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Honestly, I love it when characters relapse. When someone who’s gotten over their anger issues falls into a situation so out of their depth they fall back on their old habits. When someone who’s learned to open up becomes a recluse again in order to cope with something outside their control.
There’s just something so horrible, so toxic, about watching a character grow and then slip back into their old selves in order to cope, bc you know they still care, that they’re the same inside, but watching them hurt so hard they don’t know what else to do brings a sense of catharsis.
“reasons to not kiss him: 1. you weren’t raised to love tender. 2. when he’s around all you do is tremble. when he’s around you want to get on your knees. look how much power he has over you. it’s dangerous. 3. he’s too good at forgiving and you’re too good at violence. 4. you know what they say about monsters. you know what happens to the boys who love them. are you going to do that to him? 5. your hands don’t know how to be gentle. think about the last beautiful thing that shattered in your palms. the fresh rosebuds crumbling between your fingers like a bruise. you wolf-boy, you war machine. you wouldn’t know how to hold something magic and not destroy it. 6. if you hurt him it might kill you 7. if you hurt him you might kill yourself. 8. you are very bad at rehabilitation. this is one addiction you’d fail to give up. he’s going to ruin you for all other kisses and all other boys and you’ll spend the rest of your life trying to forget his name. 9. you still aren’t sure he isn’t a dream. 10. if you kiss him, you might wake up. reasons to kiss him: 1. because he’s beautiful. 2. because he asked. 3. because he preceded please with, i’m not afraid of you.”
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yes & no // Natalie Wee
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I ❤️ self-loathing characters, characters who struggle with monstrosity (either fearing or embracing it), characters who are so lonely, who have a gaping hole in their chest, who bottle up & repress their feelings, who claw their way up & have ambitions, who fall down & lose everything, who search for identity & purpose yet can’t see themselves outside of what others want from or expect of them, who are hurt & hurt others, who long & grieve, who lie & pretend. characters who are messy & flawed & human
They aren't mine biologically. But I love them like they are.
people really be like "why is this character not behaving 100% effectively in line with their values and intentions while experiencing overwhelmingly strong emotions :/ so ooc" as if they themselves don't make 6 irrational emotionally fueled decisions before breakfast like everyone else
I love you characters that hold grudges I love you anger as a defence mechanism i love you being consumed by anger I love you being destroyed by anger I love you being healed by anger i love you obvious anger I love you anger buried so deep it’s intrinsic to who you are I love you revenge nurtured so long it feels like a loved one I love you rage I love you temper I love you characters that grieve by lashing out i love you anger on behalf of others I love you characters comforted by their anger I love you wrath I love you fury I love you indignation I love you anger
I love characters that are completely harmless until they finally unleash their power and then they’re TERRIFYING
"But here was a man mourning tomorrow
He drank, but finally drowned in his sorrow"
Based on A Sadness Runs Through Him by The Hoosiers
Just a little piece on Shimi with stress. She can get extremely overwhelmed by it all.
(there’s a close up on the face down there, cause that expression was just good shit)
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