Ripped into a thousand pieces
Left with a hopeless mess
Spend all my blood on the way
To find a place to rest
And I swear I'm trying my best
But it drags me down
Again till nothing's left
Nothing's left to be found
"Dont think about it
It's going to get better"
And I think "but when?"
Haunted by you
All the paths I take
Lead back there
As if you'd be a place
Where parts of my
Rotten heart rests
And I try to set
It on fire
Burn it down
To the ground
But the wasted
Parts are everything
Thats left in the end
Sometimes I wonder
How long it would take
For people to notice
If I'd went away
Weeks? Months? Years?
And the next thing
afterwards I wonder about
Is the how, the act
And how they'd react
When they'd find me
Laying lifeless in my bed
Like the husk that
I already am
Would they recognize me?
Would they understand?
You asked me to
Meet you at the bridge
I went there
And you burned it down
Do you even care?
Maybe I care too much
Maybe I don't care enough
About things I can't change
About all the different ways
It could've, would've been
It ended and began
About what has been said
About what it meant
Longing for a touch
But fearing the sensation
It tears me apart
Just go step by step
Take all the time you need now
Don't rush through it all
Just an alien amongst humans longing for a connection.
A connection back to my homeworld, where we get each others way of communication.
That bright shining star far, far away, somewhere in the seemingly endless void.
Anxiety runs deep
While awake
While asleep
A staircase too steep
An end seems
Out of reach
So many hours lost
Thinking about many things
Which are unresolved
When I told you that
Your opinion matters to me
My heart skipped a beat
I don't know where you are now
And haven't even known you well
But kept you close to my heart
For the way that you helped
Me and probably many others
And so I wanted to tell
You about the call I made
And all the tears that fell
Walking on thin ice
Trying to get a grip
Too scared of the fall
So I better don't slip
Or should I give up
To fight the fire
And give in?
Sometimes it's like
there is a realist
and a romantic
who fight inside
Medusa's soul
and
a lion's heart
You won't see my true face
Till you're able to face truth
While you've been runnin' from urself
I've been waitin' here for you
Aufgewacht auf offener See
Schwerelos in treibender Flut
Blau-roter Nebel durchzieht meine Seele
Geschmack von Tränen und Geruch von Blut
Frag' mich ob es dir auch so geht
Was du grad machst
Ob ich dir fehl'
Und hoff' doch von Herzen es geht dir gut
You'll surely overthink
If you try to understand me
A paradoxical chaos
Far beyond comprehension
Look at me through blinded eyes
Loose sanity in my undertow
You have to leave your mind behind
To scrutinize my heart and soul
I don't know what I am
Just know what I ain't
A neverending mess
With no inherent sense
A pitch-black nothingness
Defined by distress
Everyone who met me
Bound to forget me
I'll leave a hole in your mind
Call me 055
Tell me that my lies are true
So I can believe into myself
Kill yourself for me tonight
And I'll blame someone else
I've got no shame to speak of
no responsibility, just guilt
And if you don't obey to me
Then i'll bend you to my will