Ramblings - Blog Posts
Random ramble, but I love both being in the hollow knight fandom and also the countryhuman fandom, cuz its such a shock from needing to defend liking just one ship, to basically being part on the head and just getting a 'yeah'.
Like I get both fandoms definitely have their problems, but it's such a shock to go from getting literally bullied for being in one to than being welcomed and treated nicely and NOT getting absolutely shat on.
Idek, no ones probably gonna even see this, but yeah. I'm in the countryhuman fandom, and I love it. And just to be specific, no I dont ship weird ships, I just like anthropomorphic things. Like bugs... and countries...
Welp! That's all! Also ig heres a sillie picture of the one and only US of A and this is going to definitely be the only post on where I mention countryhumans. And if you used to be in the ch fandom, and got ptsd from this post. I'm so sorry. If you're in the hk fandom, hello! Silly bugs am I right? Haha-
I've been in the ch fandom for nearly 5 years, I dont think I can leave. I keep getting dragged back, please help
My first house cost me my saddest memory of how my life ended.
It was the first time I realised my mother hated me. Not consciously. Subconsciously. I think she knew that without me, she’d be free. That she’d have a better life. That it was my fault that she met my brother dad. That she has three kids now and she wants non of them.
I was 12.
My mother had slapped me before but only a few times. She’d verbally hurled abuse, put me and my brothers in danger and prioritised her boyfriends over her children. I walked into my safe-guarding teachers office, having just finished the lunch the school had offered me as my mother hadn’t made me any or given me money to buy lunch, and she told me to take a seat. My mother had run away with her boyfriend and I will be going to live with my granny. I had nothing. I went home twice more to collect a few belongings before I never entered that house again, instead going into care after living with my grandmother for 5 months. The next time I saw my mother, it was at court, where I was the sole witness to her boyfriend beating her brutally. She didn’t apologise. She just smiled and hoped me well. I’ve been in care for 6 years. It’s the best thing to ever happen to me. I payed for my first house with the memory of how the life I knew ended, but also how the life I love today was born.
Imagine you live in a society with no money, no bartering. Instead, stories are currency. To buy your groceries you have to tell the cashier a funny childhood memory. To buy a car you need to relay a life-changing moment. The bigger the purchase, the more traumatic or incredible the story has to be. Write about the story you tell to buy your first house.
Do you think Tails would have nose art on the Tornado? What do you think it would be? Would he paint it himself or would he ask Amy to do it?
Cosmo art would make sense in the X universe but what about idw or modern?
Like classic ww era art was usually pinup so probably not that but there are so many good options
Like the two hurricanes hunters planes are named Kermit and Miss Piggy and even have nose art if them
Small Tang Ramble
Right now, I have started rewatching the entire Lego Monkie Kid series from the start while I wait to see the recent season 5 episodes (that I was suckerpunched with when scrolling through Tumblr and having some stuff spoiled whene I didnt even think a new season would come for at least a few more months).
Then, when I finally got to season 4, I noticed something interesting with how they handle Tang's powers.
At the start of the season, it's revealed that Tang's cheat sheet, given to him by Azure Lion, was something that supposedly should've been helpful to someone "mysticly powerful, comparable to the Great Monk, Tang Sanzang", then the sheet should be a piece of cake so to speak.
Then we see how Tang struggles and has a hard time finding where his friends are located, but then a Golden Cicada helps him to find Pigsy, which was the same one that flew around the Samadhi Fire ritual site when Mei had it reunited within her.
That's not my topic right now, though, so I'll just skip the "random destiny bugs" (name given to me by a friend), and keep going towards my main point.
Anyways, skipping a few episode to when the meet the Great Master (I forgot the guys name), we see how Tang got berated for his lack of courage and work ethic. Then Tang and the rest of the gang are put to train, and I'm not exactly sure on how long they were in training for, but I'm going to assume a few hours at the sky visibly got darker near the end of the montage.
(I'm pretty sure that something akin to a stop in time for them to train would have been stated in the show itself if that was an explanation for how long they have been training for, so I'm gonna rule out any sort of "checkpoint" or "rest stop" rules here, like when you can stay in a safe space for whatever amount of time and come out with little time passed afterwards.)
The reason why I'm talking about how long they've trained for, is because after (what I assume) is a few hours, Tang is able to teleport a WHOLE AIR BALLOON, RIGHT ON TOP OF WHERE THEY NEEDED TO BE, WITHOUT HIS STAFF NO LESS.
*ahem* We know Tang had struggled with the teleportation magic from the beginning, even with his staff along with only transporting 3 people, and the magic level required to do so is comparable to the Monk, who is very powerful considering what we've seen in how his training was revered by the great master for being extensive plus how the Monk focussed only on his studies, and in-show examples. (Ex. Releasing the heavenly seal put on monkey king singehandedly, sealing the Samadhi Fire along with three others, then also Sealing the Lady Bone Demon to where she can only escape through her self reflecting or a rare, mystical key, etc)
I'm just saying how it's very impressive how Tang could go from barely being able to teleport accurately with 3 people, the staff in hand, to figuring out how to teleport accurately, how to teleport something as big as an airship, and then gaining enough focus/mystic power to do the teleport without his staff for this first time shown in the show. And remember this: all of this growth was in, at most, half a day.
And we know how long the Great Monk had to study to get to where he was, "learning everything there was to learn" with him blocking out anything else to focus purely on his studies to get where he was, and yes, he probably studied more than just the teleportation magic in his time, but Azure said it himself, that someone "mysticly powerful, comparable to the Great Monk, Tang Sanzang" should be able to figure out the cheet sheet, or at least versed in the mystical topic.
I already showcased how much work is really needed through that comment, but then Azure showed it again in his comment of "if hes learned it in the mystical arts.." describing how this would have needed to be taught like how they gang were forced to with the Great Master. We already know how hard the training from the Great Master was to get even a fraction of Mk's power, and considering how heavily it's put on how the Monk only studied and studied when it was talked about, with the students in the flashback looking like the ones under the Great Master, I would assume learning the mystic arts takes a similar amount of time and effort.
And now that my points have been laid out, you guys get it when I was gobsmacked at how quickly Tang grew in the time with the Great Master, reiterating my point of how Tang was able to figure out HOW TO DO TELEPORT AND AIRSHIP WITHOUT THE CHEAT SHEET, WITH HIS BARE HANDS, IN A MATTER OF HOURS when it was heavily implied (from what interpreted) that doing something like this would take a considerable amount of time and training, even for the Monk as he was said to only focus on his studies to optimize his mystic abilities and to block any distractions.
And then to add to this, it was only ever shown in the show that Tang only read throughout the entire training session. Whenever we see him in the montage, it's him reading scrolls no matter what. We never see him practice, or even mimic any of the moves or exercise that I would assume would be on those scrolls for him to learn. Then, the first time he ever put those ideas he read about into practice after using the staff the entire time before and messing it up, he was able to make the transportation of the airship fast, accurate, and without the help of the staff entirely.
TLDR: Tang is either so good at cramming that he was able to shorten a good year of learning into a couple hours, or he's severely gifted in the mystic arts with the right training or examples. Either way, if you gave this man a week in the scroll library with some noodles and motivation from the Great Master, then I would assume he might actually become one of the most powerful characters LMK, given the time to do so. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.
I’ve been staring at nothingness with my guitar cuz it’s late and I don’t want to wake up anyone. I’m telling myself that there’s absolutely no reason for me to not sleep if I don’t have anything to do, but I’m still here 👍🏽
Quick sketch cuz I looked at the mirror and I was in a very weird position lol. It isn’t that weird in the drawing cuz I had to change how I was to get my tablet and my memory is bad.
people rightfully criticizing how mavuika's motorbike doesn't fit a fantasy setting but man can you imagine other characters seeing that. imagine being diluc and spending how knows how long in the russian snow every day fighting frostbite and the fatui through sheer daddy issues before walking 20 miles in a snowstorm and then a motorbike just whizzes by you oh i'd be mad
So far I've made 100+ Hetalia fanart and I think I've only been here about 3-4 months and 70+ of them is the Philippines. And like before I joined Tumblr I would just post once a month on Instagram like damn I'm proud of myself for getting more active in art
The hyperfixiation is strong on this one 🙏
I'd like to thank bikertok men for icking me to the point I finally realized I was a lesbian 🙏🩷
I just got done watching The Gaslight District, and holy crap, it is so good. I loved the animation and character designs, and the world building was so cool! I really hope it gets picked up! Anyway, you guys should check it it out! So small warning it does have some gore and violence in it, so if you're sensitive to that, don't watch, but anyway, I'm really looking forward to seeing more episodes of it!
It is honestly a crazy week to be in multiple fandoms right now.
Like Sunday/ Monday we had TBHK ch120 come out and just rip the hearts out of everyone reading it.
And the today we get fucking Spirk cannon after 57 years
Like HELLO what is going on
My emotions can’t handle this extreme fluctuation
And the worst part is…. It’s only Tuesday
What else is approaching us
And so as the autumn leaves fall I gain another rotation to my calendar of life.
I mourn who I could have been and what I could have done in moons past and acknowledge that I can do nothing to change who I am and what I have created. I stand looking back with pride and look forward with hope to a new future.
Though I am sadden I do not truly mourn the person I was for I know that I will always carry them with me. I am as much apart of them as they are apart of me. We grow and live together, never truly forgetting each other.
So heads up and rejoice for the beauty of living
Thinking today about the joy of connection. And finding ways to connect with other humans in small ways. Like when you have some kind of snack you bought at some store and then all of a sudden a person you somewhat know comes up and remarks on the snack. Which leads the two of you to just talk about other foods and preferences and suddenly you find yourself way close to someone you only kind of know. Or how when passing by a field with cows everyone in the car looks out says moo. These little spark of joy that come from these experiences of being human. That is the hope I hold onto when I am sad and alone, that there and millions of people out there and we all are so alike in so many ways. That connection always brings me a little zap of happiness.
Fanfiction crossovers are so interesting to me because of how much you can do with it.
I'm terrible at explaining things so please bear with me for a few seconds.
Often with a universe set in media there are specific sets of rules to how that universe works and how it shapes the stories writers tell going forward. But, fanfiction doesn't have to follow those rules if they don't want to, they can bend and even disregard them to fit their own ideal story and most of the time it works.
For example say that a person from one universe is an adult and another from a different one is a child, each telling their own seperate stories with different outcomes from one another that are most often than not set in stone. Then you add fanfiction and suddenly the little boy from that other universe is actually the grown man's dad who died and got reincarnated.
Fanfiction opens so much more possibilities for a story whose tale has already been told to continue with something new and even exciting. For this I would like to use the DP x DC fandom as an example. Normally a crossover with these two pieces of media at first glance doesn't seem all that strange, they both tell the story of people becoming superheroes to deal with threats and the struggles that come with such a thing. However with the addition of fanfiction everything can take a drastic turn.
In some DP x DC fanfics Phantom and a certain superheroes/villians could be family who form a safe haven for each other, in another they could be lovers who are intertwined by fate to be eternally happy with the other's prescenes and in another they could be enemies who do everything in their power to stop the other.
Someone made a post mentioning how Danny/Phantom is like Barbie for the DC x DP fandom and I couldn't agree more, he could be molded and shaped into any image you desire and it wouldn't feel too weird, from a regular ghostly dude who throws med kits at the bats when he passes them to a very powerful eldritch being destined to wear a crown and sit on a throne of stars and ice.
It's so crazy to me how far fanfiction has come and I really appreciate that.
Steve has a bit of anger issues and a problem with repressed trauma, so i thought it would be so funny if he had got vecna'ed and talked back at vecna like if the mf can't just kill him on the spot.
I just imagine Steve being done with all his bullshit villain talk and calling him a manchild freddy krueger wannabe who is so full of himself even when he has been defeated for three consecutive years by literally kids and teenagers.
Anyway, something something, here is something i wrote about it that i never finished.
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And okay, Stress Steve didn't know how not to say things; he just gave away whatever thought he may have, it didn't matter if it was venomous or vulnerable, but most of the time just works to embarrass himself saying out loud his dumb thoughts, he just talks and, oh boy, he talks.
Stress Steve didn't know when to shut up. Steve would say that he could be a Robin 2.0, but it was more about what he said than how much he talked (or rambled in Robin's case), which was more than he liked to admit.
Now, Afraid Steve wasn't much of a talker; he was more of actions, from freezing in place to just move. He gave barely any thought to what he would do, but he did. Maybe just a few seconds, but he analyzed and thought about it.
Contrary to popular belief, he did think before acting, probably not enough, but he didn't have time to do that (Robin would– and did– argue with him about it).
The point is, when Upside Down shit happens, Stress Steve and Afraid Steve kick in, so he has a weird combination of saying dumb shit and doing even dumber shit, like when he was literally yelling at a child, that child was Erica, and she didn't even bat an eye, but still, you can get the point.
[Insert Steve and Vecna's talk]
So now not only he has Stress Steve and Afraid Steve in his system, Angry Steve has joined the mix, and… listen, Steve is trying really hard to be a better person, he really is, scout's honor, but he knows that he can hurt people with his words.
He would see the deepest insecurity and sore spot he could find and spit in it to make the other bleed, make them hurt, and if he couldn't find it, he would instead make them snap. Yeah, he is trying to stop, but it is a part of him that it doesn’t quite go. It's in his blood. His DNA, or whatever.
He knows himself (he had to know himself if he wanted to be a better person– he doesn’t dare to think he can be a good person, just better, never good). That’s why he tries to just have Stress and Afraid Steve around when shit hits the fan because in the first round, Angry Steve appeared, and everyone knows how that went (I'm sorry Jonathan, I did deserve that punch). So Angry Steve is most of the time locked in a cage, deep down in some part of the still healthy brain that Steve has left.
Anyway, that doesn’t matter now, because Angry Steve has come out and is ready to spit at anyone who crosses his path, and maybe Stress and Afraid Steve can keep him on a leash, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t there. Steve is just lucky enough that the one who crosses his path is Vecna.
How good is his luck that the moment he wants to make someone angry just like him, the other one is a monster from another dimension that has quite literally his life in his hands and can kill him in any moment, ha.
Just his luck.
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“Steve, What did you do?”
"I may or may not have called Vecna a Freddy Kruger wanna be"
Since i was redesign my lamb and nari i decided to try some body pose and reference, idk if tumblr will get mad, i hope not lol
More below
We give top surgey scar to everyone, we love our trans fellas 💕
Lamb is nonbinary but boobs are a bitch sometimes
Aperently part of leshy's inspiration spirit name mean "beekeper" like... he's the forest keeper, protect animals, can change form and aspect and he love bees this is AWESOME
Can you immagine if he find yellowcat in the forest and just change shape to not been view as a threat by the people he consider interesting, like he just leave his temple and go around darkwood in a different form everytime just because he can and who's gona stop him? Whoever want ro stop him has to find him first
I was doing some research for my Leshy design and i find out that he's most likely inspired by a slavic forest spirit, that explain the horns omg!
Still working on him, imma post all 4 bishop together, Heket is already done, i have to start Kalamar and Shamura yet, buy i swear if there's the level of deepness of the first thos for all of imma be the happiest gal on this Planet
tomas route would be so much better if the heroine pretended to not gaf
talking to my friend rn just PICTURE IT... her still enlisting ikki's help, and them pretending to date to make toma jealous... ikki being like toma should be more honest with himself! he's practically shaking with jealousy! and the heroine not quite believing it or at least, wanting to hear it from toma's mouth...
the fanclub could even be in on it since the heroine quickly forgives rika and starts to become friends with her (LXC). they wouldn't believe her at first, but game recognizes game. rika of all people is freaked out by diamond world mc's indifference. that says it all
TOMA: This fanclub thing is getting intense, haha... How 'bout you stay at my place for a bit? Just for a bit? MC: ummm... I dunno... I think I'll ask Ikki. Maybe I should stay with him instead? TOMA: NO! I mean, uh, haven't you just started dating? He's a total player! I have to take care of you know! Come on, just stay over until this blows over! Like when we were kids! MC: ^_^ (mentally pumping her fist in the air) Oh... well... If you say so, Toma! Let's go! Right now!! LATER: Orion's like you got a text! It's from Ikki! responding to the debrief you texted him when Toma was out of sight, and it's just in capital letters "ALL THAT AND HE STILL HASN'T CONFESSED?"
also.
i'll never forgive them for not following up on this offer in LXC because i was having such an "i'm over it" reaction every time toma went all woe is me mode, so sorry for putting you in a dog cage and not letting you leave the house aka leave me, and the mc was like it's not a big deal! GIRL IT IS A BIG DEAL LET HIM GROVEL FOR YOUR AFFECTION IF NOT GENERAL AMUSEMENT
it's fine that the MC is a freak. especially for toma like it truly makes it better. but MAKE HER MATCH HIS FREAK... i'm not even trashing the yandere stereotype right now. if you have a man that is willing to do ANYTHING. ANYTHINGGGG to keep the heroine in his sight, to not break up with her... well. let's just say he should be on his knees at least once. the heroine would be right to make him kneel okay... the yandere trope goes both ways...
I went to the movie theater and watched Moana 2! I really like it, it wasn’t as exciting as the first movie but it was still good!
Got so many inspiration from it too!
literally writing an essay but all i can think of is nagireo…
well to be specific a nagireo fic based of In my room by icp
save me
I hate being both an artist and writer cause it just ends up being I have cool art inspiration and I end up with writer’s block. On the other hand, I currently suffer from art block cause I had a really cool book idea and inspiration once again for my Spider-Man fanfic. Why can’t I just have both??
so i thought i'd ramble about Eternity-verse for a bit.
While it's primarily cuphead based, i wouldn't consider it a cuphead au anymore. While the main characters are Cuphead/Evil (bad end cuphead), i've changed a good amount to the point most would just consider them my own oc's. The cuphead game does still take place and change a good amount of their lives, but it was also just a single day in over 18000 days ( or about 50 years. yes they're that old lmao). i also include some events of the cuphead show, which takes place when they're about 10 in EV
not to mention, cuphead isn't the only universe in Eternity-verse. in it i've included Batim, Gravity falls, Hazbin hotel/Helluva boss, and a few undertale au's. also adding that i've created my own gods, species, religions, and languages for this au, not to mention my literal hundreds of oc's, i can't fairly call this a cuphead au anymore lol
so thats just my fair warning, i go astray from canon easily, using this complex fusion au as a base with my own stories adding to it also i will continue using the au tags for each fandom, because sue me, i like getting attention
I am so normal for them
I have never been so jealous of a piece of candy
I love the clone wars trio bc I see them all as different commentaries on the Jedi of the time.
Obi Wan is what the Jedi were.
Anakin is what the Jedi preached against.
Ahsoka is what the Jedi should aspire to be.
Obi Wan had the best of intentions: he wanted to save Anakin, to save Satine, to save Ahsoka. But in the end he failed due to Sith scheming. He was set up to fail, wether it be his dead master or the intergalactic war he was forced to fight in. And in the end Anakin did fall from the light, Satine was killed in Maul's quest for revenge, and Ahsoka walked away. He was a well-intentioned man with a good heart who was ultimately set up to fail by the Sith.
Anakin too wanted safety for his loved ones, but he took it to far. Instead of prioritizing those people, their wants and needs, he prioritized the way they made him felt. Instead of selfless love, he loved selfishly, which is exactlaly what the Jedi are against. They're not against love, they're against attachment. Anakin couldn't let go of Ahsoka: it corroded his faith in the Jedi, sowed seeds of resentment. He couldn't accept that Padme or Obi Wan didn't agree with his vision, because if they don't make him feel good, then they no longer love him. Anakin was a kind boy twisted by the Sith and his misguided attachment to others.
Ahsoka falls into a similar category as Obi Wan, except for one detial. She walked away. She recognized that the Jedi were unintentionally loosing themselves in war. And even through she was a spectacular warrior, a talented commander, she recognized that it wasn't supposed to be her job. She was able to let go of her attachment to Anakin and the 501st. She was a product of her masters and friends, of Obi Wan, Anakin, Padme, and all the others who influenced her growth. And even in the end, when her world fell, she still acted with compassion and understanding, which is exactly what a Jedi should be. Despite her discomfort with the twisted meaning of the title, Ahsoka embodied the fundamental traits of a Jedi. Not flawless, but an empathetic peacekeeper capable of embracing love and rejecting attachment.
Idk if I'm articulating it right, but the general idea is there.
Its kinda fucked up for all the characters to go off to the Castle for some sort of secret meeting and leave Mc and Luke at home
Like
It's putting Mc on the level of a literal child, just cause they're a human, we all know the only reason Solomon is invited is cause they don't see his ancient ass as a human
Anyways the micro aggressions go wild
(man and those fanfics where LUKE goes to the meeting aswell holy shit that has me fucked up)
ミBarbatos and Diavolo's relationship but also Luciferミ
Now that I think about it while also considering we now know that Diavolo was raised by Barbatos- it makes sense he "favors" Lucifer over Barbie (and says Lucifer is his most trusted something or another)
It also explains why Barbie doesn't outwardly seem upset by it even in the most subbest of subtext, I mean.- if I had a loser son like Diavolo I'd be pretty hyped for him making a single (1) friend >>
Anyways.
Barbatos is just his dad, and yes the word *just* feels insulting but it's true. (Assuming you have friends) you'd know that often times they become a main focus for us over our family, especially as we age and create an identity for ourselves. Family- and most importantly parents in this case, tend to take a backseat to lovers and your closest friend(s).
And it's not necessarily a bad thing! A parent- In a healthy best case scenario, takes the role as someone you can fall back on, someone who is there for you and can provide paternal comfort- and this is exactly the role Barbatos is beginning to take in Diavolo's life as he becomes the next demon king! Diavolo can absolutely not be dependent on Barbie forever, he has to fully grow up one day, and therefore NEEDS to find other people who he can be dependent on in a hopefully healthy way, ie. His right hand man, Lucifer.
(And MC and Levi but fuck those two).
Yes, in some nightmare timeline if Diavolo had to choose between one living and one dying for any reason he'd pick Barbatos. Obviously.
So, tldr; Barbatos is Diavolo's dad, Lucifer is his by proximity best friend and Diavolo is- while oh so excruciatingly slowly- growing as a person and we should follow Barbatos' lead and encourage our baby boy.
And ya, okay maybe it took Diavolo a few more million years than a normal child and also he isn't a child but hey! It worked out I think >:) ;;