You ever stand there and watch everything fall apart and just think “ah yes, time to return to my roots” and restart an obsession from 10 years ago or are you normal
I realize that 80% of being an adult is trying to figure out what you want for dinner...every day...for the rest of your life 🥲
Like at this point I dont have the energy to change the direction my life is taking right now. Like God's taken the steering wheel and I'm just cruising along in the passenger seat, that's what's happening rn. Or maybe the devil's the one holding the steering wheel, idk someone's in the driver's seat. Or maybe it's a self driving car, the way my life's going it seems like a self driving car. Or maybe it's all just minutes away from crashing and burning and no one's driving the car at all and we're just headed towards an accident.
somewhat of a long rant !! read if u want!!
this is more like me dissing myself , but it's fine probably 🙏
sometimes I just get disappointed whenever a certified adult doesn't want any minors of their friendlist . It's not their fault either!! I understand that maybe they just want people closer to their age group and that's totally fine!!! I'm just a bit sad about it though . I'd love to make friends with everyone no matter their age . as long as they're respectful and fun to be around with!!
but I honestly find those people so cool, and the fact that I can't interact with them makes me so sad 💔 I just rlly wanna make new friends w the same interest unfortunately . It's also kinda my fault for being in a place where mostly older teens n adults reside , but it's not my fault that I can't find a decent server to hang out in!! right?? ,, grahh I dunno . I just rlly wanna be friends with cool people :'(
I just overall can't seem to find people in my age group , and even if I do, they don't seem to acknowledge me at all . like I've tried before , but they just seem to ignore me 💔 that's just life I fear ,,, graahhhhhh maybe it's the fact most friends I have , I look up to ,, ooo parental issues oooo
grahh sorry gang , i know u follow me for cool art💔💔 I swear ill get back to work!!!! just have some yaps while ur here
somewhat long rant!!! read if u want idrc :) I'm just saying nonsense
is it just me , or does anyone else gets like upset whenever someone does a thing better than you .
like, imagine being in a new server right . you're trying your best to make friends n stuff , but yet not much progress . and then a new person joins and immediately gets to make so many new friends
LIKE HOW??? IVE BEEN HERE LONGER . TRYING MY HARDEST . HOWD YOU . i guess it's more like jealousy? is it petty ?? i dunno . sometimes I'd look at their messages and try to figure out what made them so much more likeable than me .
it's like watching a 12 year old paint the mona lisa . it just genuinely hurts , and it's not even their fault whatsoever . I'm just too dramatic apparently
sometimes I think it's because of how closer to age they are . I'm way younger than everyone it seems like , and I fear if they interact with a minor , something bad will happen :( I don't wanna cause that!! no!! I just want friends!! people to talk interests about :(( I look up to most of them a lot and I don't want to be pushed away because of my age . I wish I was born a little more while back ,,
gah sorry guys , school is near and I've been overthinking lately :'(