boyfriends sitting down under a tree holding hands and thinking about each other
And run my FINGERS through his HAIR
I want to KISS my nonexistent BOYFRIEND
can we just snuggle for a long while? take it in turns to have your arm around the other? maybe have a film or music on in the background?
just us two, just snuggling
I just want to hold a boy in my arms. His soft hair tickling my nose. I kiss the top of his head, him holding my hands as they are wrapped around his waist. I want a boy to hold my face in his hands and kiss me so gently. I need a boy to bring me to surprise dates, holding my hand as we go on a ferris wheel, or share his cotton candy with me. Having a decent apartment with him, walking downtown and just going to random junk stores. Having picnics with the cakes and cookies we baked together. A boy I can have a full conversation with just silence. Him doing my nails, making me pretty with his makeup. Owning a cat with him. Staying up at night and watching movies. Seeing him stim while he gets excited, him being nonverbal and letting me hold him throughout it. Him cuddling me as I have an episode. Him giving me reassurance without me asking. Him being so giggly and happy around me. Me smiling so much around this boy. God.
Wrote this at like 4am,, oops