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feyquil

5 years ago

meme. / selectively accepting.

@shadowhelmed said : *drops down to one knee* [ choke ], my liege

this was bound to happen. / they stand at opposite sides of a battlefield, life's game has dictated that they become one another's enemy, for their causes & beliefs lie in conflict, sparking desires for war & battle, for one side to prevail victorious with erroneous perception of said victory coming from a just background. the ends do not justify the means. a canary must sing nature's song, hear her reverent melodies that stir devotion & love for her creations, for the wild magic whose freedom directly affects all life around it ; there is no question to it, it must be left intact. to limit such for another's cause is to rebuke nature's teachings, it is to manipulate her benevolent will & transform an amiable love into a malicious force !! to commit atrocities all in the name of an order !!!

notwithstanding a resolute heart that wishes to paint all a part of said order as malevolent, there was kayn who proved to be distinct. perchance will he acknowledge that it is the folly of his own sentiments to become involved with one so closely associated with an order he's devoted himself to abolishing, though the initial intent was to deceive. this veneer attached to rakan's face found more uses than simply charming, the act of befriending a foe for intel is just, for is it not a fool that shall be punished for misplacing trust so carelessly ? but who must bear the title of fool ? kayn ? no. even if original intent was to deceive, even if their friendship had been found on initial lies, that will disappeared the more he came to know him.

each conversation served one absolute purpose : bring to light the plans of the order that threatens his home, that threatens the magic coursing through these divine trees, the humid air that felt refreshing no matter the time of day. all what was brought to light ... was a newfound care for him, came with a silent denial, an inner conflict where he rejects these sentiments, while a side of him advises him to accept it. accept he cares for kayn, that whenever the frown on kayn's lips curved into a smile, no matter how small, its power to brighten room was indubitable ——— that whenever he bared his heart to rakan, rakan would accept it, he would not shatter this trust they've built, knowing that trust itself is fragile & can never truly be recuperated if broken. each time they gazed at one another, each time dawn threatened with sun's calling, rakan was aware of his own feelings : the feeling of not wanting to leave, that sentiment of i want to protect you. a force that cannot be trampled by time itself, one that life cannot wish to understand, no matter the desire for chaos & conflict, the force of love prevails within rakan's heart even in war.

now ... they lie in bed, kayn atop rakan's form, pressed deep within him, hands placed against hips, steady rhythm adopted to make things easier for him. to call this just sex would be a sin in of itself, it would be a blatant lie, kept in control, for to grant it autonomy in their relationship would prove disastrous. / though communication is a struggle, though the path of what they have is rocky & it may never come to perfect fruition, that's ok, they have each other. to tread upon dangerous, mysterious path with another is a risk far greater than going alone, rakan's pride shall give him needed strength to move forward. / pressing against kayn is an act to have more of him, for him to press deeper without fear, it is rakan's manner of agreeing through their passionate act that kayn may do as he pleases. then, comes the unexpected, hands come to wrap around his neck, & he gasps.

❛ whoa, what're you ... ❜ perplexed at first on his actions, then digits begin to press down against his next, efficaciously preventing oxygen to flow from air to lungs, & albeit his hands come up to grab kayn's wrists, subsequent words betray his actions. ❛ don't stop. ❜ conflicting feeling of pain & pleasure, an amalgamation of both is seeded at the root of his heart, it grows & grows until it's overflowing. it's not passion, it's not trust per se, but by far is this one of the more audacious acts he's ever allowed. to trust someone with hands around his neck, it's new. he doesn't want it to end, he won't allow it to end. ❛ keep going, keep choking me, keep fucking me. i'll ... tell you if it's too much, i promise. ❜

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nsfw * m. / ic. * a. / ask. * v. / unknown. shadowhelmed [ moose idk what to tell u but kayn made him realize he's got a new kink! ]

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feyquil

5 years ago

kayn. /// shadowhelmed.

𝐊𝐀𝐘𝐍’𝐒 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐑𝐀𝐊𝐀𝐍 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐘, 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐆𝐆𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐃 how his explanation could possibly be complicated for the Vastaya. As someone who’s spent nearly a decade in the Shadow Order, none of it is complicated to him—it is a piece of him, a part that he will not & cannot cut out. It comes to him naturally; envelops his form in curling tattoos & a corrupted flesh. But apparently, as Rakan looks to Kayn with supremely DISORIENTED eyes, Kayn’s explanation isn’t quite as good at his own comprehension.

He sighs, squinting & lifting a hand to scratch at the back of his head. Rakan’s words tell him that he DEFINITELY doesn’t understand. Kayn’s hands gesture vaguely. “ 𝑾𝒆’𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆. 𝑰 … 𝒅𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔—𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒑𝒖𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 … 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒆𝒍𝒔𝒆 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒊𝒕, 𝒕𝒐𝒐. ” He pauses. “ 𝑨𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝑵𝒐𝒙𝒖𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒈𝒂𝒓𝒃𝒂𝒈𝒆. ”

❛ but you're already great, aren't you ? ❜ there's no leaps in logic, a desire to be great is one thing, but already being great is another, isn't it ? his thought is merely vocalized without prior thought, serving as both an independent statement & a compliment from the heart. doesn't everyone see it ? ❛ you think nobody sees it ? i think they do ! ❜ a bit too enthusiastic in his approach, limb comes up for a hand to rub at own chin inquisitively, pondering, wondering, before declaring another charismatic statement. ❛ you're the only guy that can catch up to me & kick my ass, i'm sure that's worth something. ❜

❛ listen, if someone from this noxus place is giving you a hard time, lemme deal with them. ❜ cocky. way too cocky, for someone that knows naught of how fierce their warriors are, he's only heard tales of it, albeit marks it off as simple fear overtaking one's heart at their stature, not their might. they were all tall, after all, though that does not equate to being strong. he thinks this as a tall person himself. ❛ promise i can handle it without getting a scratch. though, if i did get scratched, that'd be another scar, which isn't necessarily a bad thing ! ❜ it only serves to accentuate his beauty, in his eyes.