Nigel Banyai - Blog Posts

Everything is too loud today. My skin feels too tight. My head won’t stop running in circles.

I wish it was possible to turn everything off for a while.

Do you like bread?

If so, do you like the crust?

I take them off when I eat bread.

I love bread.

I like the crust most. The rest is fine. It feels sort of mushy, sometimes. I don’t enjoy that.

I know many people like you though. Most people prefer bread without the crust rather than the crust without the bread.

But sourdough especially has a wonderful crust in my opinion.

Sourdough bread is actually one of the oldest types of bread, with evidence of it being baked over 4,000 years ago in ancient Egypt. It makes sense why it tastes so good.

tbh with all this chaotic back and forth I think you and Will should just say ‘fuck it’s and get together.

You’d at least make a pretty couple.

I am unsure whether this was meant as a joke or a serious proposition. If it was a joke, I have to admit—

it was actually quite funny.

I don’t know what I was expecting, but it wasn’t that.

I feel like I walked into an entire play where everyone else had the script but me. And now the show’s over, the audience has left, and I’m just standing here, still trying to understand the plot.

Intuition is mostly irrational, but if I were to believe in that sort of thing, I would describe having a strange feeling about tonight.

Pretty sure this is you

You made me into an alien plushie? That is very creative.

I like it. Thank you for drawing me, I appreciate it.

Tumblr can be confusing.

This you?

That’s not me. It’s an alien plushie.

Are you genuinely curious, or is this just a joke?

Do you even skoke?

Do I Skoke ?

You need to dump Beth. She's an asshole.

Beth spends time with me. I don’t always understand her, but I think she means well…

@deerrdarling Abigail and I recently watched ‘Carol‘ together.

It was fun, I liked this dialogue from the movie a lot :

I’m not sure if there’s anything being hidden. I’d like to think there isn’t. I trust Abigail—she’s my friend.

I don’t feel strongly one way or the other about Dr. Lecter. He’s a good psychiatrist. My feelings don’t really change what’s real, though. Maybe you should ask Dr. Lecter about it yourself. You seem like you’d be good at that.

Also I’m not sure what you mean by ‘delicate elegance.’..I don’t focus on appearance, just the practical aspects of things. I suppose if you’re referring to my manner?, I do try my best to remain composed.

I like Botticelli‘s art though.

Thank you for the compliment, Nigel

Ți-e drag rău Will, nu-i așa? Ai grijă pe lângă pe lângă psihiatrul ăla, totuși. Trec multe zvonuri despre el

(Ooc: translation because most services don't do it well: Will's dear to you, eh? Be careful around that psychiatrist, though. Many rumours flying around him)

Știu foarte bine... Dar îți mulțumesc.

During my session with Dr. Lecter today, he spoke about the stars. He told me that the light we see in the night sky is ancient—that some of the stars that appear brightest to us have already died, their final light still traveling across time and distance. He said it is a reminder that what we perceive is not always what is present, and that some things linger even after they are gone.

He also referenced the Greeks, how they believed the constellations were once people and creatures, lifted into the sky as stories, as if memory alone could make them eternal. He asked me if I thought the universe remembers us, if our presence leaves an impression in the fabric of space-time, or if we simply vanish.

I told him that memory does not alter physics, and that once something is gone, it is gone.

After that he just smiled at me.

Yes I am Adam.

I don’t know what metric you’re using to compare Botticelli and Caravaggio..they had distinct artistic styles. You’re probably right about the street smarts. Also i haven’t met Will Graham yet, but as far as I know, I’m not competing with him.

What do you mean by ‘if something’s off’?

Ți-e drag rău Will, nu-i așa? Ai grijă pe lângă pe lângă psihiatrul ăla, totuși. Trec multe zvonuri despre el

(Ooc: translation because most services don't do it well: Will's dear to you, eh? Be careful around that psychiatrist, though. Many rumours flying around him)

Știu foarte bine... Dar îți mulțumesc.

omg hi adam!!! :) how are you?

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Hello. I am fine. How are you? I assume you are asking as a general greeting rather than requesting specific data about my well-being, but I can provide more detail if necessary

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hi adam !! it’s abigail :)

any books on space you recommend?

My favorite book is Cosmos by Carl Sagan. But if you are just starting to read about space, I would recommend Welcome to the Universe: An Astrophysical Tour by Neil deGrasse Tyson, Michael A. Strauss, and J. Richard Gott. It is informative but easy to understand for somebody with no prior knowledge.

Since you seem to be interested in the concept of alternative realities, you might also really like The Fabric of the Cosmos by Brian Greene.

Let me know if you have any questions about the books. I have read all of them.

Being one of his patients, have you noticed anything odd about Hannibal Lecter ?

About Dr. Lecter ? No, I haven’t.

I haven’t been his patient for long, sometimes I talk to Franklyn in the waiting room. He usually talks a lot but he’s very polite and listens to me when I tell him about my interests.

However, I haven’t seen Franklyn in a while.

I thought of taking Beth to the planetarium sometime, but I’m not sure if she’d like it