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4 years ago

Imagine|||Obey Me

MC comes home to the devildom from the war

Gender Neutral Character

Trigger warnings: Mentions of war, death, injuries swearing.

This is in no way trying to romanticize war and/or war injuries. There might be a part 3 where MC is getting used to being around the demons again and the same applies to that part.

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An honorable discharge.

That’s what Barbatos was told when Simeon revealed that he would be bringing you home. But seeing as he made him promise to not tell the brothers, Barbatos knew something was wrong. He relayed the message to Diavolo, who beamed at the fact that one of his favorite humans was returning.

When Solomon and Simeon came in later that week with you supported by your remaining wrath big D, Diavolo almost cried at the state you were in. You now sported a prosthetic right arm and leg and had noticeably shorter hair. Your clothes hung off your frame, and your eyes seemed empty of life.

The big D of wrath looked a little better, with only a few circular scars, and Diavolo feared to know what had happened to the other wrath and pride demons. Never less, he bowed low to the two of you in respect for what you had done, before approaching you to hug you. His heart broke when you flinched, and he quickly turned it into a handshake to save your pride.

The wrath demon excused himself to find the families of the two demons that had died and gave you a quick side hug before passing you to Solomon and letting the sorcerer support your shaky legs.

They took you back to purgatory hall that night after catching up for a while, and you slept beside Solomon, who stayed away for the most part to help you through a nightmare.

When Luke saw you the next morning, he cried. He had been so worried, as Simeon hadn’t wanted him to see you while you were out, so you held him close to you on the couch while he asked a few questions. You tried not to flinch away when Simeon showed up with tea and cookies, and no one questioned you when your hands shook.

Luke was especially scared of hurting the area where your prosthetics were attached, but you assured him it was only bad when you got too cold or it they were attached improperly. You didn’t tell him how you lost your limbs, but later on that day allowed Simeon to explain to him what had happened.

A grenade had been thrown, and you had jumped in front of one of a medic who was tending to one of your fellow soldiers. The big D of pride was the one who carried you away, and bought you back to the base to get your wounds treated while the remaining wrath demon finished off all the enemy soldiers in a mile radius due to his rage. The medic and soldier you had saved swore secrecy to what they had witnessed. Promising to tell no one of the two creatures that crawled out of the shadows in your defense.

When a week later you were finally able to walk with little help from the angels or Solomon, you decided to get your stuff from your room in the House of Lamentation to bring to Purgatory hall. Solomon and Simeon helped you walk over, as they knew when the boys saw you there’d be chaos.

Somehow, you didn’t pass anyone until you got to the stairs, so Solomon went ahead with Luke to start gathering your stuff to make it easier for you. Simeon stayed by your side as you struggled up the first few steps, the prosthetic leg slightly uncomfortable against your skin as you lifted it to step up.

“Y/n?” The voice was quiet, but both you and Simeon heard it without a problem.

It was Mammon.

The avatar of Greed stared at the two of you, eyes wide and breathing shaky as he took a step forwards, and you offered a small smile.

“Hey you.”

Simeon had to grab a hold of your shoulders to prevent you from falling backwards at the force Mammon hit you, and you felt damp droplets hit your short hair as tears fell from the demons face.

Other then Solomon, this was the first hug you had received from anyone since getting home, and somehow, although you were happy to finally see one of the brothers after so long, you were uncomfortable at the act. Upon realizing how tense you were, Simeon had to forcefully extract you from the demon’s grasp, which made Mammon growl lowly.

But when the white-haired male saw the discomfort on your face, he froze. And then he looked at the rest of you. His eyes lingered on your arm and leg, and he finally seemed to realize how short your hair was as he took a step back.

“What happened to ya over there Y/n?”

By the time you had relaxed and managed to mumble out a coherent sentence, pounding footsteps echoed from the direction of the kitchen, and a rush of ginger barreled towards you.

Simeon actually had to whip out his wings and shield you from Beelzebub’s hug, which was not taken well by the avatar of gluttony. Belphegor was close behind his twin, and the commotion must have reached the other brothers because you could hear faint footsteps from other areas in the house.

Satan seemed the least surprised by your arrival, and he helped to hold back his brothers until you could reach the top of the stairs with Simeon’s help. Later he would tell you that the big D of wrath that had survived came to tell him that you were back, and that he decided to wait until you were ready to see them. He understood war, and how it could change people.

Asmodeus was crying as he babbled out welcome home and thanked you for coming back to them, and Leviathan was trying to hide his own tears of joy that you were alright.

When Lucifer finally arrived last, his gaze landed first on your face, then he scanned for injuries. He was annoyed that Simeon’s wings were still covering most of you but accepted your silence and the nervousness in your eyes as a warning to hold back for now.

When Simeon pulled back his wings to help you up the rest of the stairs, the brothers -other than Mammon- fell silent. Their eyes lingered on your new limbs, and they seemed almost afraid to say anything about them.

By the time you had returned with the two angels and Solomon in tow, they had composed themselves. Satan or Lucifer must have warned them to hold their tongues about anything that had happened while you were gone.

“How long have you been back?” Beelzebub was the first to speak, asking the question that everyone wanted to know, and you avoided their eyes as you reached the flat floor.

“A week and a half.” Your voice would not have been heard by them if they didn’t have such good hearing. You could clearly see the anger, the hurt as they realized you had been back this long and didn’t contact them at all. “I needed time.”

“They don’t have to explain themselves. We’re heading back to Purgatory hall until they’re comfortable with being around so many people again.” Solomon wrapped an arm around your shoulders as he stepped closer to you and took their eyes off of you. With his statement, you could see the crestfallen eyes of the demon brothers you had grown to love, and you shuffled on your feet in discomfort.

The angels and human walked you past the brothers, who parted silently to let you pass.

“May I bring you a few books that I had saved for your return?” Satan’s words almost made a tear slip out.

He had still been collecting books he thought you might like while you were gone.

“That would be appreciated.”

And then you were out the door.


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4 years ago

Imagine|||Obey Me

If MC was called to serve in a human war while staying in the devildom.

Gender neutral character.

Trigger warnings: Mentions of war, death, swearing.

This is in no way trying to romanticize war and/or war injuries. There will be a part two where MC returns home to the devildom and the same applies to that part.

I have been imagining scenarios like this for weeks leading up to now because or Remembrance Day, so I figured I might as well write it.

(Imagine below the cut)

The letter given to you by Barbatos made you flinch. You had never seen one in person, and the demon’s concerned face didn’t help. When he asks what it’s about, you don’t answer, only staring down at the unopened letter in fear.

You stayed at Purgatory hall that night, the brothers just assuming that you were studying with Solomon, when in reality, you needed some form of human comfort. Solomon was supportive, knowing that you wouldn’t dare refuse to go, and helped you tell the angels.

Luke was aghast. He hated the idea of you possibly dying in some stupid war and protested when you said you would be leaving tomorrow. Simeon was more mature about the subject, offering to watch over you and answer your prayers for him when you needed it.

With Solomon and the angels’ support, you told Diavolo and Barbatos the next morning. Diavolo immediately offered to make an excuse for you not to go, but your pride kept you from accepting his offer. Barbatos promised to watch your futures and steer you away from bad endings. You all decided not to tell the brothers until after you had left, knowing that they wouldn’t be as calm with the decision, and Barbatos helped you pack.

An hour before you left, you were helping Diavolo pick a new student from the human world, and you settled on a familiar face. Your old bully from high school. You knew that although she was cruel, she would complete the semester flawlessly, so despite the surprised glance from the demons, you picked her.

Solomon was called to hide your pact marks from humans and demons alike, and you felt a wave of loneliness as you felt the sense of security from the marks fade away. This way, your demons wouldn’t know where you were, or if you got hurt.

You made three new pacts with big Ds, two of wrath, and one pride. With everything finished, and the portal created, you hugged the angels goodbye, gave Solomon a kiss on the cheek for his help, and bowed to both Diavolo and Barbatos.

The prince broke the rules for the first time in a long time, and bowed back, before engulfing you in a warm hug with a few whispered words of luck.

After being given a few charms and a healing potion by Solomon, you and your three new pacted demons headed through the portal.

 When the bothers found out, they were furious. Mammon and Levi took it the hardest, while Satan was terrified for what could happen to you. Lucifer spent days locked in his room, pouring over his work, and not bothering to get mad at Mammon when he messed something up. Beelzebub was a mess. Some days he would go without eating entirely, and others he would consume more than usual. Belphegor started having trouble sleeping when the reality of the situation sunk in.

When the new student arrived only a week later, they made little effort trying to be nice to her. Beel was tasked with being her first guardian, as Mammon was in no state to guard anyone, but even he struggled to get used to not having you by his side. When the new student complained about how they acted and brought up you, they had to hold back Mammon from flying into a rage at the way she spoke your name.

She was nothing like you. Her touch was nothing like yours and her words were empty of any affection whenever she spoke to them. Eventually, Barbatos had to intervene because he feared that the way they were acting would leave a bad impact on the new students’ written report at the end of the year.

Then the first letter came.

When Barbatos first saw the letter addressed to the boys, and realized who must have sent it, he couldn’t help but feel relieved. After telling Diavolo of the good news, he brought the letter to Lucifer, who read the letter to his brothers after dinner when the new student had left to go back to her room.

There were tears and shaky smiles as Lucifer read out loud, and the brothers started looking forwards to mail day. Some of them went so far as to mark off the days the letters would come on their calendars and they would visibly get more excited when the day rolled around.

Five months in, with ten letters having been sent, they were starting to get used to the new way of communication.

But then the letters stopped.

When they had Simeon check in on you, he assured them that you were alright, so they waited. And waited. And waited.

Three months went by without a single letter, and the boys were getting antsy. It didn’t help that Simeon and Solomon started disappearing for long periods of time at seemingly random hours, and the brothers could only assume something had happened.


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1 month ago

I still have our old chat... Our beginning...

A...

Are you okay?

I have so many things I want to tell you... I want to know what's been happening to you lately... I want to hear from you... To hear from you

You were a beautiful experience. One I'll never forget.

You will be the second man I cry for.

Whenever I can, I'll talk about you. I'll never forget you. I don't want to forget you.


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1 month ago

I miss you.

I miss you so much.

I miss talking to you, playing with you.

I never told you but I thought about you as a best friend. My male best friend. You thought you weren't anyone's best friend, but you were mine.

I miss talking to you every morning

I miss saying goodnight every night

I was the one who pushed you away. But that doesn't mean I don't miss you. Oh how I miss you.

Sometimes I wonder if my decision was the right one?

I hope wherever you are, you are well. Healthy. Happy.

I hope and you live.

LIVE A LONG LIFE. FULL OF LOVE AND HAPPINESS


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1 year ago

Right now there was a mock exam to see if it would let us access the website, etc.

It didn't let me 😭 The good thing is that I wasn't the only one, other classmates couldn't either 😿


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1 year ago
How Was I When My Friend I Made On The Internet No Longer Answered My Messages 😿

How was I when my friend I made on the internet no longer answered my messages 😿


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1 year ago

Is it too much to ask for a fucking hug?


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11 months ago
🎶Our Little Army Boy

🎶Our little army boy

Is coming home from B.F.P.O.

I've a bunch of purple flowers

To decorate mammy's hero

Mourning in the aerodrome

The weather warmer, he is colder

Four men in uniform

To carry home my little soldier🎶

🎶Our Little Army Boy

🎶But he didn't have the money for a guitar

(What could he do?)

(Should have been a politician)

But he never had a proper education

(What could he do?)

(Should have been a father)

But he never even made it to his twenties

What a waste

Army dreamers

Oh, what a waste of

Army (army) dreamers (dreamers)🎶


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11 months ago
🎶Our Little Army Boy

🎶Our little army boy

Is coming home from B.F.P.O.

I've a bunch of purple flowers

To decorate mammy's hero

Mourning in the aerodrome

The weather warmer, he is colder

Four men in uniform

To carry home my little soldier🎶

🎶Our Little Army Boy

🎶But he didn't have the money for a guitar

(What could he do?)

(Should have been a politician)

But he never had a proper education

(What could he do?)

(Should have been a father)

But he never even made it to his twenties

What a waste

Army dreamers

Oh, what a waste of

Army (army) dreamers (dreamers)🎶


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3 years ago

Sorry

Sorry.

I don’t mean to bother you.

I really don't.

I don’t mean to take up this much space. 

I’m trying to be better. 

I swear. 

Sorry. 

You say I apologize too much. 

I wish I could apologize for that.

I just have become so close with guilt.

He sits on my shoulder every afternoon when I get home.

He whispers in my ear.

“You should be sorry”

He’s right, you know. 

Because Guilt sometimes lets me call him by another name. 

A nickname if you will. 

(we are that close)

He tells me to call him Truth. 

He’s right here if you want me to talk to him. 

Sorry.


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3 years ago

here and now

Here and now I stand still.

Wind bends around my cheeks.

The earth is still yet somehow I move at a million miles an hour.

(yet my feet never leave the place they are rooted )

Life is frozen in time, yet everyone I know is fifteen years into the future.

My life is groundhog’s day, except that i can't get out. 

Trust me, I've tried.

Air doesn't fill my lungs the same way anymore.

Have I overstayed my welcome?

Where do I belong?

Who do I have?

I have nobody.

I trust nobody, yet I love so many.

I think that there are people who say they love me out of pity.

I miss having someone I could call and spill my tainted blood to.

All the lies I've told.

All of the thoughts that have fought their way from the pits of my stomach to my lips.

Poisoned by my own voice

Betrayed by my own truth.

A cycle of apology and transgression.

Here and now, I come to a close.


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1 year ago
“It’s Not Forever, I’ll Be Back.”

“It’s not forever, I’ll be back.”

When I first watched this episode, I was praying that Echo would be safe. Seeing them hug in the end, definitely made me emotional.😭


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2 years ago
Yes Crosshair We Missed You! We Need You To Come Baaaack!

Yes Crosshair we missed you! We need you to come baaaack!

You’re making us TBB fans cry! 😭😭😭


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1 month ago

Fhck you bitch why are you a total coward

Fhck You Bitch Why Are You A Total Coward

I'll just draw more Gravity falls angst to spite your ass if that the case


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2 months ago
"Twin!Delusion AU" By Me And @ridokichan (from Our Previous Post)

"Twin!Delusion AU" by me and @ridokichan (from our previous post)

(their dynamic in nutshell, basically.)

"Twin!Delusion AU" By Me And @ridokichan (from Our Previous Post)
"Twin!Delusion AU" By Me And @ridokichan (from Our Previous Post)

"Twin!Delusion AU" By Me And @ridokichan (from Our Previous Post)
"Twin!Delusion AU" By Me And @ridokichan (from Our Previous Post)
"Twin!Delusion AU" By Me And @ridokichan (from Our Previous Post)

Besides them being "isolation-induced hallucinations" - This is also partially based on bereavement hallucinations disorder (it is not nessesary for a person to be "passed" to fall under such diagnosis. but considering how on other side of the portal Stan didn't even knew if his brother is alive in there - name still works.)

Realistically speaking - those kind of hallucinations are a response to an overwhelming emotions, a coping mechanism & form of isolation formed desperation.

Stan is so desperate to fix the portal, to get his brother back/fix this mistake that mind will willingly make it seem like everything is alright.

You supress your emotions because you got more important things to focus on? Oh trust me they will find the way out.

Now a question: then why are they in a form of children?

Childhood represents innocence, unconditional love, and a time when they were truly happy together. Subconscious will always choose this form because it literally offers protection, allowing to mentally escape into the past rather than face the unbearable present. After all, Stans character is about partially clinging to the past while Ford was one that wanted to move forward. (i am not talking about Ford holding grudges from the past like a dead dog he is, no)

Seeking comfort in purest and safest version of your brother, one that never looked at you wrong, one that never pulled the curtains on you when you asked for help....... Sounds right to me.

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5 months ago
"HEY BROTHER! IT'S SIXER! I'M GONNA TAKE THE SWIM IN FROZEN LAKE TOMORROW AND I MIGHT NEVER COME BACK,

"HEY BROTHER! IT'S SIXER! I'M GONNA TAKE THE SWIM IN FROZEN LAKE TOMORROW AND I MIGHT NEVER COME BACK, SO IF YOU DON'T HEAR FROM ME, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IT'S BECAUSE I NEVER LOVED YOU. BUH-BYEEEE!!!!"

He's psychotic but it's okay I can fix that


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5 months ago
Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept
Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept

Young Ford literally shoved that journal in Stanleys hands, giving him no other choice other than accept it and just do what he was told, while later on Ford held out their childhood picture, waiting till Stan accepted it himself.

"can you give me one more chance?"

Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept
Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept

Ford pulling out that journal from the left side of his coat which represents logic, but then after the development - pulling out their childhood picture from the right side, which represents feelings.

I'm talking about brain Hemispheres, whose side of the brain is responsible and dominant for one exact action.

Yes, this topic can be arguable, because, from viewers perspective their right is our left and the opposite, BUT

above I spoke from our perspective, but even in such switched around context you can easily adjust this statement.

Young Ford pulled out that journal from HIS right side because he was acting up on his feelings. He was in pain, he was suffering simply for trusting someone, which resulted in getting pathenically used and manipulated, and only hope he had left was to reach out to his brother, whom he openly loved and cared about at some point.

Older Ford reaches out their childhood picture from HIS left side, because believe it or not he's finally rational. He sees the full picture and decides to make the RIGHT decision.

THAT'S the result of making the right choice. The difference in the reaction is everything for me.

Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept
Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept

(it took him lil over 40 years + to witness and get tortured at the end of the world by one eyed demon...... that man is too much of a stubborn and vindictive hoe.)

This post is getting too long but I wanna address my opinion towards Fords "right" choice/desicion I mentioned above.

Right choice wasn't to go sailing with his brother, but rather than to make up with him.

None of them were fully right and none of them were fully wrong, it's complicated and that's what I adore about their characters.

Ford is flawed in the head, which was supposed to represent his brilliance and superiority

While Stan is flawed in the heart, which was supposed to represent his so on "grumpy" and "unloving" nature for the whole show.

Both of them were hurt, and none of them knew where to properly direct it, which at the end caused the incident with the portal.

Bonus:

Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept
Young Ford Literally Shoved That Journal In Stanleys Hands, Giving Him No Other Choice Other Than Accept

Stanley raised his hand to reach out for his bro only AFTER Stanford closed the curtains on him, which means Ford probably continued looking at the whole thing, quietly peeking from his window, not to dare and go against their fathers desicion.

He basically has the image of his strong, firm, and hotheaded brother looking at him full of heartbreak, imprinted in his head, and won't even allow himself to forget it. Even after 10 whole years.

He can't forget, he didn't deserve to forget it.

Guilt does a lot to a person, both of them were guilty, and also both of them were stubborn, which means that none of them will or would ever admit it.

I HAD to get this out of my system even if someone probably said it before me I deeply apologize you had to whitness that


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8 months ago
Day 3: Old Stuff.

Day 3: old stuff.

It's Russian fandom "My student spirit" if anyone's interested!


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2 years ago
What If: What If After White Taking Out Stevens Gem, Rose Really Reformed?

What if: what if after white taking out Stevens gem, Rose really reformed?

Rose is really ready to shatter White and I can't blame her for it.

Like mother like son 🗣️🔥


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3 years ago
I Hope You’re Happy Now

i hope you’re happy now

you made him cry

i dunno my little sis wanted me to make this so here you go


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3 years ago

I am sad now that my computer has decided to stop working for me it’s 3 to 4 years old I don’t know it doesn’t connect to anything I will be having a memorial for it some time in the future


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3 years ago

My thoughts on the recent Techno stream

First it was Ghostbur, then it was Foolish, I was hoping for a break after Charlie but NO they fucking kill Ranboo in Techno’s new lore stream and Dream is out of prison.  WHAT THE FUCK???? AND THE PERSON WHO KILLED RANBOO WAS ALSO ONE OF MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK I’M FUCKING-


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