Okay, the only word that I feel like gets close enough to what I'm looking for (by dictionary definition) is dionysiac, which according to my good friend *Oxford Learner's means "relating to the physical senses and the emotions, especially when they are expressed without control" but idk guys, while I'm known to be dramatic at times, saying "ugh, I'm so dionysiac rn" seems awfully pretentious
*For some reason that definition only comes up in the Learner's edition, not the regular Oxford dictionary (OED) which is weird. ¯\(°_o)/¯
Alright so sensual attraction is a thing. We all can acknowledge that, look it up on Google, confirm it. Great. Why is horny the only word close enough to describe randomly remembering I'm sensually attracted to my girlfriend? I hate that. "Horny" is wrong, that's not what I'm feeling but also I can't describe it in one word any better. Yeah, I've been thinking about my gf lightly bestowing kisses upon my skin and giving me the good shivers, but not in a "I need her to fuck me rn" kinda way, in a "wow I love feeling physical manifestations of love from my partner, it makes me happy and wow oh wow I love my gf so much" kinda way. I'm asexy horny. Gods I hate the word horny. Someone please give me an alternative word, my soul is screaming