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Trans tips #6

YOU DO NOT NEED TO INFANTISE YOURSELF TO BE MORE PALETABLE TO OTHERS

you don't need to infantile yourself

You don't need to be palatable

You don't need to conform to others views and opinions

You don't need to infantise yourself to be more palatable

You don't need to infantise yourself for others

You don't need to be palatable for others

This one is kind of a rant so whatever BUT

I SEE THIS SO OFTEN IT MAKES ME WANT TO GO FERAL

There was this great trans influencer on tiktok, he went by Mars, had all the surgeries, talked about his experiences, had a clothing brand, interacted with fans, allllll the good shit an influencer can do...right? RIGHT!!

I loved his, he's one of the first influencers that made me question my gender identity, made me do my own research and ask myself questions and start to realize that I, too, might be Trans

Fuckin love that guy! He's great!

But you know what's one thing that made me cringe away from him! HE INFANTISED HIMSELF SO MUCH

This goes for trans women and men, you don't need to make yourself look like a meek lil defenseless thing to be palatable to others! PLEASE

He called himself a boy ALL. THE. TIME even though he's a full ass man with a beard and body hair and age and wisdom he call himself a little boy!

He got the testosterone jelly but he called it his "boy goo" STOP IT

He stood slouched and pitched his voice up for the camera and tried to make himself sound and appear as meek and whimpy and vulnerable as he could! Just in the way he carried himself in his videos!! And it INFURIATES ME BEYOND BELIEF!!!!!!!

DONT INFANTISE YOURSELF

It's testosterone jelly, not "boy goo" even "man goo" or "man slime" if you still wanted a stupid lil name for it just ANYTHING BUT BOY GOO also that just sounds weird to begin with!!!

Your a MAN not a BOY unless you are the AGE of a BOY you are a MANNNN

Same with trans women!!!! You are not a GIRL you are a WOMAN unless you are the AGE of a GIRL you are a WOMANNNNNN

And I get it, you don't wanna be that big intimidating trans person coming in public restrooms like what the media says is evil and blah blah blah

But your fucking NOT

INFANTISING YOURSELF IS TRANS ERASURE

We are not meant to hide in the shadows or be in the back of the classroom or anything like that! Be proud about who you are! Square your shoulders! Chin up! Pick up your feet! Walk with confidence! PLEASE

End of rant but I just needed to get that out of my system

Also i have a rant about trans people sexualizing themselves but that's a different rant for another day!

HEY!!! Trans tips #5!

It's okay if it takes a while for you to transition!

Currently i have an appointment with a Gender Health Clinic set for July. This appointment is for me to be able to start Testosterone. Until then I can do nothing to medically transition.

But you know what? You don't have to medically transition as soon as possible! It's okay! This is the soonest available to me, until then I will be clearing out my wardrobe, coming out to more people, changing my appearance to better fit my style and my identity, and all of that is okay!

It's alright if you feel like your transitioning is in a stand still because you don't have the resources or means or time to transition, you're still valid

Never question if you're still valid just because it's taking you time to transition, you're valid no matter what!

It feels weird, for me, like being in some sort of trans limbo right now

But it's okay to feel uncomfortable! The days will pass and you will look different, and you'll be okay! I'm proud of you!

This is the first in a series or Trans Stories I'm Willing To Share With The Internet, but it's about the first times I started to figure out I might be Trans!

When i was a young child, we used to have these neighbors that lived down the street. I tried being friends with the youngest of their family, who was still a few years older than me.

One day, we were sitting in the Den (like a livingroom that's one step lower than the rest of the house)(also maybe reffered to as a man cave)(I don't care) and I turned to the boy and asked

"Hey, if you didn't know i was a girl, would you be able to tell?"

I had started noticing that i had more "masculine" facial features (thicker eyebrows, broad shoulders, square face shape, my dad's big nose/forehead, ect.) At the time I was a little self conscious about this, but that didn't help the pang of hurt I felt when it was confirmed that I still looked "feminine"

Of course, he said "obviously," and we moved on, but for "some reason", I was deeply disappointed by this

This is just one of many dozens of stories I have like this

When I was even younger, i tried walking around the house Shirtless. No traing bra, no shirt, no bathing suit, nothing! I hadn't gone through any puberty, but that didn't stop my Dad and Brother from yelling at me! My argument was that they walked around shirtless all the time, why couldn't I? It's hot, let me take off my shirt too!

Nope! No, no, no. My mom had to quickly explain there's a difference between boys and girls and that I can't be shirtless, even around my family...

When i was in middle school (early teenage years for non Americans) I would dress more masculinly to "scare off anyone looking at my baby sibling" because I wanted to be a protective older brother

When I hit highschool, during the pandemic, I started experimenting with my hair and my freedom of expression. I buzzed it off at the beginning of lockdown so I could dye cool patterns into it, and as it grew out I kept the sides shaved and grew a mowhawk, dyed red ofc. But I had to attend classes again, with red liberty spikes, a black face mask, and new confidence. People in the hallways called me the "mowhawk guy". I wasn't even thinking about my gender identity at the time, yet I always felt this bubble of giddiness every time I heard about the "mowhawk guy" from my friends.

Maybe I was being made fun of, who knows, it made me happy

I've been mistaken for a man from behind, especially when I had shorter haircuts, and any time I heard someone call out "sir!" When trying to get my attention! I would live off of that high for weeks, if not months!

I started going by He Pronouns almost 2 years ago, but i told myself I was Genderfluid. I kind of used this as a crutch, so I didn't have to correct anyone...but I always have a secret preference for Masc Pronouns.

I've always shopped in men's clothing, the loose shirts didn't have corny slogans on them, the shirts weren't cropped, the jeans didn't hug anything, I liked the styles of old band tees and flannels...

Anyway, those are the times that stick out in my mind as the first few times I experienced Gender Dysphoria and Euphoria! Thank you for reading my ramblings, and if you have any stories of your own, please reblog and share! I love hearing about others experiences!

Trans tips #4!

Reframing how you talk to/about yourself!

I talk to myself alot! Okay maybe not TO myself but I have a weird habit of narrating everything I am doing in my head to myself.

One thing I have to make a conscious effort to do is to use my preferred name in my head. Often I'll have my narration going on and I'll have to interrupt it to use my preferred name

Same goes for my Pronouns!

Example from today: "(Deadname) turned the ignition off, grabbing her keys and taking a deep breath before opening the door- no, wait, LI grabbed his keys, and reached for the handle of his door, ready to go to work..."

It's okay to make mistakes, and to have hiccups, it doesn't make you any less Trans!

Maybe I should stop taking to myself but I digress!!!

The other thing i do is i reword how I refer to myself, my body, my clothes, ect.

I started referring to my bras, which I use as binders, as harnesses. Idk why but this makes me feel much better about myself.

I don't own boxers as of right now as an obligatory Broke Collage Student BUT I stopped calling my undies Panties and call them Undies. I hated the word panties anyway so whatever! I also wear alot of loose horror t-shirts and cargo pants with docs (in case you wanna know how I dress for some reason!) So no renaming there!

Onto my body, right now I sit at a C cup, so no flat chest here, but I still call it my chest and my pecks, and I try to avoid saying Tits, Boobs, ect. They are my pecks and bitches be jealous of my big soft pecs!

Reframing how you refer to yourself can help a little bit with dysphoria! Remember that you got this and do what works for you, this is just what works for me!

Trans tips #3!

I feel like this is said over and over and over but I wouldn't be a good Trans Teacher unless I reminded you to Please Practice Safe Transing!

(I don't know how else to word this)

If you wear Tape! Don't tape your Nips! If you do, get pasties or something! Use proper tape! Not duct tape or packing tape / ect.! Take care of your skin! Use baby diaper wash cream and let your skin heal before you tape again! Do Not Rip Your Skin Off For The Sake Of Taping!!!

If you Bind! Even if it's exceptionally tight sports bras! TAKE! THOSE! FUCKERS! OFF!

You should spend at LEAST an hour outside of binders for every 2 hours you spend binding! That's just half the time! Take it tf off!!! The next post will be about rewording how you think you talk to yourself so look out for that!

DO NOT SLEEP OR EXCORCISE WHILE BINDING!!!

Drink lots of water! Stay hydrated! Tea or Coffee is not Water!!! Yes it contains water! But buddy, you body needs pure, unflavored, no additives water to help flush your kidneys and your system!

I know your dysphoric, please don't wear your hoodie or jacket if you are Too Hot! If it's warm enough to the point that you are sweating! Don't wear your hoodies and jackets!!! Please!!!!!

Take your other medicines and eat foods! It helps your meds work and your body work and your mind work and for the love of Fuck eat something!!!

Trans tips #2!

To help with voice dismorphia, practice voice training!

I heard of voice training from a Trans woman on tiktok whom I only know as ellierellie. She brings up thr point that when people first transition, have can have a very unnatural and soft voice, almost like a stage voice.

Her tip is to project your voice to make it sound more natural! My favorite way to do this is to blast my music and sing in the deepest voice i can manage as loud as I can.

The volume of the music helps to cover the sound of your voice to make it more comfortable to talk louder. My favorite music to do this with is 70s/80s/90s rock! Lynyrd Skynyrd, Kiss, The Rolling Stones, ect. I also like to throw in some Hoizer, Arctic Monkeys, Cigarettes after Sex, and The Neighborhood!

I have my personal favorite songs for voice training, but I recommend avoiding songs where the singers voice pitches up or becomes whiney (i don't know how else to describe it, most sad music will have a cord or two where the singer cries out in a higher pitch voice)

I also recommend listening to music by singers of your preferred gender for this! I still enjoy my girly-pop early 2000s music but I often sing it in a mock-high pitched voice to make me feel better about my own voice...also, it's just fun!

You can look up good tutorials for voice training on YouTube! My method is just one of many, but it's the one that works best for me!

My first bit of Trans advice is to get some sort of insurance, I get free insurance for being a college student but you will need insurance if you want hormones.

I went to medical insurance .gov and filled out a form and they reached out with different plans, one being free for students.

My favorite way to start a conversation is by saying something out of context.

“I broke into a house this morning”

“My dad told me not to stab anyone today”

“Would you like me to tell you about our lord and savior Katy Perry”

“I tried buying a lighter on the way to therapy”

“My dream is to grow a beard”

I went back in time to 1950 and in a store I found official Hatsune Miku testosterone.