Neurodivergency - Blog Posts

I'm noticing a small pattern in my hyperfixations: every time I'm going through a stressful period, some hyperfixation from my childhood calls my attention again. Example number one: I just left university, and the hyperfixation I had for Beauty and the Beast when I was 6 years old has come back and is more alive than ever.

Cephellion!

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etymology: ceph- (from head) + ellion, similar to allion

A Cephellion is a term that can be used to describe a neurodivergent state of being using non-human ways, such as with aesthetics, objects, or more. This is intended for those who have trouble pinpointing or describing their neurodivergencies, or who feel more comfortable using more abstract concepts instead of medical language for whatever reason. This is the neurodivergent version of a xenogender or allion.

This term is exclusive to those who have any type of neurodivergency. Self diagnosis is valid.

This is NOT a TransID or Radqueer term. If you support either of those, please do not use! I coined this to serve as an anti radqueer version of a term that I will link below the cut.

[ID: Two images;

the first image is a flag with seven horizontal stripes of varying sizes. In descending order, there is a thick jasper red stripe, a medium terracotta orange stripe, a thin pale yellow stripe, a very thick off white stripe, a thin pastel cyan stripe, a medium pastel cornflower blue stripe, and a thick lavender indigo stripe. In the center of the flag is the cephellion symbol backdropped by an off white circle. The cephellion symbol consists of two star shapes connected with dashed lines to resemble a neuron. The symbol is colored blueberry purple. End first ID;

the second image is a flag just like the first, but there is no symbol in the center, nor is there a circle that would function as its backdrop. End second ID.]

[ID: A divider that consists of a thin white line with three stars on each side. End ID.]

Flag by me. Tagging @radiomogai, @noxwithoutstars, and @revenant-coining. Ask to be untagged!

Flag template, symbol, and inspiration (which I have included out of courtesy, DO NOT harass the creator!) under the cut.

[ID: four images;

The first image is a flag with seven horizontal stripes of varying sizes. In descending order, there is a thick black stripe, a medium grey stripe, a thin light grey stripe, a very thick white stripe, a thin light grey stripe, a medium grey stripe, and a thick black stripe. In the center of the flag is the cephellion symbol backdropped by a white circle. The cephellion symbol consists of two star shapes connected with dashed lines to resemble a neuron. The symbol is colored black. End first ID;

the second image is a flag just like the first, but there is no symbol in the center, nor is there a circle that would function as its backdrop. end second ID;

the third image is a white circle on a transparent background. End third ID;

the fourth image is the cephellion symbol. The cephellion symbol consists of two star shapes connected with dashed lines to resemble a neuron. The symbol is colored black. End fourth ID.]

[ID: A divider that consists of a thin white line with three stars on each side. End ID.]

The link to the term this is based on is below. I have included it out of courtesy.

DO NOT HARASS THE CREATOR! BLOCK THEM AND MOVE ON.

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If I am informed that a follower of mine was involved in harassment of this person, the follower will be blocked!

Neuroxenic (link)

Haiii

I’m the totally super cool and awesome and normal neurotypical ruler of hell I am really the ruler of hell guys I am not delusional

"How do you have so much energy all the time ???"

I don't, I'm constantly tired but I'm also being the class clown because I have abandonment issues and adhd

all the memes about when you need to be at somewhere at a certain time but you need to get coffee or something so you need to get ready like 15 or 30 minutes earlier but for someone who's time blind watching it is like " how the fuck youre so sure that you need to do it 15 minutes earlier- h- how do you know its gonna take 15 minutes?????? what if you get motional or need more mental preparation to do it??? " i cant tell the time so shit is mega vague when i planned for something it sometimes goes like Must be at A at 13.00. the travel will take around an hour to get there. better get B before im at A. so that means i must go at fucking 7 in the morning just in case time goes extra fast or i am just extra slow or if im getting a bit sad and dumb... but then leaves at 12.15

As a late diagnosed autist I will say one of the most damaging but transformative experiences I've ever had was being misdiagnosed with BPD.

Everyday my heart goes out to people with BPD.

The amount of stigma and silencing they face is astonishing and sickening.

I took DBT for years. Therapists use to turn me away because of my diagnosis.

I would be having full blown autistic meltdowns, crying for help literally - but because I was labeled as BPD ANY time I cried I was treated as manipulative and unstable.

As if the only reason I could be crying was if I was out to trick someone.

95% of the books out there with Borderline in the title are named shit like 'How to get away from a person with Borderline', 'How to stop walking on eggshells (with a person who has BPD)'

I was never allowed to feel true pain or panic or need.

That was 'attention seeking behavior', not me asking for help when a disability was literally inhibiting my ability to process emotions.

There were dozens of times where I had a full meltdown and was either threatened with institutionalization or told I was doing it for attention.

My failing relationships weren't due to a communication issue, or the inability to read social cues. No, because I was labeled borderline, my unstable relationships were my fault. Me beggong nuerotypicals to just be honest and blunt with what they meant was me pestering them for validation.

Borderline patients can't win.

And the funny thing is - I asked my therapist about autism. I told her I thought I was on the spectrum.

BPD is WILDLY misdiagnosed with those with autism and I had many clear signs.

Instead - she told me 'If you were autistic we wouldn't be able to have this conversation'. She made me go through a list of autistic traits made clearly for children, citing how I didn't fit each one.

And then she told me that me identifying with the autism community was the BPD making me search for identity to be accepted - and that I wasn't autistic, just desperate to fit in somewhere.

I didn't get diagnosed for another ten years. For ten years I avoided the autism community - feeling as if I were just a broken person who wanted to steal from people who 'really needed it'.

Because of my providers - I began to doubt my identity MORE, not less.

Ten years of thinking I was borderline and being emotionally neglected and demonized by a system meant to help me.

To this day, I still don't trust neurotypicals. Not fully.

I know I'm not borderline now - but my heart aches for them. Not for the usual stuff. But for the stigma. And the asshole doctors. And the dismissiveness and threatening and the idea of institutionalization hanging over their head.

I love Borderline people. I always will. I'm not Borderline but if you are I love you and I'm sorry.

You're not a bad person. You're not a therapists worst nightmare, you are a human with valid feelings and fears.

Borderline people I'm sorry.