Today, I woke up, I woke up and when to sleep. I take a small nap. I wake up from said nap and GET JUMPSCARED BY SOME BLACK THING at the edge of my BED. 😭🙏🏾now I had to take a look TWICE to figure out what was in my room cus oh my it was about the size of ME!!? It looked like a person or monster,
Turns out it’s my dam backpack I forgot I put on my bed 🚶. I THOUGHT I WAS TRIPPIN AND I WAS 💀🤚🏾.
i’m scared. i’m scared of the dark. i’m scared of monsters under my bed. i’m scared of public speaking. i’m scared of seeing my friends fought for something so meaningless that our friendship broke along with it. funny that i’ve always been scared of little things and you, my best friend, told me that the scariest thing in the world is never scary and i didn’t believe you but you hugged me and told me it was okay to be scared because you’ll always be here for me. and then we grew up and you found new friends and a line of people waiting to date you and left me all alone with bad excuses because we both knew you couldn’t lie. and we drifted further apart and i stared at my phone that night, wanting to call you but didn’t, watching it slowly turn to weeks then months then years. i did some self healing then and when i saw your name on my screen for the first time in forever, i was reluctant to pick up. i did anyways, not because i wanted to renewed our already damaged friendship but because in the span of a few years, i’ve grown to move forward and stop living in the past. but from your call, i can hear the sound of loud music blasting in the back, the conversation between strangers next to you and your friends cheering and yelling and swearing. you told me you were sorry and that you still regret ending our friendship so harshly but i told you it was okay and take care of yourself because i realise now that while i worked hard to move forward, you’re still stuck in the past.
— like you said, the scariest thing in the world is never scary but the things you thought weren’t scary are.
marina grace