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Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.

For the past two months I have been explaining the plot of TGCF (or as he calls it: "the gay man lore™") to a friend of mine. I have heavily condensed the plot and we are still not done. Though I would like to tell you all the alternate names he has come up with

Xie Lian = Jay Leno

Hua Cheng = Little red ridding hood

San Lang = Little red vibing hood

Hong Hong-er = kys kid

Wu‌ ‌Ming = gaster the royal scientists

Feng Xin = thing one

Mu Qing = thing two

Nan Feng = thing three

Fu Yao = Thing four

Qi‌ ‌Ying‌ = autism god

Yin Yu = low tier god

Lang‌ ‌Qianqiu‌ = headband guy

Pei Ming = womanizer

Yushi Huang = Susie Deltarune

Lang‌ ‌Ying = Springtrap

Ban Yu = specific girl

Pei Lang = specific boy

Shi Qingxuan = Scott the woz

Shi‌ ‌Wudu‌ = don't lose your head wudu

Black water = Black water

Qi‌ ‌Rong = pac man

Gu‌ ‌Zi = mochi

Jun Wu = Jesus

Ling Wen = female Shakespeare

Mei‌ ‌Nian‌ ‌Qing= gambling man

the three tumours are the mean girls of heaven official’s blessing

shi wudu: he may seem like your typical selfish, back-stabbing, slut-faced, ho-bag. but in reality he is SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT

ling wen: that’s why her hair’s so big...cause it’s full of paperwork secrets

pei ming: one of the dumbest gods you will ever meet

and it’s all narrated by he xuan

My laptop was broken for awhile so here’s a sketch of Shi Wudu and Pei Ming >:D

My reactions today while reading blackwater arc (vol 4):

Hm..hm.. HUH?!?! MING YI....? Oh... oh he xuan- shi qingxuan.. *near to cryin-- SHI WUDUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STOPPPP *gapes at the words* *dies out of shock* *confused at the hulian scene after that trauma???*

book 4 spoilers ^_^

small piggy pie animatic i made hashtag FREAK!!!!!!!

Ykw I usually praise franchises for the fact that a trans character will be trans and nobody will make a big deal about it, but I’m actually quite married to the fact that tgcf doesn’t hesitate to show that being trans actually does suck through Shi Qingxuan (and yes, sqx is trans, eat my ass). It wasn’t some individual scene that tries to hammer down intense and violent trans suffering as hard-hittingly as humanly possible, to the point of triggering trauma, just to never bring it up again like most shows- it’s more subtle than that. Shi Qingxuan is frequently subtly mocked for switching between genders. Their brother scolds them publicly for being in their female form and demands they switch back. People frequently make fun of them for being ‘shameless’ and imply that they’re just a cross dresser. They’re never bothered by it, and never bring it up. They’re perfectly content with their existence, if a little intimidated by their brother. That’s such a nice portrayal of things like this. Sometimes transphobia isn’t violence or slurs, sometimes it’s subtle snideness and the bare minimum of respect. Mxtx doesn’t shy away from these topics, but doesn’t exaggerate them cruelly either (mind you, I’m not sure how deliberate this representation is on their part). They’re portrayed in a realistically subtle way.

Drawing I've made as reward for donations to Care for Gaza in the context of the TGCF Gotcha for Gaza event. Prompts are in the image descriptions.

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Rereading the Yuanxiao extra is realizing that He Xuan acts like his father