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Alright who's ready for art when my semester is over? It's so close I can taste the end of my suffering through using Maya 2023 for the semester and dealing with Adobe products breaking.
Anyway new art (and first art post that isn't a wip what a twist) soon, mark my words.
I'll be probably posting the TOH drawings (especially that one wip I showed) after Halloween. My art motivation is in the toilet so it's just a bit harder than expected.
I also have to work on a better intro post but that can wait a bit.
I got concept art for the swords I was planning on drawing during swordtember that I think I'll end up posting after September since we start the October art challenges and currently college is kicking my ass.
I also have some non-TOH fanart I'm planning on posting after I do the TOH ones.
The only bad thing about being multifandom in terms of drawing (at least for me) is you get an idea for one art piece and then you get another one for an entirely different fandom so then you get a bunch of WIPs.
I have one more idea before I can post a set I wanted to do but it's being put on hold. Oh well ^^'.
Um, I've been on here for not a long while but a bit (I'm lurking sometimes my bad). I'm trying to write out a full welcome post but for now, Hi there!
A little bit of stuff I'll talk about:
I'm an artist, traditional and digital but leaning more digital. I actually am studying to be an animator, currently figuring out some animatic stuff and exercises for my animation skills because by God do I need it. Oh I also sometimes write although you probably won't see it, emphasis on the probably.
I'm now stuck in MHA/BNHA brainrot while I try to create my own characters and other things. Expect some gay husbands and such. That being said, I am a multifandom and OC artist, at the moment leaning more on the fandom aspect. I don't talk very much on social media to the point I have a Twitter but I don't use it very often.
Anyway, I'll see y'all when either I post that massive intro post or when I post my art/thoughts. Thanks!
everyone leaves you eventually. the truth of it all is: we are alone. born alone and die alone. the only person who can save you is yourself.
I've been living the plot of a romantic drama and as tiring as it is, it is also quite beautiful. Love can exist in so many different ways. My heart has been so full of fondness and affection for all these new beautiful people in my life. I am young and reckless and in love and absolutely terrified of what it means to exist. And that's okay, right? Aren't we all feeling that way to a degree? This world is a strange place, but we are here. Now. Right now! Everything could end in a flash but right this very second I am alive.
I have had these dreams since I was about 4 years old, yes! Not quite nameable very awful energy.
Do you ever dream of the bad place? I can't really explain it but that's what I call these weird spaces or rooms in my dreams where I can just feel the most menacing, evil, dangerous atmosphere that makes me afraid to come closer or even wakes me up from fear, or I'm screaming in my sleep. These spaces often look normal and realistic, just a regular basement or building, they usually feature some kind of door too. It's just so surreal because in dreams you forget that what you see is not real, so suddenly feeling this eerie vibes from a room or door makes the evil seem so material and clear. Ever since my childhood I've been dreaming about the same places over and over and my worst fear is that one day I'll find them in real life and feel this dread then too. But maybe I would open the door, I'm just so desperately curious to know what kind of terror is so bad, it's finding its way into my dreams. I want to know what's there. And I want to know if I'm the only one who has these dreams.
katsuki with a disabled partner
writing this because i’m having the shittiest flare rn and wanted some comfort fluff so here u go.
this is where i think katsuki (aged up) would truly shine as a partner; he shows his love in actions and in touch, and caring for you is his way of doing that. katsuki can more than handle the strain disability adds to a relationship.
anything you need on your worst days, he will do it: hold you, reassure you, bathe you, brush your hair, make your food, feed you, help you change, carry you across the house, catch you when you fall, schedule appointments, you name it. nothing is too difficult or off limits because he loves you. he insists on caring for you - almost overbearingly so - because it makes him feel less helpless when you’re struggling.
he will drop everything to be by your side. as a pro hero that’s not always possible, but if there is a way, he will find it. he’d never tell you, but the times he can’t be there when you need him is what keeps him up at night.
refuses to let you push through when you’re struggling and is the first person to insist that you put your well-being before anything else. (which you think to be ironic coming from someone who by all metrics is a workaholic.)
and yes, he will talk to anyone who gives you flak if he has to. he has leverage and he’s not afraid to use it (much to your embarrassment at times). refuses to let you feel guilty for what’s outside of your control.
gets angry when you try to do something without his help. “the fuck you think you’re doin? i’m right here. i’m gonna take care of you.” also gets mad if you have a bad flare, get injured, etc. and you don’t tell him immediately.
at the same time, he’ll eventually learn when to back off. he doesn’t want you stripped of your independence. but push yourself too hard after insisting you were fine? you bet he’s gonna give you a little shit for it (lovingly).
i don’t see him being put off by known long term disability early on in a relationship, esp. if a deaf!katsuki hc is involved.
sudden disability due to health changes or trauma: it’s almost like it doesn’t phase him because he just handles it. he’s dealt with a fair amount of shit himself before you and with you by his side. it’s not easy, but it’s familiar, so he knows what to do.
lots of comfort sex - for both of you. yeah, he has his rough, mean side (which you love), but he’s more than capable of making love. when you’re struggling but still able, he fucks you in a way that makes you believe everything will be okay. he looks you in the eyes and loves you so tenderly that only you might believe he’s the same man everyone else knows. he doesn’t just do it for you. it’s a comfort to him, too. he needs the world to fall away for just a moment so he can love you. it doesn’t fix life’s problems or keep him from worrying about you, but it’s healing and eases the pain.
bonus: comfort kink for the same reasons. whether it’s light impact play to ground you when you’re dissociated, encouraging you to slip into that subby headspace that makes you feel safe, or edging you until you can’t think to keep your mind occupied, he’s okay with it. i feel like he’d also be surprisingly soft for moments like this.
Best Halloween ever!!!! Got to dress up as a motherfreaking zombie bride and scare people in a bridal shop window, and dress up as a evil mermaid for a Halloween party the day before!
im a person who wants to do lots of things trapped inside a body that wants to SLEEP at all times
My way of flirting is looking at the person I’m attracted to and hoping they’re braver than I am.
I just want to be in a place where I'm not screwed over on a daily basis, can sleep more than five hours a night, and not want to throw myself into traffic three times a week.
Really messed up feelings:
• When you’re surrounded by people and still feel completely alone • When the people who tell you they care about you leave, just like everybody else • When you really want a hug, just so you don’t feel so alone, but feel too needy to ask for one • When the one person in the whole world you thought you could rely on leaves you when you need them most • When the person you trusted with your whole life lets you down • And then makes you believe it’s your own fault • And you’re left sitting there, crying in your room, trying so damn hard to muffle your sobs into your pillow so you won’t wake your family in the next room, wondering what the hell you did wrong… what the hell you always do wrong…
