Sad - Blog Posts
If every word I said could bring you back,
and allow me to hear your voice once more
I’d talk endlessly
about everything under the sun.
- about the loss of a loved one
I loved you, I always will,
and that’s the problem
because the sad reality is
that I’ll love you way more
than I will ever love myself..
MSI
<If Only>
I remember those five songs I shared with you,
the ones that showed how broken I was and
as we sat on your car staring at the navy blue sky,
the color it usually was at 3am,
I knew you understood
and I don’t think anyone ever will again...
MSI
<My Favorite Playlist is Filled With The Songs You Shared>
And with every word you spoke
you made me feel as though
I was the best thing to ever happen to you
yet I still laid here at night
wondering when you’d leave
because all good things leave
and you were one amazing thing
I knew I couldn’t bare to lose...
MSI
<Bittersweet Nothings>
Talked to a friend with major depression and anxiety who is currently in treatment about what we consider as normal thoughts and apparently most healthy people don’t think they are a total failure? They don’t panic when talking to their classmates?
Sounds made up, but okay 🤷🏻♀️
"I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have."
Stephen Chbosky, The perks of being a wallflower
"Cherie, keep walking. Shut your eyes. We are headed for the bridge. We are going to cross it."
-Joyce Carol Oates, After the Wreck, I Picked Myself Up, Spread My Wings, and Flew Away
My…save file for wren’s business/apartment didnt save and now I gotta build everything again from scratch. Honestly, at this point I’m just gonna start over with wren again.
I can now see my messages and discovering they were all a bunch of spam kinda made me sad… (even though I’m still debating on the last one)
Anyone else ever hear a song on the radio that you used to listen to over and over because you felt so emotionally connected to it, and it got you through a hard time, and now when you hear it you can't connect to it? Does it both sadden you because you feel like you lost a piece of your life but at the same time makes you happy because you're in a better place now?
Mass is not proportional to volume, A girl as small as a violet, A girl who moves like a flower petal is pulling me towards her with a stronger force than her mass. Just then, like Newton’s apple, I rolled towards her till I fell on her with a thump, my heart was bouncing between the ground and the sky, It was my first love.
Kim Shin (Guardian: The Lonely and Great God)
None of my close friends is in my free periods or form gonna cry
Edit: First day back to school wasn't that bad, turns out I do have one of my friends in form (we are more classmates), so it went alright.
The only problem is that like 3 year groups are sharing one lunch and it's only 40 mins, the place where I eat is now overcrowded. Which is really annoying.
Bro the same friend who was using pinkie as her pfp, is now using my melody even she hates her character.
I don't know why she keeps using my favorite characters as pfp. I honestly wouldn't mind if someone else uses them but she legit hates these characters. And keeps using them for its aesthetics.
Also she tried arguing with me that Spencer Reid(criminal Minds) has more trauma than Atsushi Nakajima(bsd) .
Really annoyed me bc Atsushi is literally my favorite character so far and she only cares about Spencer bc he's hot.
Oh yeah and all my friends (we have a gc) think I am exaggerating and yes I am. But I literally get in the worst moods before checking phone so this crisis worsens my mood.
I am legit being petty.
Writing Angst GhostRoach in class is so much fun, I'm not even done and I can feel the tears getting ready to fall cause I have it written out in my head and I just need to put it on paper (well computer).
Dr. Phosphorus is almost contradictory to himself in a way I find notable.
Assuring Nina with, “I know you can do this, kid.” A term of endearment slipping in, fitting an interaction between a once-father and a young woman who’s spent the overwhelming majority of her adult life locked away and isolated in prison.
Perhaps too endearing, as he quickly undercuts it with “Did it sound like I gave a shit?”
When Weasel jeopardizes the mission, he grabs him in anger, yelling, “You stupid rat!”
But he doesn’t actually try to hurt Weasel. He only got burned once he sunk his teeth too deep into Phosphorus.
Then there’s this scene, where this obviously just him joking around, right? Just him being his sardonic self.
But then later, he seems genuinely offended that Flag is angry with him. That Flag should have taken his actions as a favor between ‘friends’. As if he’s actually a little desperate to be liked by the man he was fighting with not that long ago.
(I mean, as a smaller example, his interactions with Nosferata jump from him insulting her to playing freaking ping pong with her)
Then there’s his recurring dynamic with Bride. Despite the ‘I’m a killer who doesn’t care about anything’ idea of himself he pushes, Phosphorus continuously tries to interact with her. Making remarks for her to find amusing, remaking on their bleak situation for her to join in on. It’s like he saw the first person in so long to really acknowledge him in anything close to a meaningful way (“Are you smiling?” “Yes!” “Sarcastically?” “Mm-hm.”) and decided he wasn’t going to let that high just go away.
Even after the mission failed, he tries to push himself as the annoyed, angered man. Angered at Weasel, angered at Nina’s death, angered at their efforts all being for nothing.
But then he’s the only person to comfort Bride in her mourning.
I think these conflicting traits, the outward expression versus the sincerity that slips through, are most well shown during Wonderlust King. Still in the wake of his family’s death (not that it ever ended for him), during his era as a crime boss, he tries to satiate the sadness in himself.
He dances in the Ice Lounge, a display of his power and his wealth for all its attendees to bear.
But then misses dancing with his wife at their wedding, a display of their love for all gathered to behold.
He tries to gain satisfaction through inflicting violence onto others.
But then only misses the love he shared with Parvin.
He tries to fill the hole in his heart with riches.
But it’s meaningless in comparison.
Dr. Phosphorus thought Alex Sartorius died the night he was born, I feel, but despite his own best wishes, he’s still there, the loving man who only wanted to help people he once was.
series of trisha paytas quotes that vividly reflect my current emotional state
I want to make my webseries.
I want to make a webseries but I don't have the resources to make it. (；′⌒`)
Poor Rayman. 😢
My baby... 😿🥀💔 He didn't deserve to die that way. 😟
Oh no. Poor Rayman. :(
My baby... 😿💔🥀
Goretober 2024
Day 20: Impaled
⚠️TW: blood
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"I...bet on losing dogs. I know they're losing and I pay for my place. By the ring. Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down. I'll be there on their side. I'm losing by their side."