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A woman I see ,

More powerful then me ,

Because she holds the key

To the happiness in me ,

She can blow me a Gale,

Or create me a storm ,

She is my dearest ,

Who protects me in the wildest storm,

When I’m mad, she makes the world frown,

Oh believe me she can tip up even your crown ,

When I’m happy she sends me a sky full of clowns,

In the prettiest colours,

Who sing me a beautiful song

To make me feel proud,

When I’m cold ,

She holds me ever so close

warms me up with her gentle rays ,

When I’m hot , she don’t stop,

When I’m mad,

She blows the angles my way,

To whisper

It’ll be better another day.

@trueemotions91

Blurred between love and hate

How do I decide my fate ,

When my heart tells me to wait

But my mind tells me to do a double take ,

Life isn’t ment to be a surf

But why was we brought to earth

With this thing called worth,

Emotions are tough

When other people are rough,

Just another torch

To light up the path

For another soul to walk

While we wait in the back fall ,

Why did the cells give me a heart

To just keep being scarred ,

It don’t know when to stop

And that will be my flop,

On this place we call earth

Burnt from inside , out

For something we call love.

@trueemotions91

Heart broken

My life’s a mess

I don’t know where is my place of rest

Just need a escape from this place

Feels like hell ,

I’d rather skate,

My way up to heavens gate ,

Then live this joke of a life

Am I that horrible

I attract selfish people

Does my mind really play me from behide

I don’t undertstand

I’m just confused

To what to do

Slowly but surely I’m breaking

In two

And I’m truly losing my self

To this sticky game of glue

I tell everyone to smile

But can’t force it upon my own frown

Why is life so hard

Why is it the ones we love

The ones who hurt us the most

If that’s the case I would rather die

I give up on life

Always doing my best

Breaking my insides for all the rest

My mind screams for me to give it a break

But my heart won’t let me escape

I’m slowly starting to lose all hope

Of what I call a human joke .

@trueemotions91

Hey beautiful people ! Hope Everyone’s well! I need some words or ideas to get my brain ticking to write some poetry! Please help ME 😝! My heads a little dry , so feeling frustrated ! Xxxxx

Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !

Lost young soul ,

Life is low , life is high ,

We have to just ride the tide. ❤️

The biggest challenge in life

Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,

Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,

He’s trapped inside

Constantly taking you on a mad ride

It’s your call to reply

But before you do

Just listen

To what he is speaking

He may drive you crazy and make you hate

Every aspect of life ,

But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,

But the voice is they for a reason

Even if invisible on the other side

It’s the man inside

trying to make you recognise

I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up

But please just go with the flow

Don’t think the words that are going Through your head

Are a representation of yourself ,

Thats way to far , even for his control ,

That voice is a reckoning

The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling

Maybe not in the words you need

But this is where you have to be smart

Our brains are dangerous

The damage is strong

As no other can hear the song ,

He may play you some fucked up lullabies

And make tears come into your eyes

But I promise that’s not you breaking

That’s your soul accepting ,

The voice is usually your own well being ,

Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,

He is nothing to be scared of

He is invisible , a voice all alone ,

But you can’t let him take control,

You have the power to show him differ ,

befriend that voice in your head ,

make him work for his chatter

we were born wild and free but

our imagantion always runs quicker

then our own two feet ,

So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release

Its a craft , and once you make the art ,

That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .

@trueemotions91

Always told

I won’t make any gold

With my long life goals,

But they underestimated me

As my goals only consist

Of happy and health,

Not having my pockets lined of coins

I’d rather have a heart of joy,

A pocket full of sweet memories

For the world to see, Is enough for me ,

Riches are nothing

If my eyes are cold

Blinded by the pound sign

can’t see my path is clearly written for me ,

I don’t need brands attached to me

I’m a brand of my own

no one can copy track me

Even when I’m buried in the ground

You still couldn’t even come close

To the place I call home

My memories would make you realise

What a lie yours is.

@trueemotions91

You reading this

Promise me

One thing

In life don’t give up

Never check the competition on the other shoulder

Always breathe and just get stuck in

The thicker the better

Don’t let anyone make you feel worthless

Poisonous people only do this

Don’t never go in with your eyes closed

Always make sure they are wide

Don’t get stuck in the gossip

Take a seat back and be the listener

Your be amazed what you hear ,

When your hurting ,

Please just scream,

Don’t let it burden you ,

I’m here,

When you want to cry,

Let it stream,

Tears are free ,

So don’t let it burn you out

from inside out ,

Believe me when I say,

Your brain is a weapon for all,

But mainly for yourself ,

So don’t let it take control,

Remember it’s your body in the line ,

Don’t let the voices roar ,

If they do, scream right back at them

Coz them bitches should be in line with your core,

When your happy ,

Enjoy,

And when your sad

Just remeber the man who shook your hand ,

Without a penny to his name ,

Yet he still has a plan,

Every single being here has a path,

And when it gets tough

Just know that’s the worse ,

The only way is up baby,

So please just breathe ,

And no it’s just the path

To make your journey on earth

Complete .

@trueemotions91

A woman ,

Is her name

A mother to all,

From the ground she was born

She always stood tall ,

She braces the craziest storm

Because that’s her home,

She carries life to the full

So we can be reborn ,

She gives her body to another

With out a thought for the other ,

She knows power, love & hate

But yet you won’t see her shake ,

She has to be powerful

To raise her next generation ,

To Make sure there matter

In a world with a lot of chatter ,

She has the power to give and take

But she always chooses life

Over any other path

That may call her ,

Because that’s the gate

To her most beautiful

Creations in life,

Always In sight , but guarded

By love , because that’s what mothers do

On this crazy path called life .

@trueemotions91

Scared

To grow old,

Petrified of getting lines,

Creases from frowning

Always clowning around,

With grey painted lipstick,

Creased upon his cheek

Over the wrinkles

That make his skin looked inked,

I’ll hesitate To undress,

scared of the bed

I once laid upon

Without a rest .

Don’t want it to be my

Last place of rest.

The joys of youth,

But now I have

nothing to lose .

I’ve lived my life with grace

And know it’s my resting place

On earth, back to the ground,

Where I was first placed .

@trueemotions91

Life is scary ,

Looking through my eyes ,

Your find it blurry,

But don’t be alarmed,

Because I promise your ready .

For this ride, To the top,

Free of charge ,

I promise I won’t ask for a penny,

But I’m going take your emotions

Higher then any,

I’ll hold your hand

I won’t let go

But inside your going be lonely.

Don’t be scared

I promised you so,

All of them emotions

Are part of the journey ,

This ain’t no movie,

First class scary .

Be the best ride ,

As this is the journey of Your life.

@trueemotions91

Billy bong billy bang,

I just want a snack,

To calm my attack.

Things got me having a panic Snack ,

For better ,for worse,

My chocolate habit won’t

Stop it

Love it

Twist it

Grab it

Shove it in and shut it.

Like a trap , with a snap

Waiting for it’s next lick,

I just can’t kick it,

With such delight

Cant help but bite it,

The melting stuff,

Gets twisted in my tongue ,

Dribble it

Lick it

Swallow it .

Now I’ve done it again

Fucking chocolate habit .

@trueemotions91

Fuckin crazy in this house of mine

Kids always fighting

Mothers always screaming

A war against 9

Yet love in the air

Open my eyes

To a war game

Trying push them

In there own direction

Forced eyes wide open

Mouths are all gawping

My brains fucking screwing

While next doors knocking

To a crazy noise

Of just heartache

But in the end it’s going be

Allright

Coz it’s where I call home

Its where my flowers grow

From the floor to the ceiling

I’m crawling

While the kids are scribbling

I’m kneeling

Praying to Jesus for some strength

To just catch my breath .

@trueemotions91

Why does another woman’s body entice me,

The curves I adore,

Skin so smooth ,

The way she shakes her arse .

Maybe it’s jealousy

But I’m not sure .

Is it wrong to admire

The beauty of another

I believe not so .

It’s something extraordinary ,

I just can’t let go.

How she drops so low ,

her hips curve to her exterior

Is just woah woah woah .

Blows my mind,

How another woman can make

My heart beat slow .

@trueemotions91

I’m attracted to skin .

You heard that correctly ,

Human contact

Is my fantasise.

To feel the warmth of your body

Upon me

Sends electricity threw me .

To run my fingers down every inch of you

Excites me .

To explore every grove and corner

Of your body

With mine

Thrills me .

To watch you wither under me

Is my only desire .

I promise I’ll be gentle .

All you got to do

Is be bare.

I’ll waken

Senses you never

Knew where there .

Don’t tempt me .

I swear .

@trueemotions91

Round and juicy ,

I’ll eat you to the core,

Then I’ll throw you to the floor.

Making me dribble,

Dirty whore,

Want me to lick

The sweetness from the middle,

As it trickles down my throat

Makes me gag

Just a little .

That dirty apple .

@trueemotions91

Hey little lady,

Sitting across the bar from me,

With her pretty red hair ,

green glazed eyes

Looking everywhere

But ignoring my stare .

I just want show you how

Your life could be fair.

With a pretty little thing

Like you , I wouldn’t dare ,

I’d give you all the dreams in life,

If you just promise to be my wife ,

I love the way you hold your stare ,

When you no I’m all yours.

I just want show you happiness baby ,

So don’t be scared ,

Promise you my touch ,

Is soft ,

Coz a pretty lady like you

Belongs at the top,

So don’t be alarmed when I pull you closer,

I just wanna smell you a little bit better,

I wanna wrap your hair around my fingers,

And show you how much I really care .

@trueemotions91

A beauty only I can see

Because I hold the key

To my own twisted art

That’s locked inside of me

It’s not my eyes who make me unique

Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose

It’s the fact I can control

My life long goals

ain’t no one stopping that

You can put a end to my legs

Or maybe even my sense

But my mind won’t let you

Mess up that

It’s not visible to see

For a reason

It tells me daily

Scary .

@trueemotions91

Why did you leave me on the cross roads,

Cold and alone,

With a thousand thoughts creating a storm.

You left me in the darkest skies,

my coldest hour ,

Did it make you feel better ?

To know I was breaking,

Under your footstep .

Pressure after pressure,

As you watched me shatter

But it didn’t matter.

If you were true , You thought you could piece

Me back together

With glue .

But never the same

And now your ashamed

Because the damaged you caused

Is clear .

I found you

Looking so blue ,

I took you

To show you the truth ,

I opened my heart

To help you ,

Never did I think ,

You would rip

Out my soul

And make me beg,

from underneath

You.

@trueemotions91

Did you ever think

The power a child can bring to a man ?

I will admit

It’s about the sex .

But maybe we look past

How a man is made ,

His primarl instinct

To make love to woman

And watch his seed grow

Into something remarkable .

Into a soul

He connected to on a another level

Maybe it’s empowering for him

to watch

Her belly grow

Knowing it’s his well being

Made by his flow.

To allow him

To reinpreganate another soul

To find it attractive

Knowing he holds half the key

For another life

I wonder so .

@trueemotions91

5 boys who are running around,

doing what these boys do.

Power rangers.

Fighting & cars

Bruises from bangs

cuts from falls.

Feet stomping from your moods.

Screaming

All in a hurry.

Baby dolls. Kissses. Cuddles. Helping. Tears.

All the things above are nothing bad.

As they are what are perparing you to be a perfect man.

Your learn to control them paddys and in return control anger.

The tears you cry now will show you that being a man also means you need emotion because you are just another

human .

The bruises and bangs just make you that little bit tougher.

The dolls you play with now will help you as you to one day become a father.

The kisses and cuddles will show you that's all your family will need one day to feel protected just like you do now.

But for now I'm sit back watching you grow with tears, laughter and sometimes a bit of frustration - but mummy knows all the bad and all the good is going make you the perfect man for your future .

@trueemotions91

Fucked up words ,

Pulling at the trigger ,

Itching on my brain with this crazy fucker .

My plans in Mars

But yet your only reaching for the stars.

Do make me laugh ,

You look like a giraffe ,

Reaching for the highest branch

Without no arms .

Ground zero.

I hear you call.

The monkeys laugh

With a twisted squeal.

A monkey you know

That’s how low

Your brain has blown

What happened up there ,

Did the air

Lose all control

And now your left floating

Just full of holes,

Please show me your goals

I’m a bit confused

how your still so low

Not knowing which way to go

When I watched you climb

That big fuck off

Hill

@trueemotions91

Lost Balloons

(Pic is mine. Reproduce however you want)

when i look at the sky

i dont

see clouds

at least not as often as

i see feathers

from missing wings

i dont see myself

next to the stars

im in the middle

where lost balloons are found

i let one go once

it explored the sky

while i swore

it would come back

© @parasomnambulist December 15, 2020

Wow , I needed to read this as I could never put this into words as perfect as this person but is spot on & worded so perfectly x

Am I responsible for the damage in me Am I responsible for the damage in you Am I responsible for all of the things I couldn’t see Am I responsible for all of the missed things …when you couldn’t be When you couldn’t be I couldn’t rise from my own I needed you Just like you needed me Doomed to everything in between Doomed by the things we couldn’t see Doomed by the things we let be

I hate, me.

- {GK VIV}

I am half finished, incomplete as the moon in it's phases, yet still I am curved into a crescent smiling at my shadowed half