Platonic Moxiety - Blog Posts

nominexiang

4 years ago

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Ships: Prinxiety, Platonic Moxiety, platonic analogical, platonic dukexiety, brotherly anxceit

Warning: Cursing, Angst, Crying, Hearts Broken, Leaving people behind, Remus and Deceit are in this story! But they aren't the bad guys!

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The other sides can't stop crying. They were all broken.

Virgil left. Their Virgil. His Virgil.

The emo left. Their emo left. His emo left.

Anxiety is gone. But how? When? Where? Why?

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11 a.m.

Patton was still waiting. Logan insisted they eat early. Patton was confused, Virgil wasn't usually this late. Is he okay? What did Patton do? Did another fight happen? What happened? Did something go wrong? Did Patton do anything? Did Pa-

Patton was cut short with a hand rubbing his back. He couldn't tell who was in front of him, the tears in his eyes made it blurry. He could hear well though. "--tton. Tap once if you could hear me." The voice said, taking hold of Patton's hand.

Patton tapped and felt the hand. "Logan." He thought to himself as he felt the bracelet he gave him. "Okay. I need you to breathe Patton. In for 4, hold for 8, out for 7." Patton was having a hard time breathing but Logan tapping the beat on his hand helped.

Patton could breathe and see properly now. "Wh-what happened?" Patton asked, wiping away the tears. "You started hyperventilating. That's not usually normal with you." Logan remarked, giving Patton a few tissues.

Patton nodded and started fidgeting with his sweater. Roman came down and sensed the tension between the two. Roman nodded at Logan and sat at far end of the table. "Sooo, no Virgil yet?" Roman asked, tilting his head.

Patton sniffled and nodded. Logan sighed and put an arm around Patton and squeezed him a bit. "Everything will be okay. And Roman? Will it be okay if you check on Virgil? He is usually not this late." Logan said.

Roman nodded and made his way up to Virgil's room. He knocked the black door that was decorated with purple that said "Virge" in his handwriting. "Weird." Roman told himself. He knocked twice now.

Thrice.

Four times.

5 times.

He grew impatient and jiggled the door knob. He was threw the door open and was met with nothing but a dark room. He opened the lights and scanned the room. "Virgil?" He called out. Roman groaned and called out again. "Virge? this isn't funny. Patton isn't gonna be happy."

He stepped inside and checked his room for Virgil. Nothing seemed out of place. His guitar case was in it's usual spot. He checked Virgil's private rest room. No foggy mirror. The bed was messy. It was usually made.

"Virge? ....Virgil?" Roman called out, before checking the drawers. He found 3 envelopes(ah shit here we go-), one in dark blue with Logan's name, one in pastel blue with Patton's and one in res, with Roman's name. Roman's eyes widened. "Shit shit shit shit Virgil no please don't do this to us." Roman said, running out.

"Logan! Patton! Shit Virgil don't do this to us." Roman shouted, going down two steps at a time. "Did something wrong happen?" Patton asked. Roman panted and nodded as he gave out the letters.

"I don't understand, why did he write us letters? Is he showing us his love? Was he in the room?" Logan asked, inspecting the envelope. "Okay specs so he's not showing us his love and no, he was not in his room." Roman said, panting.

"Then..what's wrong?" Patton asked, concern in his voice. Roman raked a hand through his hair and began telling them.

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"Hey, Roman? What's the best way to tell someone you're leaving them?" Virgil asked, breaking the silence. They were stargazing in their imagination. Roman faced Virgil and raised an eyebrow.

"You planning to leave us Emo Knightmare?" Roman asked, concerned. "Oh! No no no! I just had the question because uh, I'm wondering, is there any way we can tell someone that we're leaving without hurting them?" Virgil clarified, smiling awkwardly.

Roman nodded and looked back at the stars. "Well, you will hurt them really. It's hard to focus because you know you're going to hurt them. But, if I were to do if, which I won't, I would write a letter really. I don't want them to chase after me and all that." Roman said. Virgil nodded and faced back at stars.

"Hey Ro?"

"Yeah Virge?"

"Thanks for being a really nice friend, I'm sorry for calling you nicknames and all that." Virgil said, facing Roman.

Virgil chuckled and smiled softly. "Same goes to you V. Past is past, we're friends now." Roman said. Smiling.

But

He still never gets hurt.

He's broken and Virgil doesn't knows.

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Patton felt tears going down his cheeks. Logan was shocked. Roman is...broken, really frustrated.

"No no no no no Virgil. No. No!" Patton said, letting his head down and letting his tears roll down his face. "..Roman? Did you know?" Logan asked, hugging Patton tighter. "No, I didn't I- I didn't mean- I just- I never wanted to give him id-ideas, Logan, P-patton, I'm so- I'm so sorry." Roman stuttered, panicking more and more.

Patton looked back up and opened his arms and let Roman fall into his touch. "I'm really- really so-sorry I- I'm very sorry, please fo-forgive me guys!" Roman said, starting to panic. "Ro, breathe, 4, 8, 7, continue that." Logan said, grabbing Roman's hand and tapping the beat on his hand.

Roman's breathing slowed down but he was still panicking. "I-i think we should read these. Privately, but f-first, we should, see if he's with the others." Patton suggested, rubbing Roman's back. Roman nodded and Logan gave a thumbs up.

"You two should rest, I'll go ask. For now, stay safe." Logan assured, closing his eyes and sinking out. He opened up his eyes as he heard a voice say "Logan!" He looked around. "Remus' room." He thought. "Logie! What are you doing here specs?" Remus exclaimed, placing his deodorant on the side.

"Ah Remus. I have a question. Have you seen Virgil? He isn't in our area and he left us notes and we thought he was wi-" Logan said, before being cut off by the door being swung open by Deceit. He looked at Remus, whose smile fell and Deceit, who was not wearing his usual outfit.

(How did Deceit open the door in time well- that's a story for another day-)

"Okay wait wait wait! You got the letters too? Logan, thank god." Deceit exclaimed, making his way towards both. "Wait..how did he give you the letters, may I ask?" Logan said, gesturing to a dark green envelope on the side. "I-i'm not sure. I woke up and found these next to me." Remus said.

Logan nodded and paced the room. "Have you read them yet?" Logan asked, ignoring the feeling of panic growing in his chest. Remus shook his head and Deceit sat down beside Remus, putting an arm around him.

"Ah, I suggest you read them privately. But if uh, your feelings, get in the way. Ask for help." Logan said, looking back at Remus and Deceit. Remus was crying now and Deceit's eyes were teary eyed.

"I- I just- I really miss him Logan. I kn- I know that it doesn't se-seem like that. He- he would be the- there for me and D-dee. We-we would play and lau-laugh.. He- he was our be- ..." Remus choked out, tears falling more and more. "He was our best friend." Deceit said, finishing the sentence for Remus.

Logan sighed softly and nodded. "I-i know..he was like a brother to me. He was a nice friend. I'll leave you guys for now. Farewell." Logan said, smiling softly and sinking out. He was able to catch Deceit's thank you before sinking out.

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Logan rose up and looked down to see a note on the kitchen table.

"Hey Logie! Roman and I are in our rooms. We decided to take a break before reading our letters! We'll start reading them at around 1 p.m.! I think you should do the same! Bye!

~ Patton & Ro"

Logan smiled and took his letter out from his pocket. He made his way up the stairs. He entered his room and tossed the letter on his desk. He plopped himself on his chair and looked at the clock.

"12:59"

Logan waited until it hit 1 and took the letter. Roman was on the floor, taking out the letter from it's envelope. Patton was lying down on his bed, doing the same thing. Deceit was in the other side's kitchen. Remus was in his room.

(From here, this is gonna be what it says in their letters! Enjoy <3)

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Dear Logan,

Hey L. I'm really sorry for doing this to you. To Dad. To Ro. I'm very sorry. You may not see me telling you I'm sorry or anything, but I am. You're like a brother to me. You're smart, funny, savage. You're just cool. You're talking confuses me sometimes but that doesn't matter.

You say you don't have "feelings" but deep down, you do. Do me a favor and try and find them. You're more than what you think Lo. You're doing well Lo. You're amazing. You're kind. You're smart. You care. You take your time to talk to me.Take care of Pat for me please. Stay safe. Love ya bro. I'll return soon. Just need time.

~Virgil.

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Hey Remus,

How's Deceit doing? Hope the snake dude is doing good! Hey, I'm really sorry okay? Remus, i know you really scared Thomas last episode but, he will accept you. Thomas isn't going to hate you forever. Sure, it might take some time. But, he will. Lessen the gore and dirty jokes a little though.

Patton learned to deal with you too.

He said that you may be too out-going but that's what makes you you. You don't have a filter but you're amazing the way you are. Your jokes make me crack up. You're sweet and you try your best. Thank you Re, thank you. Have fun and continue being cool.

Love ya trash man. I'm gonna return, not any time soon though.

~Virgil.

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Dear Deceit,

Hey Dee. I miss you. A lot. It doesn't seem like that all the time but I do. I miss you a whole lot. The light sides know. They care about my decision. They make me feel better like you did. You're cool Dee. Thomas will accept you. You may seem scary at first but that's okay.

I've been with you for years and I know that you aren't just a liar. You're a friend. A brother. A hero. You're not always a villain. You and Remus were never the villians. You're not one of the dark sides. You're like us.

I love you guys alot. You guys deserve the best in this world. You guys are really cool. Let no one tell you otherwise. Thanks for being there for me when I need it. Love ya big bro. I'll return and give you the biggest hug. I just don't want to right now.

~Virgil.

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Dear Dad,

Pat, I'm really sorry. Please forgive me. I'm very sorry. You didn't deserve this but this seemed right for me. You're amazing. Your puns make me laugh. You make a wonderful friend Patton. You deserve a "Patt-on" the back for that. I'm glad you learned how to accept Remus and Dee.

You don't know how much that means to me. You're really loving and caring. I hope you take care of yourself more. Your feelings aren't stupid or dumb. They matter a lot. You make an amazing dad. Your cooking is delicious. You treat us like we're your kids.

Patton. I love you dad. Take care of yourself too. Love ya. Keep being awesome. famILY. I'll come back, not soon though.

~Virgil

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Dear Roman,

Roman..i'm really sorry. Please please please, forgive me. You're a really cool guy. You may not think the same but I do. Patton does. Logan does. Deceit does. Thomas does. Even Remus does. You're a lovable dork and that's why you're my closest friend.

You deserve the world Princey. You're amazing. You're cool. You're sweet. Kind. Wonderful. Smart. You're YOU Roman. You're "Really Obviously Mascular And Nice". R-O-M-A-N. I'm glad that we moved our differences away. Sureee, call me out for being cliche. But I'm saying the truth.

You are my best friend. Patton is my dad. Logan is like my brother. Deceit IS my brother. Remus is also my friend. But you, you're my closest friend. My friend. The friend who would look out for me when the others are away.

Roman, I'm sorry but I can't keep my feelings away now. I like love you Roman. I always have. Not the best friend love. Love. Love as in late cuddle sessions and movie nights. Roman. I love you, Roman. I'm sorry that you have to go through this, really I am. But this is what feels right for me, and I hope you understand. I understand if you can't forgive or if you don't love me. I really do.

For now stay safe, this isn't the end. I'll return. Just not soon. Te amo con todo mi corazón.

Lots of l♡ve, Virgil

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Silence fills the whole mindscape. Nothing but silence. A pin could drop and everyone would hear. No one dare moves.

Patton's the first to break. He bursts into tears and holds a patch from Virgil's jacket that came with the letter close to him.

Remus follows next. His sobs get louder as he slowly brings up the patch of Virgil's jacket to get a better look at.

Deceit is next, unable to let go of the patch of his little brother's jacket. Every sob came with more pain than the last. It just hurts.

Logan has never felt so broken in his entire life. His whole body shook with choked out sobs as he buries his hair in his hands, staring at the patch in his lap.

Roman, Roman couldn't breathe. He loved Virgil. Virgil was his dream. Roman shook his head in disbelief as his shaky hands held the final patch in his hand. Every sob came faster than the last.

And there left the sides. Missing the only thing that held them together. Patton's son. Remus' best friend. Logan's best friend. Deceit's little brother. Roman's love. Virgil is gone.

When would he come back? And...will he keep to his word?

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WOW THAT WAS A RIDEEEEE! First time writing angst, so sorry if it's kinda bad! But liek, did I break your hearts? If I did, I apologize bUT I WANTED TO TRY AND ANGST-

Also sorry for the hella long post!

Anywaysss-

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We All Have Bad Days

Summary: Patton has a bad day and Virgil is there to cheer him up.

Word Count: 976

Warnings: N/A (I think does sad Patton count?)

Pairings: Platonic Moxiety, Romantic Logicality

Patton had a terrible day, with all the other sides arguing all throughout the day, and him being unable to control the fighting he just felt altogether useless. Patton wasn’t going to let that ruin his day though, and decided to grin and bear it, which is what led up to him being in his room bawling his eyes out. The day started off with the fighting and constant bickering, but during breakfast he had spilled maple syrup on himself, and he had to take a shower after Deceit, who was known to take all the hot water. So after his cold shower, Patton went to clean around the mind palace, and it was quite the task. He was however not all to happy when Roman fighting with Virgil had managed to trash the common room, that he had finished cleaning first. In a fit of anger, Patton scolded the two and had them clean up their mess. As they did that Patton went onto cooking dinner.

While Patton was cooking Logan had walked in to make coffee, as he needed the caffeine to boost his energy.

“Salutations Patton. If I may ask, what’s for dinner tonight?” Logan asked, Patton turned around and smiled.

“Oh it’s just spaghetti.” Patton said, and Logan nodded leaving with his coffee. Virgil had walked in without Patton hearing him enter. So Patton just began silently crying, Virgil didn’t hear it at first until the soft sniffles became noticeable.

“Patton you okay?” Virgil asked, walking over. Patton jumped and looked at Virgil.

“O-Oh! Kiddo! I didn’t realize you were here.” Patton smiled, and wiped his eyes.

“Why are you crying?” Virgil asked, walking over to Patton. He placed his hand on Patton’s shoulder in an attempt to comfort him.

“I-It’s nothing really.” Patton reasoned, making Virgil roll his eyes.

“I don’t believe that Patton.” Virgil sighed, and looked at the food, then he dragged Patton to his room.

“Okay we have a couple minutes before the food needs to be tended to. So could you please tell me what’s wrong?” Virgil asked, Patton just sat there tears welling up in his eyes again.

“I-I just didn’t w-want to hear y-you all fighting!” Patton cried. Virgil flinched at comment and wanted to panic, but he knew he had to help Patton first.

“Patton I didn’t know we were doing that to you. Why didn’t you tell us?” Virgil asked softly, as to not cause any alarm to the older side.

“I didn’t want to make you guys feel bad.” Patton said, a frown plastered on his face. Virgil led Patton over to the bed, and sat him down.

“You stay here, I’m going to go ask Logan to continue with the food, because we need to talk some more.” Virgil rushed off to tell the logical side about the situation and asked him to inform the others about it so they could help him out later. Once Virgil got back, he sat down next to Patton. Patton was rather quiet for the rest of the ordeal, but Virgil didn’t leave patton.

“Patton...we all care for you too, and we want you to feel happy. We don’t want you to be upset.” Virgil mumbled, Patton looked over at his dark strange son. He saw that Virgil was looking for more words, when he just leaned on Virgil. Patton’s hair just hanging in front of his face, as Virgil adjusted himself so he could give Patton some cuddles. Granted Virgil wasn’t normally this touchy feely, and struggled to not push Patton away.

“I-I just d-don’t want to b-burden you all.” Patton stuttered, Virgil just squeezed Patton a bit tighter.

“You would never make us think any less of you. We want you to be happy.” Virgil said, shifting himself a bit. A knock at the door caught Virgil’s attention and he got up to go and open the door.

“Here’s your food. Roman and I have made an agreement, we are going to make some compromises. We wanted some time alone to work on this. So he suggested that I brought food to you two.” Logan handed Virgil two plates of food, and then placed some water on a desk by the door. Logan waved goodbye and then walked towards the common room.

“Dinner’s here.” Virgil said, placing a plate in front of Patton, who happily grabbed it and began eating.

“Wow! Who made this? It’s really yummy!” Patton said, as he devoured the food. Virgil smiled, and handed Patton a water bottle, while he sat down and ate his own food. The two sat in silence for a bit, none wanting to break the rare peace in the mind palace.

“Want to go and throw water balloons at Roman and Logan?” Patton asked, Virgil nodding as the two of them went and grabbed their water balloons. Virgil had a very evil plan, that was sure to make Patton smile. The two filled their water balloons up, and placed them in a bowl of water. Patton had two water balloons and Virgil did too. They walked out quietly, and when the time was right threw the balloons at their victims. While Logan and Roman yelled about how rude it was to just throw water balloons at them. While they yelled Virgil, took the bowl of water and dumped it on Patton, who froze for a bit, before laughing his butt off. Tears fell from his eyes because of how hard he laughed, and Logan’s face was on fire from just hearing Patton’s adorable laugh.

“Virgil! I’m so glad you’re my son! You’re the best son a dad could ever have.” Patton giggled out, as Virgil crossed his arms and looked away, a very dark blush on his face.

“Whatever.” Virgil grumbled, at least his dad was feeling better and didn’t feel like trash.