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Void state is as easy as zoning out.

I woke up at 5:23AM and decided that I wanted to zone out for 5 seconds. No, I didn't go back to sleep for another 2 hours because I'd feel that, I just wanted to zone out for 5 seconds. And I DID zone for 5 seconds, all black and nothing. I checked the time.. IT WAS 7:27AM MAN WTFFFF !!!!

───★ ˙ AWARENESS ̟ !!

: : and how to stop overcomplicating shifting. : :

(DETAILED) part 1: my thoughts.

when I recently discovered shifting just 3 weeks ago, one of the things I noticed in the shifting community was that there were so many people that couldn't shift for years. I was worried about being those kinds of people, and the people that have claimed to be shifters seemed to have waited over 2-3 years (or I thought.. since a lot of shifters have been there since 2020-2021.)

but when I went on tumblr, I always noticed the same simplistic advice. and I noticed that this advice can even be applied for things like astral projecting and lucid dreaming, which was a bigger platform of people where I noticed that it can take people most commonly days, weeks, a month MAXIMUM in the community. there were even those kinds of meditations that were really intense, they could let you see your past life, or heal your chakras, your body.. even prayer counts! but so how come it would take longer for reality shifting when it is equally as complicated as every other practice I mentioned? (4:44PM as I type this)

but most importantly, WHY is it different for others?? And why is it a reoccurring theme btw that others sleep while others shift? Why is there a thin barrier you have to tip-toe over between sleep and shifting, huh?

ofc, I was no lucid dreamer, nor was I an astral projector. but when I saw how reality shifting was, I decided to give it a go..! I overscripted which delayed me 2 weeks of actually stepping into attempting it and I thought that was a bad thing until a shifter, @theoshifts8 , told me that there's no such thing as over scripting, under scripting, or not scripting at all! (but for that, I still recommend y'all to script especially in dangerous realities because someone once shifted to a reality but immediately d1ed the first 2 seconds upon entering.)

I had four shifting attempts and my fourth attempt was the time I mini shifted. last night I tried again, and I mini shifted again but decided to go back on purpose. so it only took me days! but how come?? I was reading stories from other people as well and I've read about a person who taught her younger brother how to shift and he did on his first try, DESPITE BEING A CHILD!! and a girl who was a spirit medium and was told by her grandmother that passed away that shifting was real! and even on shifttok, older shifters would teach shifters how to shift and then they do on their first attempt or after a short period of time! why? like, it wasn't fair!

: : UNTIL I FIGURED OUT ONE THING : :

part 2: my advice put into storytelling.

IT WAS A W A R E N E S S. (not just for that DR because I'm not going to repeat the same advice to you repeated here already.. I mean awareness with the awareness. sounds stupid? Okay hear me out)

before I shifted, I was consuming a lot of things with the rebellion and denial that it would take time to shift.. because that made no sense! why would that be something inevitable if I'M the one shifting right?? I kept nagging myself about that, I was probably using the LOA unintentionally, but sincerely I was not accepting the idea that shifting would take years.

I read a blog which was a letter for shifters who still haven't shifted for so many years, and the key was literally just awareness. I noticed a pattern. it all was just awareness and nothing else mattered. awareness, awareness, awareness. I found it in all blog posts, but most just worded it differently! But how are you supposed to be aware of that DR? Someone left a comment on one of my posts about that too!! to that, I didn't find anything that talked about it.

And even methods!! I noticed they all just used only one thing which was to induce an absence of awareness FROM this reality but a big awareness to your DR. yes, some can including affirming and countdowns but that's just to enter meditation.. so I didn't really take those countdowns and affs seriously, all I focused on was my DR and how it felt. Apparently, THAT was the awareness. like, excuse me???

1. My first three attempts, I was aware that they weren't "failed attempts" because it was something I'm progressing on, but I kept a journal and would notice what I thought held me back. my first shifting attempt? I didn't shift because I forced myself to focus on the guided meditation and ended up taking a nap in the van! (Yes, I couldn't finish meditation in bed and we were in travel and I had nothing else to do but shift, then I slept.)

Why did I take a nap? I wanted to enter the void state and that's when your body is asleep but your mind is awake. the void state detaches all your awareness from your physical reality but my body dragged my mind to sleep with it because I didn't have any mental stimulation, but the meditation which was boring.

2. My second shifting attempt, backround noises. I stopped the meditation halfway because of those damn chickens that kept screaming outside.

but everytime I'd zone out in my room until I take a nap, how come they don't make a noise? I mean, they'd MAKE noise before I zone out but 5 seconds into dozing off, the sounds are gone. and that's before I black out into a nap before I consciously think about that. I remember recording a facetime where I was tired I was about to take a nap but then rewatching the video, THE CHICKENS WERE MAKING NOISES THE WHOLE TIME BUT I DIDN'T HEAR??? That's when I understood the "absence of awareness."

3. My third attempt. I trained myself to ignore the chickens by implementing the dozing off action.. And I'd feel symptoms like being detached from my physical senses and feel like I'm floating around. until I would think about my back and then I feel my back against my bedsheets. But what happened to the feeling of those flashing lights I was seeing? what happened to feeling like I wws moving? those symptoms lasted because I would focus on those symptoms.. apparently that wasn't allowed but I just forgot about it.. though THE MOMENT I thought of my room here, I felt my bed again and I was still. In. My. CR. I learned to visualise my DR to put my awareness there but I focused on my symptoms too much to think about my DR, but when I thought about my CR after being aware that I was shifting, I was in my CR.

I then understood awareness.

4. My fourth attempt, final, I allowed myself to doze off but stimulated my mind to thinking of my DR. And what I mean by this is visualizing, but also doing things, remembering things, I wasn't just laying in bed.. like purposely generating a dream in my DR from here. I got in. For a few seconds. I felt things. I saw things. But then came back again. Well, last night I shifted again and had another mini shift, but it was intentional this time because I was like "oh omg" and a shifter @theoshifts8 (go follow them) also told me that you should think as your DR self like "what am I going to have for breakfast?" okay.

It's all in the feeling and the awareness, NOT the method.

It's not in the breathwork, in counting, in affirming, no it's not.

it's in the awareness. and yourself. It's you. love. It's you.

me because my S/O

(I miss him I miss him I miss him he's so perfect I love him he's like so perfect he always makes me feel loved and cherished and he literally completes my entire reality like I love him I miss him he's so handsome and he'll never know what I survived here in this reality or the fact that I traveled the universes for him because it was worth it anyways I miss him I miss him)

: : T H I N G S T O S C R I P T .

🌺 — I forget that I've shifted the first five minutes in my DR.

🌺 — I can never leave until an hour has passed in my DR.

🌺 — I can never mini-shift or come back to my CR accidentally.

🌺 — when I shift into this DR for the first time, I only need to say my safeword to enter my desired reality again if I ever want to shift back. (So shifting gets easier)

🌺 — I have a shifting group with the people from my DR that are expert shifters and have a lot of experience in reality shifting and they often teach me how to shift and we script our reality destinations together.

🌺 — I never / or rarely suffer from inconveniences no matter how minor. I always have constant good luck that is big but never suspicious to anyone.

🌺 — there are always songs, movies, shows, celebrities, videos, poems, books, and etc. that align to my tastes and interests.

🌺 — everyone I meet would never criticize, judge, backstab, exploit, abuse, betray or hurt me in any way unless I want them to (for the plot)

🌺 — nobody ever twists my words.

🌺 — my devices always stay on 100% or recharge on their own everytime I'm bored and they can never die in the most inconvenient times.

"lost in the 80s" - my metallica dr-based fanfiction!!

chapter one: hungover at the beach 

I woke up to the sound of my roommate (who’s simultaneously my ex-boyfriend and best friend), Dave, throwing my bedroom door open, yapping about how it’s time for me to wake up. It’s 9am on a Friday, band rehearsal is on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays, and it’s never this early, so why the fuck is he waking me up now? Naturally, instead of getting up, I pulled my covers over my head, avoiding the light that was making my head pound so hard that I felt like a vampire with light sensitivity issues. I was incredibly hungover from the night before, we spent all night drinking and partying, celebrating our album coming out soon, finally finishing another song after weeks cramped in that tiny studio going over the same riffs. I’ve never been much of a partier or a drinker like the others, but it was Lars that convinced me to “loosen up and have a drink,” and he can be oddly convincing so I joined; turns out I am in fact a lightweight and I’m facing the consequences. I spent the night avoiding the crowd while Jasmine and Lars kept pulling me back into the crowd while I was getting called a “poser” by some random guy because my favorite band is Eagles and not some underground, guttural thrash metal band, and arguing with James. Pretty much everything else was a blur. 

The sound of continuous car horns honking outside and Dave non-stop yelling “Wake up, wake up, waaaakkkeeeee uuuuuuppppp!!” finally got my ass out of bed. I stumble into the living room to see two packed tote bags on the counter, and James leaning against the same counter fidgeting with his rings. 

“What are you doing here?” I say with a scratchy morning voice and already an attitude brewing at the quick sight of him.

“Waiting for you?” He said, scoffing. “We were supposed to leave 20 minutes ago, Giana.”

I pause, a confused face starting to form while I just stare blankly at James and wait for him to tell me what’s going on. He lets out a sigh and says “We’re all going to the beach? It was your idea, said something about shark spotting or shark swimming.” Then it clicked!! There’s a place on the beach by a secluded cliff where you can see and swim with nurse and leopard sharks, so of course, my face lit up almost in a second as I giggled and ran to my room to get ready as fast as possible. I could hear James’ footsteps getting closer to my room as I tried to do my skincare, hair, and get my shit together so we could just go. “Someone’s excited,” he said with a slight smile. I try so hard to be nice to him but everything he says just makes me want to blow my brains out.

“Get out of my room.”

“I’m not in your room?” He was leaning against my dresser? So, yes, he was?

“I have to get changed, get OUT.” He stood there with a smug smile on his stupid face. “What do you want? You’re not allowed to borrow shirts anymore after you stained my Scorpions shirt.”

“I don’t wanna borrow shit, can’t I just stand here?” He wanted something, I just couldn’t figure it out. 

“Is your life goal to annoy me?” 

“Oh, of course it is, Giana. And I'm never gonna stop.” God, that fucking man makes me want to bash his guitar right over her head. Sorry. 

“Alriiiight, I’ll just change in my bathroom since you wanna be a fucking creep,” I said while making my way over to my bathroom, I could feel his eyes burning into the back of my skull as I closed the door. Like, 5 minutes went by and I was finishing up putting my bathing suit on, some short-sleeved compressed bathing suit top and bikini bottoms, and I could hear James fidgeting around with shit in my room. I opened the door and saw him trying on my rings? 

“Can you put them down and stop invading my privacy more than normal?” 

“What are you talking about, Giana? You said I could try your stuff on, do you not remember?” I think he’s sarcastically gaslighting me?

“Okay, shut up and get out now,” I grabbed his shirt collar and started to pull him out of my room. He turned around and latched himself in between my door frame, and  with a big grin on his face, he said “Giana, if you wanted an excuse to get your hands on me, you could’ve just said so. You know I wouldn't say no, pretty girl.” 

“Will you say no if I ask you to shut up or die?”

“Fuck off,” he said while rolling his eyes and walking away, finally. I finished getting ready shortly after and walked into the living room, the tote bags were gone and so were James and Dave; I swear I thought they ditched me til I heard a car horn and Tori yelling “Giana!! Hurry up, we’re losing daylight!!” I rushed downstairs and out to the car, and to my surprise was James leaning on the drivers’ side of my car. I walked over and nudged him, kind of a subtle hint for him to move it.

“Quit it, Gia, I’m driving.” He said, annoyed. 

“Like fuck you are, get off my car, Hetfield.” There’s no way he’s driving my car?? He roughly but not painfully grabbed my arm and said “Like fuck I am. Tori doesn’t trust you driving with someone else in the car at more than 55 miles an hour, especially me, so you’re stuck in the passenger seat, puerquito.” Ever since Jasmine and I met, he’s picked up on some Spanish from eavesdropping on us, and ever since he found out that puerquito means “little pig” in Spanish, he’s been calling me it for months because apparently, I make a mess and defile everywhere I go like a pig. How sweet. 

“Dear God, there’s no way you’re dri-”

“Save it because I am,” he said with the biiiiigest and most obnoxious smile on his face. 

“Do I at least get to pick the music?” I said, hoping I would since I’m not trusted in my own car. 

“Yeah, ‘course. I brought your guitar if you wanna play along too, even if you suck.”

“Okay, asshole, I do not suck?”

“Right, right, I forgot, you swallow.” Face went blank, no one laughed, and I swear I hate him more every second. Before I could respond, Tori yelled at us both to get in the car so we could finally leave. And if I forgot to mention, James is by far the most insufferable person in a car, and even more so when he’s the one driving. He pretends to not pay attention to freak me out, he messes with the stereo, he sometimes misses the exit, he’s just all-around someone you don’t want to be stuck in a car with for more than 10 minutes. And this place was an hour and a half away.

Roughly 30 minutes into the ride there, I’d conned him into listening to Hotel California by Eagles at least 5 times, specifically the cassette that my dad had made for me by using his old tape recorder so I could hear them play live since I wasn’t old enough to go. James tried to weasel his way into changing the tapes but all of my cassettes are stored under the passenger seat for safety when I lock the car at night. “Giana, I’d be on my hands and knees begging for you to change the song if I weren’t fucking driving right now. Just. Change. The. Tape.” I loved being able to aggravate him with no way for him to do anything, he does it all the time so why can’t I?

“Mmmmmm, wonderful offer honestly, but you didn’t even say please?” I playfully taunted him. He tilted his head at me while rolling his eyes, “Change the song, Gia. Please? I can’t take it anymore, both you and the song are giving me a headache, so would you be so kind as to change the song?” He smiled softly before letting out a sigh. 

“Since you asked so kindly, of course I can, James,” I flashed him a smile and went to change the tape, which was unknowingly to him, another Eagles tape.

“Thank you so so much, sweet girl.” Trying not to giggle. “You know how seriously I hate that-” before he could finish, Nightingale by Eagles began playing loudly and I started headbanging softly as soon as it started. “Oh, coooomeeee oooonnn. As if their music isn’t bad enough, you have to go and headbang to it?” 

“You’ll get over it,” I smiled and sang along to the lyrics. 

Finally, after what felt like ten million years, we made it to the spot. Everyone got there before us and since the cliff was a little more hidden, no one was there but us. Tori was rubbing sunscreen over Lars’ already red back, Jasmine was laying her towel down, Grace was off to the side setting up the stereo, Dave was sitting on the edge of the cliff and unaware that Cliff was about to kick him off in a millisecond (it’s not too high up, he’ll hopefully be fine…), and James sat our bags down under some shade of the tree hovering over this secluded little spot. I gave Grace my cassettes and I went back over to quickly get my shoes and cover-up off. Just as I finished taking off my shirt, I turned around and James slammed right into me, his chin hitting my forehead; since I was close to the side-edge of the cliff, I would’ve fallen had he not grabbed my waist and pulled me away. He had a slight look of concern on his face, one hand around my waist, the other moving my bangs out of the way to see if there was a mark. It was all very… much. But a good much. “Shit, you’re bleeding a little. Does it hurt badly?”

“No, no, I’m fine, James-” he touched it and it stung, so as a human reaction, I winced. 

“Fuck, I’m so sorry,” he said while giggling a little. Tori, Jasmine, and Lars were all very obviously staring while James used his thumb to wipe off the blood, everyone else was just minding their own (which is what they should’ve been doing as well, those invasive little shits.). “What? What’s wrong?” He turned to look at what was making me hold back laughter, and saw them staring shamelessly. 

“Get a room, you gross gremlins,” Tori said, making Jasmine and Lars burst out laughing. 

“Oh, come on, guys. I was just trying to be-” 

“Save it, twink!” Jasmine said in instant rebuttal to James” attempt at defending his relatively flirty actions. 

We all laughed it off (except James) and moved on with our exciting day. After a few minutes, I went over to the edge of the cliff after everyone jumped off; Lars grabbed Tori and they dove in together, Dave failed an attempt at a cannonball, Cliff had to quietly convince Grace to join in since she was invested in a Vogue magazine and had her walkman on full blast, Jasmine did a run and jump, and all that was left was me and James. “You gonna go or you just gonna stand there and be a pussy?” James asked, teasingly.

“Ha ha,” I laughed sarcastically. “For your information, I’ve never cliff-dived before, so my bad if I’m a little nervous.”

“Yeah, yeah, shut up and just go before I push you in.”

“Do not.”

“Then go.” I was debating whether I should let him or not since it would take me another 10 minutes of convincing to jump off a 30 foot cliff. It was a little laughable that this was my idea, but in my solid defense, I didn’t know it was this high. “Taking so much time to make a little jump off a little cliff, Miss Vázquez. Need my help?” He sarcastically asked while staring at me.

“No, no, I can d-”

“Tsk, tsk, tsk, took too long to answer, so you’re coming with me,” and my life flashed before my eyes as he wrapped his arms fully around me with full force and dove off the cliff with me. It’s easy and obvious to say that day was not quiet like I was anticipating, but in fact full of him getting on my nerves and not letting me have a moment of serenity. I fell asleep on the ride home while “Peaceful, Easy Feeling” by Eagles played quietly in the back.

working on the next chapter :)

okay guys.

so because the fan fic is literally my dr and i’m my own oc or whatever, should i add a photo of me or smthf? im sure most of you found me from my tiktok anyways 🧍🏻‍♀️

Have you forgotten about the fics/scripts/headcanons you would post on here

no!! i swear i wont leave yall in the dust, shit has just been going on in my life but right now im finishing up on the first chapter of my fic!!

about headcanons and scripts, i wont be posting much of either because my script is more private and im js bad at headcanons LMAO

!! introduction ༊*·˚

my name is giana, i'm puerto rican/italian (a no sabo but like a half sabo bc i understand more than i can speak), i have autism and adhd, and i'm 17, 18 in march!! some other things about me is that i cut my own hair, i have kind of a shorter version of james' hair in 89, you know, the shaved sides, but cooler; i do love editing, my editing acc is h3tluvvr on tiktok where i make cute n silly little edits of james, editing honestly is so fun for me and is a great way to pass the time (i have so many unfinished edits); i love wandering around whether it's neighborhoods or other towns, sometimes i get lost on the buses but that's just because i'm a girl!! im also obsessed with anything marine related, so sharks, whales, jellyfish, marine life conservation, but also crocodiles, alligators, snakes, rats, but NOT spiders, i have raging arachnophobia.

a very important thing about me is that i fully support palestine, so if you're neutral or on isr*als side, don't even bother following me.

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i got into shifting around the summer of 2022, my first dr being a stranger things where i was the byers boys' sister and my love interest was steve harrington. i still have that script but my main drs are my metallica dr, supernatural dr, and youtuber dr!! i also have a seinfeld dr, eagles/70s dr, and gnr dr (which is ironic because i hate gnr, i made it for slash...)!! i've attempted a couple times and got close like every time, but more recently i've been too out of it to really fully attempt, but it being a new year, i plan to change that!!

i'd do a dr introduction but the fic is literally based off my dr, me being my own oc (if that's the right word idk), and ik it might sound dumb to some people, but it's my dr and it's my fic!!

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Omg Metallica shifter??-🦷🎀

yes!! i started shifting last summer and realized i could shift anywhere so why not to the 80s to be with my favorite band? i was originally shifting for kirk but smthg clicked and i just fell so hard for james in august so here we are...

what is the reticular activating system and does it relate to shifting?

it’s been a minute!! i’m back!

DISCLAIMER: i am not a neurologist i am a psych student who has studied some neuro in classes and has done personal research. since this is not my exact expertise and i am not a professional on this field, there may be inaccuracies here and there but i am doing my best with what i have learned.

watch this tiktok for more information on this

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the reticular activating system or RAS is a part of the brain that is responsible for many things that can be related to shifting

one thing it is responsible for is the time between sleep and wakefulness which is a prime time to shift— similar to the state between awake and dreaming. the reasoning is explained here.

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the RAS helps with pattern recognition and specific focus, (among other things) so if you see a sign or thing that reminds you of shifting or of your dr the RAS will cause you to notice it more than you usually would.

this makes it seem to you like you are seeing more of such thing, but really you’re just becoming aware of it.

imagine you want a specific car: you are gonna start noticing that car more when you see it

this does not mean this is not proof of signs you are close to your dr, because it means this part of your brain is aware of your intention and noticing things that align with it.

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the RAS is also responsible for filtering sensory stimuli (for example a light might make a buzzing sound in a room and often you won’t hear it at all times because this part of the brain)

this part of the brain being responsible for both sensory filtering and the transition between wakefulness and sleep it is also responsible for stimuli seeping into dreams (which I have a method based on so follow to see that!)

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normally, sleep starts in non-rem stages, then moves into rem and the rem stage often get longer throughout the duration of the night.

when you are in the third stage of non-rem sleep, which is deep sleep, your senses are temporarily turned off. i believe and have seen it to be true that when you wake up during rem and go back into a dream you become more aware of your senses and what is going on around your body, because you had your senses turned back on when waking and cut out deep sleep so they stay partially on (just my theory)

“During sleep, the reticular thalamic nucleus reduces the flow of sensory activity to the cerebral cortex through inhibition of the thalamus.” this explains that there is an inhibition of sensory activity during sleep, which is heavier during deep sleep.

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more personal introduction♡

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I realized my original introduction was more based on my research than me so I thought I'd make a more personal intro.

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♡ I use the name kat on here ♡ my pronouns are she/her ♡ im 22

♡ this is my last semester before getting a psych bachelors degree. ♡ my s/o in all my drs is lexie grey from greys anatomy (WLW)

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my favorite artists are

♡ taylor swift

♡ hozier

♡ chappell roan

♡ olivia rodrigo

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♡ greys anatomy

♡ arcane

♡ friends

♡ new girl

♡ criminal minds

♡ gilmore girls

—————————♡————————— I have too many favorite movies to list- off the top of my head:

♡ mamma mia 1&2

♡ the hunger games series

♡ the spider verse movies (and many other marvel movies)

♡ the oceans series

♡ various barbie movies

♡ various disney movies

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click here to see my drs

what is rem sleep activation and how does it relate to shifting? pt 1

my belief is that all sleep methods involve some form of a dream state that shifts you. it is my personal belief is that rem sleep is the key to shifting many people do not know about.

rem sleep, or dream sleep, occurs about every 90 minutes and often gradually grows longer each time and it was when dreams occur.

if you are able to “activate” a long rem sleep phase- aka interrupt it by waking up during it, it would help with shifting is a couple reasons.

when in interrupted rem sleep, or rem sleep activation, which is also known as wake back to bed in lucid dreaming circles, your brain is releasing theta brainwaves, which means the left side (or more logical side) is temporarily “turned off” and the right is more dominant since it is used to create dreams.

this theta state also known in shifting as the void state which i’m sure you’re familiar with is a deep state of self hypnosis meaning you are more susceptible to the information that you’re told. this is especially since the logical side of the brain is less active.

many people shift when waking in the night and simply intending to shift.

from this rem activated state you can do many things (most popularly lucid dream) the reason is, waking during rem sleep, guarantees you will directly enter a dream when you go back to bed and you can do so consciously.

part II will discuss how to get to this state, how to know you're in it, and how to shift from it <3 like, reblog, and follow to see more content like this (including part II) and as always comment with any questions <33

ALBUS DUMBASADOORNAIL AND GELLERT GRINDHARDONTHEWALL WERE LOVERS? WHY DID I JUST FIND THIS OUT

now what if i make myself so beautiful and sexy during the hunger games…

introduction ❥ ANYAH ZABINI

❧ anyah amelia zabini

╰┈➤ house of zabini’s first gryffindor

꧁꧂ “𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚’𝒅 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒏, 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒂 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒔𝒚. 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒂𝒉 𝒛𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒏𝒊.“

her amortentia smelled of vanilla, strawberries, soap, old books, and ink. a man could only dream of smelling her in his amortentia potion. her lips tasted of candy, sugar, and love. her eyes had seen sorrow, hope, and dreams.

★ anyah zabini was the first daughter of joanna zabini and he-who-shall-not-be-named, and the adopted daughter of shalom zabini, she was the younger half sister of blaise zabini and the older half sister of delphini riddle. she was the first riddle and the first zabini to ever be placed in gryffindor.

joanna zabini 🝮 loved to say she tried her best as a mother when all she ever really did was cheat on shalom with the men she murdered.

shalom zabini 🝮 was the biggest and the baddest in the deatheater business but he loved his children equally...even if one of them wasn’t his.

ZABINI MANOR

her peeps 🝮

theodore nott was the glue that held them all together, they all had a special relationship with theo.

sam nott was her childhood best friend, they did everything together basically from birth.

livia black was the coolest girl in school, her hair was always amazing, her makeup was always flawless, livia was the kind of girl that made all the boys fawn over her and then reject them all in the same day.

mattheo riddle was anyahs uncle, he never said anything to their friends because he knew how awkward she felt about that, that’s what made mattheo such a great uncle or friend.

lorenzo berkshire was a big, fluffy golden retriever even though he was big and a slytherin he was just a fluffy little dog whining begging for attention.

draco malfoy was like a brother to nyah zabini, she’d grown up with him, she’d lived with him, they were family despite their blood.

jeremiah shacklebolt was anyah zabini’s soulmate, somewhere deep in her heart the love she had for jeremiah never truly left her.

hermione granger had hatred in her heart for anyah, there was no reason except pure hatred. anyah however loved hermione she was smart, pretty, happy. the two were completely opposite about each other.

harry potter was like the missing piece to anyah zabini’s puzzle when he was brought to hogwarts everyones lives had changed, for better and worse.

ron weasley was a big, lovable, sweetheart, he was kind, and awkward, and funny it was adorable.

fred weasley was like a big prickly thorn that if loved enough became a fluffy pillow.

george weasley was a big goofball, he never listened or cared about getting into trouble. he was outgoing, funny, smart, and tricky.

Do Other Shifters Have A Hard Time Separating the Actor and the Character?

I haven’t fully shifted, I don’t think. I lucid dream almost every night and every one of those dreams feel real, but I feel like I can differentiate between a dream and reality (that’s a lie, typing this feels like I’m in a dream lol) but I digress. For instance I’ve had dreams (minishifts??) about my House of the Dragon Desired Reality and I DESPISE Daemon. He sucks. Now whenever I see anything with Matt Smith (his actor) I just feel rage and annoyance. I know Matt isn’t the same as the character he plays, it’s just rough. I would never go as far as to threaten or send death threats or anything, it’s just an uncontrollable emotional reaction to the face of my biggest opp. I don’t really know how else to explain but have other shifters (lucid dreamers??) had this same problem? Alternatively when someone shifts for love and they come back here and they have to see the person with the same face as their lover loving another, is that hard? It’s just such a delicate thing I think. Maybe I’m just crazy and not processing it correctly. I don’t know but has anyone else experienced this?

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⋅ my name is hannah ⋅ i'm 22 ⋅ i study animal science in uni ⋅ i've been in the shifting community since 2020, haven't shifted to any of my drs yet ⋅ my current hyperfixations are yellowjackets, minecraft, and prions ⋅ i like to post mostly about my drs. antishifters dni!

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last updated... [may 11]

hey girlie! hope you're doing well<3 also, love the new blog theme♡

i read this post (https://www.tumblr.com/hrrtshape/782835465002926080/read-this-if-youre-confused-about-persistence-if?source=share) by hrrtshape recently...

do you think that our reality not changing 'instantly' depends upon whether we're fully committed to our consiousness/accept it as a fact or not? putting aside all the desperation, etc, after you're certain that you've shifted in your mind?

I just wanted to get your views on this because tbh I may or may not have understood her poetic prose ;(

thank youuuu!!!🫶🏼🎀 lots of love!!!!!

Hii, I hope this makes sense, it might sound like something everybody has said already but then again thats just the shifting community so who cares, also thanks !

Also this might not make any sense at all.. actually fuck the human language for not allowing me to communicate my abstract thoughts about reality and how time works….I wish I were telepathic.

Quantum mechanics tells us that particles can be in several places at once. If the particles can be in several places at once and we are made up of these particles we should be able to be in several places at once as well. This is were Hugh Everett proposed his many worlds theory, stating that wave functions never collapse. ( stay with me ) Collapse implies that the other states in super position disappear, so that only one position remains. This would be the idea that there is only one true reality, this one that you are experiencing, but with many more theories coming out about how reality works that notion becomes more distant.

The many worlds theory suggests that there is a third level of parallel realities you can experience by making certain choices. Now you can say his many-worlds theory was widely ignored for his time, and you would be correct, but recently it has caught attention of the physics community. I'm not saying that Everett was right about everything and that is theory is the "manifesto" of how we perceive reality but it can certainly be a jumping point of understanding.

Small changes in our thinking can lead to different outcomes. I've had certain realities relay what my mind has picked up, I've noticed that even though you think you are in a stagnant period relating to shifting your mind is still projecting what you are thinking onto the world. For example, many of my dreams are just jumbled non sense of what I do and think throughout my day. Same goes for realities I shift to, even though I haven't experienced certain situations it still shows up.

We don't know a lot about the mind, and (to an extant) we don't know why the mind tends to delay things; learning, developing mental blocks, etc.

Take a piece of paper, look at it fully and imagine that its your consciousness in its entirety. At the top of the paper, measure a centimeter then take your pencil and draw a line horizontally all the way across. See? Thats a sliver of the paper ( your consciousness ) Thats about all you are using. Only that tiny bit is what we are aware of at this moment.

Ever single human has a different way of being aware. Thats why so many people shift in different ways. Its the levels in which you think that make up what you are ware of.

For example, one persons way of shifting could be pacing around in their room daydreaming about their dr and thats how their mind understands shifting, thats how their mind knows when to shift. Another person could use the method between being awake and being asleep to shift and thats how their mind discerns this reality from another.

Our brain is stubborn, fulling accepting something as fact is one thing, being fully aware is another. Desperation or any of the such will not stop you from shifting.

Ok so, to dumb it down, there is no past, there is no future, the only true thing is what you experiencing now - and with the concept of shifting you can choose to experience anything you'd like. The essence of being where you are is deciding what you are aware of. Whenever I shift It feels like smooth, like your in the zone of flowing thoughts, it comes in this abstract state of awareness.

im done looking at this obsidian doc I have three months of homework i need to finish by june so this is all you are getting from me so sorry, ( i have no idea how emma does all that I have so much respect for her )

im cooking up a shifting post so deviously philosophically scientific that Hugh Everett himself is tap dancing in his grave as I type this up

i have only my beautiful ask to thank for this you know who you are

goodbye..maybe?

I think I understand why so many accounts on here deactivate. I feel the lure to the delete button as well. I might keep this account, I might not, I just don't want to leave out of the blue. So I guess don't be surprised if my account is gone one day loll.. maybe I'm being emo and i'll delete this post in the morning but shifting has felt like a chore since this account has gotten traction, albeit not a lot, but still there are 500 of you and that's kinda scary.

If you want to hear about any of my dr's ask me it will probably motivate me to stay but I also thought about starting a new account in secret who knows. 

I really do want to post more stories from my drs but,, i’ll shift to a reality and a sequence of events happen but if i try to explain it here it literally does not make any sense because it only works with that realities logic

The menstrual cycle and letting go

my thoughts and confessions about how periods relates to shifting; nothing is fact

The gel began to warm up against my skin, the blanket covering my chest shielded me from the man giving me the ultrasound. The stick poked at my side, under my breast and then the place where my spleen should have been; I wasn’t born with one. This happens a lot when you come out with a heart defect. The nurse wasn’t looking for a baby but for the beats of my own heart. He sounded embarrassed whenever he told me to move positions or when he left the room, so I could change into a gown. His nature reminded me of when I was in middle school and a boy would agonizingly ask me out because of a dare. After it was done, I peeled the stickers off my body, wiped the gel away, got dressed, and made my way to the room where I was supposed to wait for my doctor. Like usual, the wait was longer than the interaction. She told me everything looked fine, I was healthy, and asked if I was getting regular exercise. After a monotonous conversation about figure skating, my mother's voice chimed in, asking about an IUD.

 Several months ago, I was debating getting one to prevent my period. I get very emotional during my period; it’s all very painful. I scripted them to be very light in my realities, so I wouldn’t have to deal with the tough parts. I was wondering why I still wanted to keep it; I notice many don’t. But I noticed that all my life my view on bleeding was that of a burden. I laughed alongside other women who cursed Eve's name, I groaned with my mother whenever she was on hers, and I never considered the reasons for tracking it. I never looked at it in any positive way.

A month or two ago, the feelings it brought were so heavy the moment I stood, I felt every emotion that I had been burying in me the days prior release from my thighs; I was so sore, like I would crumble. I lay down and cried. Then I started to notice that when I bleed I could feel all the things I’ve held onto leave my body, physically and emotionally. It’s when I noticed this I stopped being shameful of my period and started welcoming it.  Tiny rant: I realized I had a negative view of my period because of the many men who deemed it as sinful and disgusting; something that women should be ashamed of. I didn’t even realize this, and this is coming from someone who regularly deconstructs societal norms; that's how ingrained it was in my mind..sigh 

Before I started regularly shifting, I often held grudges. I never let go of anything anybody ever did to me; good or bad. Now I am not saying that you won’t shift if you do this; I am talking about myself personally. I had heard of the term letting go here and there. In the title of posts I liked to bookmark for later but never actually read, and in Reddit posts about how it changed the way they view shifting. But I never really understood what they were talking about. I had read about this girl who used her dreams to discover her blockages and such, but I didn’t have any intention of working on that. Because frankly, I didn’t think I had any. Ironically, that night I had two dreams about two people wronging me. 

One dream was with my biological father, he was very abusive. After his yelling and hitting, I ran away, climbed a highway wall and ended up walking along a dried-out river taking photos along the way. At the end of the dream, I was talking with my mom in the car. 

The other dream was with my stepfather. My mother was ignoring me and dismissing the fight. In this dream, I acted like a child alongside him. I was screaming like a toddler, throwing a fit because I wasn’t getting what I wanted. I don’t even remember what we were fighting about. But I had woken up from that dream realizing that they only mattered if I had put my energy into them. The problem was fixed when I didn’t pay mind to it, but it remained when I engaged with it. That's when I got it. Letting go isn’t about forcing yourself to forget–it’s about not engaging. I used to have an opinion on these things, but now they’re just people I once knew. When a thought about them pops up, I don’t fight it or feed into it. I just let it come and go. For me, letting go is refusing to dwell on shit that doesn’t matter. You’re choosing to step into a new reality, so why waste energy on one that doesn't serve you? 

It seems to relate, if you think about it in a poetic way. The moment I started understanding what was happening to me during my period, I also understood how my emotions were holding me back. It’s that stage of letting the emotions flow out and then be done with it. Be with them and let them go on their way. I see my period differently than before. I sat on the couch with my mom, it was early, we were the only ones awake. It was when she was talking about how her period came early I interrupted saying I changed my mind; I don’t want an IUD.  It’s natural, my body lives by the phases it produces so why would I want to stop it? Now, I felt that stopping it would do more harm than good, like I wouldn’t have the chance to let go of anything. That all of my burdens would be stuck in my thighs feasting on my legs refusing to let me walk. My grudges that stayed in place long before those two dreams prevented me from the best outcome in this reality. When I started putting my energy into better things instead of past events I received an apology and finally parted ways with another. 

Whenever I have a negative or positive thought about past grievances I don’t fight or feed into it, I let it come and move on. Don't dwell.

Your account is so beautiful and so poetic, the way you write when you respond to anons sound like handwritten letters for some reason 😭💕 maybe it's because I read them with a soft poetic voice in my head idk but I'm wondering.. When you shift to so many different realities for such long periods of time to escape this current reality, there have been many shifters that said that you could feel big detachment or even more misery when you come back here. I wonder though, when you come back from a shift, especially when you've been in your DR for years.. Does it affect how you experience relationships in the current reality? Have you ever felt detached, or distant from friends, family members, or probably just distant relatives, classmates / co-workers, and etc. ?

And could it be because you outgrown them, (because your soul must definitely feel aged when you have immortality living thousands of lives in the realities in your mind, right?) or could it be that some relationships become unfulfilling? Orr..?

Or have you ever experienced the opposite? And end up being happy seeing close people either because you've missed them or have scripted them into your realities? I'm really curious, as someone who tried to shift just last night as a fun act of self-love and fun place to spend a vacation on another planet 😭😭😭

You are the sweetest, I can't describe how happy your words make me. Thank you so much!!

Whenever I come back It's a feeling of relaxation, or the feeling of being awake in the middle of the night when no one else is. I feel alone but it doesn't bother me. Usually in the moment I’m recounting what happened in my head so I don’t forget about it. I definitely feel more mature, I try to help my mom out as much as I can, force her to do certain things that will help her mental health; I didn't used to do this but now I feel like I can teach her things I didn't know before. She’s a very pessimistic person, it seems like everything that she says is negative and I’ve found that it's hard to relate since I’ve come back. Sometimes I feel out of place but it’s never gotten to the point of misery. I’ve grown up with a lot of anxiety and now that I have experienced what I have I realized I should never feel shame about leaving here. 

I shift to experience a different life, I personally don’t script it to be perfect and happy all the time. I want to experience all of it. I‘ve suffered in every reality I’ve been in, including this one and I don’t see it as a bad or good thing. I just see it as something to learn from, so detachment from here is not a problem for me. I do get sad sometimes that I can’t relay what I’ve been through to my family. Sure, I can shift to a reality where they understand the concept and would console me, but a part of me doesn't want to.

I had a child in my Kirasia dr and that's the reason I ended up leaving there. Though I was happy, I didn’t think I was ready. I was sitting on my bed and kind of dissociating in that moment because the thought of raising a whole entire human being scared me. I will go back, maybe re-live my life there and continue on instead of leaving but I don’t know when that moment will come. A couple of months ago In this reality I was sitting on the couch with my mom and baby sister and was so overcome with emotions when I looked at her. I just started to cry, I said it was because she was being cute, a part of it was, but In that moment I was reminded of my own child. Here I’m a couple months from graduating, and there I am a mother.    

My relationship with my family has gotten better here though. My step dad apologized to me and I was finally mature enough to have an actual conversation with him. My mom wants me to live with her for a while and tells me I shouldn't have to work myself to death. And I finally cut someone off who I didn’t need anymore; so yes I have outgrown people. I don’t know if these things would have happened if I never shifted. I think after shifting my subconscious reworked itself and that's why those moments happened. 

The only detachment I really feel is noticing how immature people are. Before I shifted I tolerated it but now I don’t put any energy into it. I can’t believe I didn’t notice how many grown adults are fucking insane, sorry for the bluntness it’s just crazy seeing how stupid people are. I’m mostly talking about how weird relationships are here, and how some people will find any excuse to be abusive. Not even physically but just mentally. Some of these people aren't even aware of their own actions either - I’m ranting… but I think you get the idea.

When I come back here It's like I've learned a whole new outlook on life and I feel happy to view the world through that lens here. I’ve never felt regret about shifting, someday I’m going to choose not to come back here and I’m fine with that. 

These were such good questions and because of your ask you gave me a new idea on what to write about! I’ve been trying to think about what to write about that isn't a storytime so I’m happy I finally have a small Idea.

My routine as someone who shifts almost every week. 

There doesn't have to be any pressure on shifting, you don’t have to do it at a specific moment. My routine takes either a moment, a day, or a week. I do specific things in preparation to shift, it isn’t a method, more so a ritual, something to help me align myself with where I want to be.   

I. Bask in who you want to be, spend mornings doing this practice, do it before a nap, before you go to bed, while you eat, etc. Settle in your mind, take this time to be in your desired selfs mind. Think about slow moments, your morning routine, the view outside your window, basking in the sun, anything of the sort; let yourself live in moments from your dr. I've noticed I shift more when I have practiced this throughout the day. 

II. Tell yourself that you are there, that you are indeed experiencing these things. Affirm how many times you feel, you are where you are. Don’t put any pressure on yourself to believe anything, just affirm. Sweep away intrusive thoughts, let them pass and focus on who and where you are. 

III. Each reality has its own soul, familiarize yourself with how your chosen reality feels. Whenever you want to go there invoke this feeling, remember the slow moments, relax and live in your dr. 

IV. I lie in bed and when I'm getting sleepy I visualize myself where I want to be and I’m there, I focus on what I am doing at that moment in that reality. 

V. After I come back I take a couple days to step away from shifting, I don’t think about going anywhere else. I try to live in this reality and when I feel I want to leave again, I begin at step one. 

What is shifting?

My personal belief is that there's an infinite amount of consciousnesses, and that anyone can move their awareness to any one of those consciousnesses. 

Shifting isn’t about methods, your senses, or any other tools, it’s about being aware of your dr. This part is often lost in the sea of self doubt. To combat this doubt we use these tools to distract ourselves from this reality. But mostly, we forget that the end goal is to end up in the consciousness of your choice because we tend to focus on the process more than the actual destination. Shifting isn’t about the process. 

You are wherever you want to be, It doesn't matter if you can see this reality. Your subconscious does not have eyes, that's why it takes everything at face value. You have grown up in a reality where certain things are normal - this is because that subconscious has picked up on how others view the world. And once you become a certain age, you start having thoughts of your own. Then, you start to engage with your own thoughts, most of the time this is done in an unhealthy way.

Your awareness of reality is formed from what you believe. Think about it like this, in one reality I grew up around people who valued women, held everything about them to a high regard. When I was a child here, I began learning how to walk, ride a bike, do basic math, and through all of these moments that society's view on women slipped through conversations, art, music, books, and many more. It shaped how I viewed myself and other girls. - Now think back to this reality, through-out time women have been subjugated to form themselves into what others want them to be. When those women learned how to talk, write, read, they began taking information from what others had been saying. That absorption from the outside world, of how other people viewed reality shaped their subconscious. The ability to shift is the ability to rewire your beliefs into what you want.

I'm working on a guide, well more of a common place book of all my knowldege of shifting. I hope It well help someone, I hope to get it done around march. I don't know if a lot of people will see this but if you have any questions about shifting, please send them my way and I will answer them.

collection of recent shifts

2/18/25 

Woke up at 4;30 am, listened to music for a while and the first shift was to my seven saint war dr (personal dr). I was holding a scroll while walking next to my desk in my chambers, it seemed I was trying to find something. I heard the sound of the paper and it made me jump and I came back here. the second I think was to my soul eater dr, I was holding my switch and feeling the buttons on it, it was fading out of my awareness. Last one, I was in my seven saint war dr again and there are these beds that rock back and forth (kind of like a cradle but for adults) and I remember it made me motion sick for some reason, we were in the library and there were people searching for us, the message was carried through the books - it was so weird it was like they were yelling it throughout the shelves - very surreal. Here I have powers gifted from the wind god, and I used them to teleport us to the mountains. I am never using them without  preparation first because they are not fun at all and it was the most nauseating experience of my life. 

2/10/25

I was in a river or a body of water and there were these two giant metal plates and I was trying to move one and it fell against the other one and made a loud noise. It was so pretty, the water looked delectable and the kingdom across the water was so pretty. 

1/24/25 

I was about to fall asleep then was slipping into a very weird political dream, snapped out of it and started to shift. I was rollerblading down the path to the beach in florida where I use to live while I was about to go onto the road a kia soul out of all cars pulls out so I keep to the side walk and I could see the ground very clearly while I was moving, came back here because I was going very fast and it kind of freaked me out. 

2/11/25 

This morning I wanted to go to a space reality. I was doing my usual routine and I shifted to a place where I was a child. I was with another kid. We were climbing up in a crashed spacecraft and I remember wearing a hat that I didn't think was mine. I came back here and then shifted to an alternate reality to the one I was in. I was in my room playing with wooden toys, but someone was coming(?) I remember I was on kelkeo. 

12/26/24 

Idk what my obsession with paper is recently but I shifted last night and was flipping through a book while my husband was standing next to me and I asked him if he taped the important part of it down and then I came back here because I was worried about me falling asleep ( i've been struggling with sleeping lately idk why but anyway I finally fell asleep at sorta normal time) Then, I wanted to go somewhere just now so I played the same music I shifted to last night and went to the same reality and I was laying on my bed trying to sleep and I could hear my husband rifling through my papers and scrolls I like to collect and for some reason my mind got really confused and came back here. 

2/15/25 

I was in bed about to sleep and was just thinking about my s/o and snuggling with them and I love the symptoms I get because my whole body gets tingly and then I’m there. I went there when we were in the middle of kissing, I came back here because I heard a lady’s voice behind me which confused me because we were alone in bed. 

1/16/25 

Early this morning, I was on a bike riding down a hill, I have no idea where I was, the feeling of me peddling down this street was like no other. I didn’t want to be there so I came back here.

Some time later, I was sitting in what I think was either Ryu Voin or an Ostova palace. There were beautiful paintings on the wall in front of me, murals. I was sitting on a chair, I remember feeling content. 

Aphrodite, as well as deciding when and where

I just want to say, this is more for me than it is anyone - take what you want and leave what you don't want. I'm not here to narrate your life. I just like talking into the void of the internet.

There was a different form of consciousness I went to when I was a child. I was young when this happened, I barely remember what was going on. I was at this sand temple, there were others for brief moments. It was a beautiful and sentimental place. I really only remember the emotion tied to it. Confusion, despair, survival but not at the deepest level. Maybe it was a shift, maybe it wasn't. I was too young to figure it out. I still wonder what significance it has, why was I there, what part of my mind wanted me to go. Maybe it was a past life. I’ve lived a lot of lives and I think I’m ready to permashift. Of course in the future I will decide where - right now I still want a little more time. I already said I would permashift and I did leave for a while but eventually came back. I'm not very good at expressing what I have lived and when I do I end up hating the way I phrased it,, But now I have an idea on how I want to do it for the future.

It feels as if i'm at a crossroad, many paths and outcomes will always be there for me.

A couple years ago around Christmas I bought an alice and wonderland tarot deck. Even though this was a long time ago I’m still getting the hang of reading cards, but I have learned a lot since using them. I’ve always loved Alice, around that time I had set out to watch every variation of the story. I watched the Czech one; Alice 1988. I don’t think I finished it but I got a good way through and the film amazed me with how surreal it was. I’m pretty sure everyone can see that, that story and shifting are related in a way. This was also the time where I had really gotten into Greek mythology and Hellenic views. I’m not a master in it and prefer to follow the gods of my Lumari dr - but this was before I shifted there. Now, I work with Aphrodite as well as my own gods. One Friday I sat down and did a reading with her. I wanted to make a waiting room. I don’t remember exactly what I had asked her but her answer was clear. Shifting does not require a waiting period, it doesn't need a bridge or a state of if. Just do it as soon as you'd like, go where you want as soon as the thought pops into your head. There is no need to flesh the idea out completely. A few words and visual ideas is all I really need; If I find myself scripting too much it's like the reality becomes something entirely different from what I wanted. Even though I have found that this works for me I still fail to give into the urge to shift as soon as the motivation clings to me. I’m a major procrastinator, it’s a flaw I’m working on. I have success with shifting to random realities, ones that I think of in a quick moment, and then decide I want to be there. I hate being picky, I’m conflicted with uncertain people. Just go, your subconscious is not actively out to get you. It’s not something to be scared of. That’s how I came to the way I view shifting now, also I think tarot is a way to bring out your subconscious beliefs. 

shifting storytime l X-files dr

another theme hope my future self likes this one sigh.. The words come easier to me when it's more recent shifts and I remember more so I’ll be writing about this one first. 

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I love this dr dearly like most of my homes but there's something about this one that just makes me feel something else. Growing up watching the show made me feel comfort like nothing else. I was laying down on the couch, staring at the ceiling zoning out. I hadn't slept for a while, I had stayed up all night, I want to say it was due to sleeping issues but that would be a lie; I was watching youtube videos all night. And it was too early in the morning for me to fall asleep so I just stayed up for as long as I could. I had the thought about shifting here in my mind for a while so while I was zoning out I had begun to leave this reality. It was like my emotions were there and my senses were here for a while until I was fully there. I was then on my bed laying down, I have a very small but beautiful apartment. I couldn't see him but my s.o was cooking dinner and I remember hearing the sound of the food frying on the pan. I just stayed there for a bit, content that I wasn't moving. For some reason when I shift recently I end up going somewhere in a drastically different movement, I'll be laying down and then moving down a hill very fast. Anyway, I saw the view from my windows, the sun had just set, the summer breeze was drifting in. I felt at peace. At the moment I wasn't working, I scripted that I had previously modeled and then worked for NASA corps. It was pretty mundane at first, I had gotten up hugged my husband, ate, took a shower, and then wrote in my journal. My first few weeks looked like this along with chores, shopping and lots of napping.

My old coworkers' husband worked for the FBI and had offered me a job. I sat and thought about it, at the time I didn't remember this reality so I didn't know what the x-files was or really what I was setting myself up for. He reached out to me again and said he suggested they should meet me. I found it rude that he did that without my word but I would need to find a job soon, nasa's astronaut training was way too tiring to go back, and what else did I have to lose. - I hadn’t scripted any of this, I didn't know how I was going to land being there. I just let my subconscious do the work. I thought this was funny when I came back, so i'm putting it here. -

My husband is an architect working from home. He had finished his day up early that morning we had decided to go swimming. The drive was slow, quiet. The curve of the road was lethargic. This day was one of my favorites here, perfect weather, calm water. It was a good rest before I needed work. 

By late July it was apparent that the rest of my time would be filled with late night car rides, door to door interviews, sunflower seeds, sealed conversations in cheap hotels, blisters from heels and most importantly the most mind-numbing rants from mulder. Haha yeah skinner I'm not gonna make it into work today, I just saw an anomaly....???!!... The first moments of being here felt safe and warm but as I threw myself into my work it melted away into a dark surrealist tone. The dreamlike feeling of the cases, almost ominous, made me feel on edge. Although I fit flawlessly, it felt like I was third wheeling most of the time, a child sitting in the backseat while her parents were bickering. Of course I'm exaggerating but it was a normal occurrence for me to turn up the radio to tune them out. 

Thats all I feel like writing for now I need to study..

The answer is within yourself.

I've seen that a lot of people are asking others what they should do on their shifting journey and I find myself conflicted with it. Of course there is nothing wrong with asking for help, but at a point in the endless road of questions the only answer you will find is your own. 

How do you think we have all gotten this far? People who used this practice long before us didn’t have any sources or online forums to help them. There has been an infinite number of people who have been able to reach endless life, and yet you think you can’t? You should start thinking for yourself, sit with your thoughts, and be alone. What does shifting mean to you? Dissect it. Forget the terms you learned on your way here and indulge in yourself instead of others. People today seem to need constant gratification. As much knowledge as you have at your own fingertips it weakens your ability to think for yourself. To me, part of the idea of shifting is being with yourself, being with your thoughts, creating new ideas on what reality is or how it works. You don’t need to be right nor do you need one single answer. All you need is what is important and dear to you. 

We are always evolving, without this trait we would be doomed to repeat. We would not be able to evolve without our mind. When we have lost connection to our knowledge we have lost connection to ourselves. Shifting is what you want it to be.