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my personal fav anxiety is “i’m in the wrong place” anxiety that isn’t alleviated until u see someone that u know should also be in the same place as u

Today is not a good day for my self esteem

some bpd things i don’t think i’ve seen people discuss:

- being quiet when you first meet someone so you can work out what kind of person they are and then tailor your personality to what you think they’d prefer

- choosing a personality for a date/meetup/interview/whatever is even more important than choosing an outfit

- tfw neurotypicals interpret you saying “i’ve been good” as “mental illness who? never heard of her” when in reality it’s more like “it’s been 2 days since our last abandonment scare”

- having a fight with someone due to mood swings and then it being awkward 20 minutes later when they’re pissed off and your mood has swung back up and you don’t care for what you just fought about

- cutting someone off before they can, then dissociating for the next month straight because you don’t know who the fuck you are without them

- forgiving someone. then un-forgiving them. rinse and repeat.

me: omg please give me attention i’m so lonely

someone: *says hi*

me: 

raise your hand if you’re a tired gay who needs a hug

Girls are hot, full homo

I like to slip subliminal messages go out with me into all of my text posts

there’s something so nice about friends who tell you they love you

*suddenly opens my eyes at 3:37am* i can’t tell if my friends still want me around or are just tolerating my existence

me: gives up completely on the possibility of being with someone after only one (1) awkward social interaction

also me: i dont get it, why am i alone :/

what you said was very sweet and means a lot to me but i am incapable of properly responding in any way besides “thank you so much aaaah” because i do not know how to accurately express the exact level of my gratitude to where you completely understand how much what you said meant to me without me getting even more emotional and looking like a fucking nerd: an autobiography

i like to pretend i don’t give a fuck but honestly i don’t think i’ve ever not given a fuck in my whole life

Wanna kiss a girl. Wanna make out with a girl. Wanna watch the stars with a girl. Wanna go on a road trip with a girl. Wanna slowly fall in love with a girl. Wanna marry a girl. Wanna start a family with a girl. Wanna grow old with a girl. Wanna live a full and happy life with a girl.

my priorities aren’t straight and neither am i

how often on a daily basis do you wonder if you’re One Of Those Annoying People Who Cant Take A Hint and people only respond to you bc they feel obligated

Hugs from behind are so underrated

Do u ever not realize how starved for affection u are till someone hugs u a bit tighter than normal and you find that you really don’t want to let go

What’s the cheat code for making people love and care about me

Me: come on guys, it’s not that obvious im gay 😒 Also me: (has a closet filled with rainbow clothes, owns half of the worlds supply of flannel clothing, has a rainbow pride flag above the bed, and rainbow lights wrapped around the bed post) Me: see not obvious

i wish i could be the person i want to be but im too tired

all I feel like doing is kissing and being kissed and not having anything to think about for a little while

me when deciding what to watch next: but how gay is it

i love when people ask me “what are you anxious about” like…….about??? you think this is based on reason? rationality? never heard of that