Sorry For My English - Blog Posts
Happy new year, my Dear followers! :*** Unfortunately, I don’t have time to draw a art, but I will try to draw more arts in 2019 <3
•Spoiler for the drawing with XChara♡
I really hate myself. I know everything about manifestation and the law of assumption, but I cannot manifest. I don't know why I can never believe. My condition is now very bad and I suffer from severe depression. My whole body hurts. All I remember is that I will live in this damned village forever. My heart. It hurts me 😔
Everyone has gotten off tumblr and living the life of their dreams, and bloggers are tired of miserable people like me, except me I've been here for three years and haven't manifest anything and my life is falling apart. I don't think this is right for me. I'm about to give up. I don't know what's happening to me. My pain increases every day, and I lose my faith every day 😔
Okay, so I have 92 tabs on my laptop, 107 in Chrome on my phone and 50 in Opera on my phone... And a shit tone of bookmarks everywhere, even in my notes... But the thing is, if I put something in the bookmarks there is really hight probability that I will find them again after many months or never again xD if I have them open, I will keep an eye on them, even accidentally, I scroll through them, because I remembered something is somewhere there, but still... I don't have a habit to look at my bookmarks, because it's a list of words for me, and opened tabs show me what's there xD
Also it's like looking into someone's mind, 249 open tabs, some are frozen, some are really old, some plays music, some have really specific and weird research going on, most of them are just fanfiction or porn... You know how it is xD
Wait. They aren’t jokes. You guys really keep dozens of tabs open on your browser forever.
in the christmas special mo guan shan will have deja vu: he tian takes him home, undresses him and puts him to bed, just like that night. then it was only the beginning of their relatioship and they were a bit clumsy and shy, just learning to love and do things right.
and this evening, after so many years apart, feels almost the same. they're awkward again and not sure how to behave around each other. but it's not a return to the start, just a new chapter in their relatioship. a continuation of a long love story.
