dead but dreaming
best song off of domination
How long do I sit and wait around
I am suffocating in all this slowness
I am tired of acting like I enjoy the day
I can't anymore
I need adventures and uneaseness
I need to be under a tree unpacking a travel bag
searching for that quick bite before I resume
I need to be under the stars and counting the big ones
I can't sit at a window and look at the passing cars
I can't sit around and dance to another melody
I need to be out in the wilderness and battling for breath
I need to know that I am alive and here
And not just another painting on the wall
in the living room that's beige.
The way I’ve learned to live
Isn’t what I ever expected
When I was little and the world
Still held all the beauty I had needed.
I’ve learned about myself
In ways I hadn’t ever guessed
Were even possible for me.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is preservation above all
Keep my sanity and my life
My heart and my soul.
But oh, I’m losing it
I’m losing this careful hold
Every time I bite back words
I know I need to say.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is to stay silent when others think
That I am like them, because safety is in numbers
My hands are bleeding from the painful grip I have
The only thing suspending me
From falling down and down.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is preservation above all
Keep my heart and my soul
My sanity and this life
But oh, someone help
I can feel myself slipping
And now I tumble
Down and down
The way I’ve learned to live
Is the way I’ve learned to die
Someone help, someone help
But oh, I’m losing it.