Moon In Aquarius - Blog Posts
-Illustratum Paradoxon
Self reminder: Stop wasting your time for someone else to actually care. Stop wasting your time for someone to empathize the same way that you do. Stop wasting your time thinking that someone is willing to sit in your pain with you. They won’t ever. You just have to accept that no one loves like you. No one feels like you. No one will ever understand you like you do. So next time they ask if you’re ok, just stick with “fine” and don’t waste your time.
- Illustratum Paradoxon
A sensitive Artist who honors healthy detachment.
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An enchanting angel who likes to escape to the sea ♥
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Inner Child Love 💞
- Illustratum Paradoxon
The devil is persistent
But my God is consistent
If it wasn’t for my God
I‘d fall far from existence
Spiritual revolution
Is happening inside of me
Spiritual revolution
Something Only God
And I can see
Written 7•15•20
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*The revolution is still happening.
The war for my soul is not over.
Clinging on to God
And anything of light. 💡
Pushing religion and bs agendas away
I just want YWHW*
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Forever Misunderstood.....and finally ok with that. 🖤 🙌🏼
The anxiety attack after you set a boundary is crazy. My hands are shaky. Palms are sweaty. I’m freaking livid! I just don’t understand it?! I’m cursed I swear. My grandmother would yell at me CONSTANTLY “Your mouth is gonna get you in trouble” little did she know how powerful such words were. People love me cuz I’m real and hate me cuz I’m too blunt! Or because I’m too moody or too “to myself” um why is it so wrong to keep to yourself? Why is it wrong to like to keep your circle small? Maybe it’s a coping mechanism to protect what’s mine or maybe it’s the only way I know how to protect my energy. Whatever it is. I DESPISE when people try to impose on me. Don’t push me to be social please. Don’t come over uninvited. These are triggers. I’m so sorry. I don’t like uncertainty or surprises unfortunately. I’ve been disappointed too many times. I have opened that door too many times. So now I leave it shut and protect me and my own. Ok so the boundary is set. Why am I freaking out? It’s the response! It’s me obsessing over if that person will talk to me again because I set a boundary! It’s me being mad I had to set one in the first place. But then again, High expectations are future disappointments. I’m tired of people having adult tantrums when another adult is clear on their wants/unwants. How dare you be mad at me for knowing what I want!?