Masking - Blog Posts

i don’t necessarily know who i am, but i know who you are. and that’s enough for me to go off of

I'm trying so hard because this is what me caring about people looks like

But it's insincere apparently.

I'm exhausted.

I have empathy I swear

But if you accused me of insincerity I don't know what I'd say

(* >ω<)

I felt like an alien pretending to be human when I was engaged. Like "here you should want to do this and you should feel joy about this thing etc".

The biggest “your experiences are not universal” thing I feel is whenever anyone talks about the universality of girls planning their weddings since childhood because. Well. Not me. God bless

"those r just personality traits" but do your personality traits make you take iq tests ? Do they make ppl bully you ? Do they make you think everyone has something going on that they hide bc you've been taught to hide your real self ? Do your personality traits impact every single aspect of your life ? Do your personality traits disable your executive fonction, social abilities, or capacity to care for yourself ? No, they just make you a b!tch Karen ☀️

Friendly reminder that when you only talk about high masking and low masking, you throw autistics who can't mask under the bus.

We're not low masking, we DON'T mask.

This makes us no masking. Not low masking.

Is there such a thing as identifying as a kid? Because that’s exactly what I am and I feel so uncomfortable when people treat me as if I’m an adult, just because I look like one.

Failing to mask

I recently realized that even when I think I'm masking it can be painfully obvious that I'm autistic. Like, I know that a lot of my behaviors aren't "normal" but it never FULLY clicked in my head that people would ACTUALLY be weirded out by me. Does anyone else relate to this?

After a short break, keep working again!

I won't be taking classes because I'm in an internship this semester, but I'm still working in two labs and the obligation to do so is increasing :')

Be prepared to see posts full of articles, even though I'm still not ready to read..

For music: Hakim Bey

{Ladin}

I wish non autistic people could experience the feeling of having a person they feel like they don't have to mask around.

I spent most of Saturday with my Girlfriend, not masking, and I feel the same as I imagine a 2 weeks cruise to the Bahamas feels.

Life in an Autism World