IM SO FUCKING JEALOUS
LIKE JOE LONG I HAVE TO WAIT FOR POLISH TRANSLATION MISTER IMPOSSIBLE?? THE THIRD BOOK IS WAITING BIDNDPSJJDOJDHOD
he knows it's not true but... he jus knows he isn't that good, wise or nice. his words are like knives, he's brutal and he's always angry. but he also is honest, he takes care of everyone and everything and he just loves his family, friends and even people who doesn't deserve it.
on the other hand adam is scared of love.
he grew up in house without love, of course he's scared because of it. he didn't use to know how love looks like. but he loves. he loves gansey. he loves blue. he loves ronan. he loves henry. he loves noah. he even loves his dad. it's riddiculus, robert hurt him and even it's toxic and silly, adam loves him. he loves idea of robert parrish who is a good father.
ronan and adam have something in common — both of them think they don't deserve to be loved. and that's why they're in love with each other. no because of their look or their personality. they fell in love because they understand how feel to think you don't deserve love. it didn't make them stronger, it made them wiser.
(((did i just write a whole ass headcanon bc of my insecurity? yes. did i not regret it? yes.)))
(also please be nice if i have any mistakes, english isn't my native language, i literally had a directionary beside me)