the concept of one of my characters being this super smart intuitive guy who can read a room/person with the snap of a finger, but couldn’t figure out the love of his life was keeping a scandalous secret from him is soooo😭
me being so excited to *finally* be over this guy i’ve had feelings for for years only to develop a new crush within the next two business days is unfortunately so on brand for me😁…🫠 (my daddy issues are showing)
happy valentine’s day!!!!!!!!!!!!????<3
being a romance writer has truly warped my perception of love and romance irl in a sense that i have *such* high standards and expectations of what i want in a relationship.
i want a love that sweeps me off my feet and nothing less! it’s too bad basic romance feels like some unattainable holy grail these days🫠
where are the men who yearn and court??? where are they????????!!!!!!!!!
it’s the anniversary of two of my characters today yall🥹 february 7th❤️🧁💜🌙
(yes i’m acknowledging and wishing them a happy anniversary, no that doesn’t make me clinically insane)
happy anniversary logan and rachel, mama (me) loves you and your beautiful love story❤️❤️❤️ u definitely have not been one of my fav couples to write bc that would be so rude of me to admit!!!
very hard to convince myself i still love writing when i’m fighting the urge to throw myself off a mountain while i edit my work🫠
kind of alarming how all the thriller/horror story ideas i’ve gotten have come from dreams/nightmares i’ve had😁 it pays to have a twisted, fucked up mind.
i’ve never written a thriller/horror story so i’m very excited to further explore the genre one day. i totally haven’t already written a few test pieces/scenes.
god, if you all could take a peek into my writing ideas folder😭 pure chaos. idk how to simply focus on one thing at a time. i’m like an overzealous dog with the writing zoomies.
not to be deep, but i can’t help but feel like i’ve somehow found my way back home when it comes to writing. i loved it when i was a kid, and i’ve fallen in love with it all over again as a young adult.
there are *so* many things that have happened in my life that make me look back and wonder if those things were meant to lead me right back here. to writing.
like for example, when i was a freshman in high school, this guy told me i looked like my name would be: Sabrina. he would literally call me by that name even though it wasn’t my name😭
fast forward years later to me naming my book characters, specifically my main character who is somewhat based on me, so i’m essentially naming myself in a weird way.
i was thinking and thinking and thinking, and then i remembered that guy from high school who’d call me Sabrina. and voila, i had her name. and it fits her so well too!
idk maybe i’m crazy haha but it really is things like that that make me wonder if maybe i am where i’m meant to be after all, no matter how much i feel otherwise sometimes.
shoutout to brandon from high school for my mc name!!!
i’m surprised by how much i *love* writing in third person considering how much i used to dislike reading in third person.
finding my love for writing again has made me appreciate third person writing so much more!!!
third person chapters have become like an exclusive, special pov in my series since 90% of the chapters i write are in the first person pov.
what can i say, i love playing with/switching up pov’s mid story😄 whether it’s including multiple character pov’s in one book or surprising the readers by randomly jumping into a third person pov.
like you know it’s serious if you stumble across a third person pov in one of my books😭 shit is about to go down fr
literally me 75% of the time i write
is this a safe space? i hate writing sex scenes.
that’s like the one thing i try my hardest to include very little of. but it’s hard bc i know some people enjoy reading those scenes when it comes to romance stories specifically, (which is completely fine! no judgement whatsoever!) i just hate writing them😭
i much prefer alluding to it or transitioning into a scene break/cut. but like i said, i know some readers enjoy reading those moments so i force myself to include some crumbs of it. which is fine, i guess. i’ll survive how awkward i feel, no big deal
is it bad that one of my favorite characters i’ve written so far just so happens to be one of the most “villainous”?
i use quotations because she’s not necessarily a bad person, she’s just made a lot of awful choices that have led to awful circumstances for her and those around her.
she’s also someone who’s been through a lot. she has a good heart through and through, but i can definitely see some readers disliking her, which is fine!
it’s exactly what i want, actually. i want her to be a character people have mixed feelings about. i want her to be a character you either hate to love, love to hate, or somewhere in between.
funniest part is she was only supposed to be a side character aka the mother of one of my character’s😭
now she’s become my little phoenix rising from the ashes as the catalyst for the biggest scandal in my book series.
the main character before my current main character was the main character. she paved the way fr i cannot wait to write her prologue book one day!
i’ve been rotting in bed with a fever for four days now which means it’s been four days since i’ve felt the cold, smooth touch of my keyboard and mouse💔
on one end, i’ve been meaning to let what i last wrote marinate for a bit, but on the other miserable end, i miss entering the makeshift portal i’ve created into my characters’ world (‘:
i have had plenty of time to conjure up a million potential storyline ideas that might not ever even come to fruition anyway, so there’s that!
me 🤝 my notes app
yk what’s crazy is before i found my love for writing again, i used to read books (romance books specifically) and think to myself:
“wow, authors/writers are some of the most creative people out there. to create an entire ensemble of characters and give them such distinct personalities/backgrounds/upbringings, and to create an entire world of storylines for them is truly something magical.”
i used to wish i could do that. i never thought myself capable of such creativity. i used to wish i could be capable of creating an ensemble of characters i could write and have fun with. a fictional world i could create and find some escape in, and now i do.
i love the little world of characters i’ve created so much. can confirm: it is truly magical✨
oh and happy late new year💛☺️☀️
thinking about the time when i re-read the first draft of the first piece of work i’d ever written for my characters (there are eight total main characters) and i completely forgot to include one of them in the first half of the story.
and just like that, his archetype was discovered.
he’s the person who’s often overlooked, leading him to feel a bit lonely and unimportant at times. the “forgotten friend” if you will.
and it’s so true because i really did forget he existed when i first created my characters omg😭 i swear i love him it was just an accident
anyone else have to remind themselves from time to time that they’re in charge of their characters and the plot line? meaning you can quite literally make them do *whatever* you want?
idk why i tend to forget that sometimes. i’ll often find myself pondering certain ideas i get and think to myself “hm, no. i couldn’t possibly do that.”
when i quite literally can???
like i just had the craziest storyline idea for three of my characters and thought to myself “no, i can’t do that. that’s too big of a game changer.”
the thing is, i could do it. and i probably will😭 god this is too much fun. i feel like a mad scientist who’s been given too much power
just accidentally stumbled upon so many prologue story ideas for the parents of my characters in the current book series i’m writing.
and it ties in so well UGH i’m gonna have a writing orga*m!!!!!
as discouraging as it can be writing to an audience of zero, i’m so locked in atp, idec anymore😭 delusion is my feul
i LOVE my characters and the little universe i created in my head sm, each of their books WILL be written and finished even if i’m the only one who knows of their existence!
i feel like i not only owe it to myself to see it through, but to my characters and their stories. they’re like my children, i can’t just abandon them because no one else is seeing their potential like i do?????
what kind of mother would that make me
“She’s looking around the blanket in disbelief, and I’m a little in disbelief myself for a second.
Mother nature seems to love her just as much as I do because the sky is now the prettiest shade of pink and orange, like she’s the sun the sky is choosing to set behind.”
grumpy x sunshine, i hate everyone but you, four core female group, brother’s best friend, troubled girl x sunshine boy, secret relationships, poor girl x wealthy boy, small town romance, found family, childhood best friends to lovers, it’ll always be/it’ll never be you, dual/multiple pov, sapphic romance, slow burn romance, forbidden romance, one bed trope, fake dating… and more.
“She stands out in a way no rambunctious crowd or stuffy room could hold back.
She is the room.
She’s the diamond chandelier people awe at.”
“I’ve never felt so safe with someone the way I do with Sam. When I’m in his arms, I feel like there’s nothing in this world that can hurt me.
Because he would never let anything in this world hurt me.
Because this is exactly where I’m supposed to be.
Because when I’m in his arms, I feel like I’m home.”
grumpy x sunshine.
i hate everyone but you.
four core female group.
brother’s best friend.
secret relationships.
small town romance.
found family.
childhood best friends to lovers.
it’ll always be/it’ll never be you.
sapphic romance.
slow burn romance.
forbidden romance.
one bed trope.
fake dating.
dual/multiple pov’s.
and more.
eight childhood best friends. seven love stories. lots of drama.