A quick sketch of one of my OCs as a kid, chasing butterflies around. She's ready to bring chaos into his world
All the wrong words rhyme
This poetry thing is getting old
And it’s hard to break patterns
It’s hard to be constantly doing something that terrifies you
So here is a messy clump of words with no organization
Here’s me, and I'm not sure who I am without poetry
It might be starting to fade because I've worn it out
But I don’t want to stop
At least not yet
Poetry is the only way I am allowed to rebel
That is without suffering the consequences
Writing is my way of running and fighting
Running and fighting is all I know
Running and fighting is all human nature knows
A lack of life and sleep makes me want to quit,
Running and fighting
Should I try to make the right words rhyme,
Even if it makes me more tired?
I guess that’s what I’ll do,
To make it feel like I’m getting somewhere,
With my endless, restless, wandering…
Wandering…
Wandering…
Wandering
Mental illness wrecks you. You feel like a shell of yourself, constantly in a daze. It’s terrifying when you think about it. In an effort to find myself again (er, maybe to create myself for the first time), I’m compiling a list of things I love, things that make me feel like me, things I know are no good for my mental health, and things that make me feel fake. This is an ever-evolving list, so stay tuned.
| Things I love |
1. Running—not fast, just simply putting one foot in front of the other. Occasional weightlifting.
2. Weddings. Check out my Pinterest board.
3. Planning, being organized, sticking to a schedule.
4. Traveling. Road trips, backpacking, hiking, camping. Taking flights, dressing the part, finding the perfect outfit to roam around a city in, gathering inspiration from people-watching, creating new goals based on lifestyles I see.
5. Hawaii. Literally everything about it. The relaxed vibes, the *mostly* constant sunshine, the waves, the vivid hues of the water. The food, the coffee, the adventure, the lifestyle. Oh, and it helps that there is a military base for every branch on Oahu ;).
6. Learning and problem solving. Reading nonfiction books about topics and people. Using the NT part of my personality (ENTJ). The feeling of accomplishment when I solve something challenging.
7. Nutrition. The science, the creativity, the recipes.
8. Eating clean. Little sugar, lots of fruit and nuts, whole grains.
9. Fandoms. Star Wars, Doctor Who, Harry Potter, etc.
10. Outer space. Complex theories. Technology. Fierce debates.
11. Concerts. Symposiums. Expos.
12. Shopping. Finding steals. Buying myself and others little treats just because.
13. Exploring cities—the neighborhoods, the shops, the bakeries/restaurants.
14. Daydreaming. Writing down ideas for businesses, inventions, my personal life, etc.
| Things that make me hollow |
1. Partying. I do enjoy hanging out with friends and playing competitive games, but drinking makes me sick. Being out till 2 am makes me sick. Pretending to be someone I’m not in order to fit in makes me sick.
2. Going to the gym every single day of the week and feeling worthless and disgusting if I don’t.
3. Hiding my more feminine side to blend in with the guys in my major/field of work.
4. Hiding my more daring, badass side to blend in with the girls in my sorority.
5. Not having a routine sleep schedule.
6. Excessive scrolling on Instagram. Comparing myself to other girls. Not embracing myself.
7. Putting far too much face value on how I look, the stretch marks I have, the shade of my skin, my frizzy hair, my red blotches or blemishes on my face, the fact that my thighs touch, the fact that I’m naturally curvier than most girls.
8. Being excessively spontaneous and never having a plan.
9. Drinking too much coffee. Like 3+ cups per day.
10. Hanging out with people I don’t enjoy just so I won’t be alone.
11. Being a “yes” girl. I cannot emphasize this enough. Say no. Take care of yourself. You don’t have to be in charge of everything or even part of everything. Do. Not. Spread. Yourself. Too. Thin.
12. Being lazy. Not kickstarting my day early.
Favorite place to run to... looks especially pretty when the wind makes the grass dance.
#adventureofpepe #페페의모험 #cat #dog #running #walk #illustration #drawing #watercolor #일러스트
An illustration for a Buzzfeed article about the link between exercise and mental health, and how one woman’s injury left her stuck in a rut
Illustration idea for an editorial piece about the Tokyo marathon.
London Series: running & chilling by the canal in Hackney Wick!
my stills.. like/repost if saved
my stills.. like/repost if saved
And this is my reward meal... Really needed this! Incredible experience at #conquercastlewood this morning; My partner Coach Ciaravino smoked it. My first time trying something like this, and I'm hooked. Time 1hr 23 mins and some seconds. #pumped for #2015 already. #canoeing #mountainbiking #running #castlewoodadventurerace
NATG XIII - Day 27 Prompt: Draw a pony finding their second wind / Draw a pony racing to the finish. Pipp and Zipp are the only G5 mane characters who I haven't drawn for this, so here they are! I also threw in Sparky since he's technically a mane character(?). (Zipp's proportions are a bit off, and I had some trouble with her wings. Also, I didn't feel like drawing what was on Pipp's phone, but she's definitely recording this.)