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‘ where's your sense of adventure ? ’ — zee ( @razedeities ) ; via the boys (season 1) starters

mara flashes a rueful smile, with the sink of her shoulder turned over from the screen of her laptop in a sort of test. one she would argue was of him, if it wasn't for an understanding of zee's rather convincing nature by now. but a more honest counterpart lies in her ability to withhold ; often far too malleable to another's whim for a person so avidly concerned about her own rankings.

❝ we could be adventurous here ? ❞ the suggestion is all she has to refute him, knowing how badly she needs this. a false sense of security that the walls of their dorm provide, where the threat of the consequences for dodging curfew remains null. she can't afford any public missteps that could knock her down.

she'd offer that he go by himself, if he wanted, instead. but the thought of just offering him up to someone else like that makes her sick. forced to settle into the idea that it might be the circumstance either way as she regards it with a breathy laugh. it's hollow, and echoing with a bitterness she isn't sure how to mask in it's entirety. ❝ sorry . i know i'm boring you lately . . . ❞