Today's stream is gonna be a bit depressing.
This week has been genuinely harsh to me and mom, but today we had found out that a lot of our things back at the old house I had mentioned before is officially gone.
I barely held it together after hearing that, but on stream I ended up getting emotional while explaining what happened.
Im sorry to everyone that watches my streams to relax and get away from your own harsh realities, I just needed to express my deep sadness of losing a lot of items i might never get back. Some that had been given to me by my dad, such as books and knives he used to collect.
I genuinely don't know what to do anymore and after this week, I don't think I ever will. Im tired. I just want to rest and stop fighting what is just a losing battle with life.
Currently on stream im just trying to do a quick edit on the minecraft vod on youtube and pulling up a video for chat to watch so you guys don't have to sit there and hear my sniffling the whole time.
Hopefully I can bounce back from this but we will see tomorrow.
Thank you for reading and in sorry for bringing down the mood on stream.