes out when being alone just to have the power to put a smile on my face and say “im fine„ when someone walkes pass me, or asks me how I am. I will keep thing friendly between us just because I don't want to let go of you, even if I have to, knowing that we were just not meant to be...