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Rain Walk- mhw #1
I have decided to document a series where I chronicle the walks I take for my mental health. Let us begin for this past Saturday when it was raining.
View from near by neighborhood. Blurred for cool effects and to make the pretty lights stand out.
Who doesn’t love a good walk in the rain? This was purely spur of the moment but something in me was just telling me that I NEEDED to be out in that rain walking around. Especially since it was starting to slow down.
It’s been rough ngl. Also the feeling of the rain sprinkling in your skin is 20/10. Another 20/10 is walking in the rain while ALSO listening to a liminal space playlist. I highly recommend it.Also the fog starting to drop in was another 20/10.
The rain in a way can feel like a liminal space because of how empty the roads can be. Liminal spaces are shown to be rather lonely which was sort of the case on my walk. Just occasional car would pass by. Now I’m thinking about liminal rooms with a rain landscapes. That sounds cool.
I started to notice on my walk there are only specific types of people that really take walks on the rain:
Big Dog Walkers
Smokers
The Mentally Ill Like Me
The Occasional Avid Elderly Walker
Of course they all make perfect sense for different reasons, but if there’s anyone I’d prefer the pass it’s the smoker as they always have a unique sense of style. The smoker I passed had a striped shirt and green hair. Kinda like that one Danganronpa character whose name I can’t remember.
And another great thing about walks in the rain is you’ll find little friends on the sidewalk as pictured below:
Pictured are Mx. Snail and the Earthworm. Couldn’t find the earthworm on my second loop around so I hope they’re okay. The Snail went to hide in their shell and I respect that. Some people are just camera shy and you can’t change that.
Well, that’s all I have left to say on the matter. I’ll probably take another walk tomorrow, been wanting to explore this canyon.
Allow me to provide a song recc from my playlist. Lemme know if you have any you’d like to give me for my playlist!
Mothman walking home, they probably have music playing but Im not sure what
Isn't it strange how the end of the world feels so familiar yet so surreal?
Hey, making yet another post about some music I listened to at 2:00 while out on a midnight walk. I’m gonna put a disclaimer for whoever may see this post but I just want to vent a little bit at the bottom of this post and if you’re only interested in the albums then here they are with some of my thoughts on them written underneath.
Earl Sweatshirt and The Alchemist - VOIR DIRE (2023)
An amazing album with vivid wordplay by Earl and The Alchemist's immaculate and beautiful beats to serenade the listener. My only real complaint is that it's only 22 minutes long. I'll give it a 10/10.
CYBEREALITYライフ - Midnight Walk (2013)
I had this album written down in a list for a long time now and i figured it would fit to listen to this during my walk. I never saw when it was released until i checked near the last few tracks. I thought that it was more of a chopped & screwed record near the first half as the beats were slowed down and the vocals were slowed and also pitched down a bit. Also, a majority of the tracks used beats from MF DOOM. Overall for a vaporwave album released in the infancy of the genre, I'll give it a 8/10.
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Now, to vent. I've mentioned in some posts that I sometimes go on midnight walks just to clear my mind but sometimes it doesn't feel like it works too well. I never want to use my blog as a place to vent fully and air out my problems and make it other peoples problems or just seem like I'm doing some sort of attention seeking post to stoke the flames of activity on my page. I feel like a fucking loser sometimes cause I either get a nervous stutter sometimes or realize my voice sounds like I'm slurring words together or repeating the same few words. It doesn't help either that putting out applications and getting nothing back is just a bit disheartening. I don't know if these episodes of sad feeling or other awful shit would lessen if I go back to therapy or just fix my sleep schedule. Forgive me for venting publicly like this, whether you're a mutual to me or some random stranger on here who just managed to find this post in some fucked up irony. Either way, I thank you for your time and I wish you a good day/night, good health, and that things get better for whoever may read this. I don’t have any plans or ideations but I’m gonna hop off and probably take a nap.
Followed through with my plans and I gave Resin another shot and I think I find it almost on par with Ramona. I remember talking with a mutual in the past about it and I remember describing its vibes on par with an infomercial VHS which I believe is somewhat accurate but with this relisten, I felt like I managed to piece together a bit of a story with it. I feel as though it’s a story of Bill after his success with his album Ramona and trying to make it more out there, hence the intro of the album with the character DJ Hentai Daddy who makes fun of him and his music and tells him how these people want something fire. This leads to Bill incorporating and emulating some rap that you’d probably hear coming from the south or directly mentioning other artists like Big Boi of Outkast or DJ Screw but also hiding away his true music or perhaps his real self on the other half of tracks. Near the end he begins to realize just how lonely and draining it is to try and ride this wave of success yet there’s no conclusion, as if the story is still going or Bill is trying to still find an answer to his problem. Even if I’m overthinking this or I’m just sounding like I’m spewing bullshit, this album had struck a chord with me that I’d never knew it could hit. I might not relate to the fame of it or the success but just the vulnerability he talks about in some of the lyric just hit different and had me see it in a new light.
I’m sorry if the last sentence sounded depressing. I also managed to get two pics that I’d like to share of an abandoned building I’ve posted about before. Think of it like an update.
The power to the building seems to have finally been shut off. I don’t know if the power was shut off manually by workers or was knocked out by the storms in the area but I can say one thing for sure, it’s probably never coming back on. The area around it was much darker in person than the way they appear now when I took the pictures.
I decided to go for a walk about an hour ago at the time of posting while it was still storming out and give Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge another listen and to also clear my head about some shit but that’s not what I’m here to focus on. Overall, I still prefer the black parade over three cheers due to the black parade’s storytelling and the way it plays with different genres for certain songs but maybe it’s just because the storyline of someone dying from cancer hits a soft spot for me. Does this mean I hate three cheers? Not at all. I do like some songs off of it but it might take me a few more front to back listens before I can properly enjoy the storyline and other songs in it.
My walk was a bit hectic since there was a huge thunderstorm going on and a bit of high winds so I’d have to hold my umbrella very steady and fix my hair every 20-30 seconds. Glasses got some rain splashed on them so it slowly got harder to see through them. Though, now I’m just bored and not very tired so if you’re reading this post at anytime and you want to talk or just give an album recommendation, my dms are always open and I’m always down to talk.
It’s slowly falling apart
Old building that was closed and took some photos of the interior a while ago. Maybe I should check it out and see if anything has happened
Random pics of shopping carts in random locations in my area
