Sleep Disorder - Blog Posts
it’s so sad that my sleep disorder has me so messed up that i perceive 11am as too early.
Me: I have delayed sleep phase disorder.
Mother: it's because you don't sleep at the right time!!!!!!!
Me: that's the point?????????????
2 DAYS IN A ROW 😭😭😭😭 it’s 5:55am and I just reflexively punched everything off my fucking nightstand as I woke up bro 😭 istg I’m so fucking sick of this shit.
Also there was a cool dreams that felt like an scp type deal, a big cave that appears on coastlines with walls full of huge randomized human teeth and gums, nobody knows how far it goes and it doesn’t seem to follow any geographical limits from the outside world. From outside u can’t even see the interior very well, and if u enter it u are stuck in another dimension of infinite teeth tunnels. From an outside perspective once someone enters the tunnel they forget that person ever existed along with the existence of the tunnel. Kinda cool lol
if it was just one person I'd take it up with them personally, but it's so many people so often that I can't do anything but get frustrated and cry so I'm gonna cry about it here
Hypersomnia sucks. Narcolepsy sucks. Being unable to stay awake sucks, and it's also terrifying. Sometimes I wake up and cry because I can already tell that I'm not going to be able to stay awake.
I understand that most people are more familiar with being sleep deprived than the opposite and so maybe "I slept forty hours in two days" sounds like an amazing luxury. But it's not. That's two days of missed work and exercise and fun. That's two days of constantly waking up and trying desperately to stay awake and failing. That's two days where you had eight hours worth of snatches of being terrified of your own body and stressing over how much you're not getting done, how much work you're not doing. Two days of weird fragmented nightmares about not being able to wake up. Two days of having to ask someone else whether you walked the dog because you can't tell if you dreamed it or did it in a state halfway to sleep walking. And you will wake up and you will STILL BE TIRED. you will not wake up rested and cheerful and rejuvenated. You will wake up exhausted and weary and wanting to die.
I know people don't know this. I know there's no malice in it and I try so hard to be understanding of that. But for the love of God "I slept forty hours in two days" is not something a healthy person says and to reply to it with 'ill trade you, I can't sleep' which happens to me EVERY TIME I MENTION IT ALOUD is frustrating and invalidating. I've had dozens of people say this to me. I'm so sick of it.
I don't want your insomnia! It sounds miserable! I can empathize! Please try to do the same for me, even though my experiences may seem difficult to understand at first! I know you don't mean ill! Please!
By the way,
(Kinda triggering maybe?? Dunno, just telling in case. Don't wanna make people feel unwell bc of a silly Tumblr post. It's personal and. Maybe off-putting. Yeah, "off-putting" is a better word. I'm just questioning my sanity a bit, is all)
I'm gonna ask a weird and personal thing. If you don't mind. Sooo... Let's ask.
Hypothetically. Is it ok to have a few dreams which you can't tell from reality, while feeling unexplainable sensations spreading through your body like warmth or coldness, loud tinnitus, increased heartbeat, sweating, heavy breathing, maybe even tooth pain(??), on the verge of a panic attack, being convinced that something is watching you and gonna kill you if you move and hearing a voice telling you it's gonna kill your family if you won't listen to "them". But, like, in a dreaaaam, right?? Like. While just sleeeeping and not actually being awake. You just wake up later and it's like nothing of it really happened. It's all just in dream, yeah. Haha. Must be fine, tho, right
I'm sure everyone has experienced such stuff at least once in their life, yes??
Also. Just so you wouldn't waste your time for nothing, here's da silly picture I just drew for this post specifically:
Thank you for your attention, hope you have a nice day.
My Batman line Art in Pen.
I love having a sleep disorder so rare that there are like 10 posts on it and no real fix for it because it usually occurs in blind people :D
Good night Tumblr
Guys I have non-24 look it up please it's really silly