Stu(dent)dying - Blog Posts

tuesday, feb 11th

i survived! today was exciting but really stretched my brain. this week is really big for my research- i'm doing my first self-designed experiment tomorrow and i'm excited/scared/uncertain. i'm trying to remind myself that fear and excitement feel the same to our body, it's just how we think about those physical feelings that changes the mental feelings.

i’ve also been grappling with…why i do what i do. like, ultimately we’re all little specs of matter and energy that are so small in the grand scheme of things. and it’s been hard lately to not just give up and let god take the wheel.

but we’re all here for some purpose. ultimately god (whoever they are) has HAD the wheel for a while and we’re all just…going along for the ride. we’re lucky to have the resources, opportunities, and people that we have, and should always work for more.

while it doesn’t seem like it, it’s a blessing to be stressed about school. it’s a blessing to worry about grades. because at least we CAN worry about grades. at least we CAN worry about school.

education is a human right—but right now it feels like a gift.

to do:

finalize experiment for tomorrow

start working through data analysis for instrumentation lab

modeling homework

🎧: mendelssohn string octet

friday, feb 8th

i was truly in circuit jail today. instrumentation lab was so bad that i have to go in tomorrow to get the correct data 😭😭

although the lab in golden hour is unfortunately quite aesthetic. so do with that what you will.

also also also pizza at lab meeting today! i made nanoparticles after ages and spent some time relearning how to do it. my particles were a tiny bit small (they should be around 200 nm).

now i'm just watching my cdrama after eating a delishos dinner. no studying tonight.

thursday, jan 30th

guys lookit this salad i made. normalize unaesthetic food pictures. i lowkey also ate so much deep fried food today. my lunch (is it still lunch if i ate at 3pm) was onion rings+fries with queso and ranch (so basically an oil rig) and my salad had some more of that breaded tofu i made yesterday but cut up.

not that it's wrong/bad to eat deep fried food. life is too short to regret.

i also am so cooked for my instrumentation class right now. we begged and pleaded to get an extension and prof gave us 1 DAY. not even the weekend. it's not like he's going to grade it before next week's exam...so why the rush.

me in circuit jail:

modeling quiz was ok. i finished it! so therefore i successfully served cunt.

n e ways. i'm going to crank out as much as i can before i need to switch gears and do stuff for my instrumentation lab tomorrow.

tasks:

instrumentation homework. just do it. ✅ (big slay 4/6 problems done 2 days before the due date)

instrumentation pre-lab lecture. ✅ (guys this was so much shorter than what i'd thought it'd be)

optional: research proposal (fook dat im going to bed)

🍵: osmanthus tea.

🎧: Brahms Symphony 4, Beethoven Symphony 7 🤤

wednesday, jan 29th

salutations, legumes.

today was good. i did science. i synthesized a polymer last week, and i wanted to see what it looks like...so i stuck it in some big beige boxes and zapped it with some lazers.

I also made this fried tofu bowl after work. the salsa and the pico de gallo are both from an event that one of my roommates stole leftover food from. the tofu is breaded + fried, and i ate it with some rice and cucumber.

today's classes were tissue engineering and pchem. also good classes.

i do in fact have work :(

continue research proposal

study for modeling quiz ✅

instrumentation homework (what the fuck is this)

edit: todo list too long. bed calls.

tuesday, jan 28th

hi beanz. welcome back.

picked up this sparkling lemon soda from an italian deli near my house on my walk home to drink as i study.

today, i had my biomedical modeling and my biomedical instrumentation class. both of these are my most difficult classes, so i have to put quite a bit of work into them.

in modeling, i learned how to serve cunt about partial differential equations and modeled cellular diffusion using a partial differential equation. this class is actually so cool and it's an easy favorite. i have a quiz on thursday, so i have to study for that.

instrumentation is...confusing. this first portion of the course has been a review of my circuits class from fall 2023. which i then basically repeated in my signals/systems class last semester. but somehow i still don't really understand what's going on so maybe i need the review. i have an exam next week and need to lock tf in.

i also have some stuff to do for research. i have a proposal to write due on feb 15th, and ideally would like feedback from prof next week. so that means this needs to get written by lab meeting on friday. i haven't even made a document. absolutely cooked.

to do:

finish start 4 problems in instrumentation homework ✅

redo pharmacokinetics example for modeling quiz

start modeling homework 2 ✅ 1/29

start research proposal ✅

🎧: tchaikovsky violin concerto in d major