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Baby Xie Lian HEAVEN OFFICIAL’S BLESSING 天官赐福 🦋 S2e3
Baby Xie Lian HEAVEN OFFICIAL’S BLESSING 天官赐福 🦋 S2e3
Baby Xie Lian HEAVEN OFFICIAL’S BLESSING 天官赐福 🦋 S2e3
Baby Xie Lian HEAVEN OFFICIAL’S BLESSING 天官赐福 🦋 S2e3

baby xie lian HEAVEN OFFICIAL’S BLESSING 天官赐福 🦋 s2e3


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1 month ago
Secret Identities 🏳️‍🌈

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1 month ago

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Hello, Thankyou for enrolling in Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿

Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿

Who are we?: We are a brand new 18+ roleplay server that takes place in a modern society AU where your favorite danmei characters are attending college/university! We are also OC friendly!

What roles are there available?: In Yuyuan Crescent Academy you can be the following: a professor, a student, a tutor, a librarian, a student counselor, part of a fraternity, part of a sorority, and much more!

How does the living situation work out for certain people?: The university offers two main sets of dormitories (Block A and Block B) as well as mentioned above the Sorority and Fraternity houses. Faculty and staff by default live in Block B and below is more in-depth info on the dorm situation: Block A: Shared dormitories, these dorms are much more spacious than Block B dorms, whoever, walls are paper thin and no pets are allowed due to potential allergy risks. You will get a roommate assigned randomly and you will be stuck with them for the remaining of your stay. (think of it like a signed lease agreement) Block B: Private dormitories, these tend to be slightly smaller but that is only because they are realistically designed for one person. Pets are allowed, however you will need to pay a monthly pet rent fee and submit an application beforehand to the Dean. You also have to apply for a living space here and application approvals tend to vary. Baizhan Brotherhood: The Baizhan Brotherhood Fraternity is a unruly, righteous, and dominant fraternity that does not take well to outsiders; especially those who do not come from wealth. Their main focus is to make college fun and a unforgettable experience by hosting the most memorable parties known to campus. However because of their elitist attitude only those who are friends with or invited by one of the members can attend and can bring a plus one. (you must send an application to join this, pets are allowed) Silver Butterflies: The Silver Butterflies Sorority is a mellow, down to earth, and accepting sisterhood that's main focus is building long term friendships and self improvement! Their acceptance rates are high and they are always looking for new friends to join. However due to being a sorority they are not allowed to host parties. (you must send an application to join this, pets are allowed)

What else does the campus offer and are there things to do outside of campus? Yuyuan Crescent Academy also offers a fully equipped and remodeled auditorium with a performance stage, a band room, an art room, and a dance room for those students who want to pick up any extra curricular activities, there is also a library located in the center of campus. As for what you can do outside of campus, yes; Located 10 minutes away from campus is the heart of the city and there are many places students and faculty alike can spend time in, pick up a part time job in, or preform in. Options like a nightclub, a pub, a cafe, a beach, a park, a restaurant, and much more are available. The campus also offers special school events such as homecoming, sports events, plays, concerts, etc.

How does this work in terms of roleplaying? In the server there will be: a roster (a list of what role each character has), a character list that shows you which characters are open, pending and taken. (keep in mind after one week of inactivity or of having your character in a pending state due to waiting on a submission you character will go back into a open status), a claim channel (where you can claim the characters or drop any characters you feel you may be inactive with) and the submission channels (there is one for OC's and one for Canon, there is a attached template on both; you just out the form). Since we started not that long ago the majority of the roles are still available and the list is up to date. Once you pick a character, send over their submission, choose a room, and get situated there is a global group chat where students and faculty alike message on there daily this will be your main roleplay starter and how you seek out to RP with someone. Afterwards you can either start a private chat with someone's character, or even go visit them. The roleplay style is third person and semi literate to literate. We do use Tupperbox to roleplay if you are not familiar with the bot no worries, there is a linked tutorial on attached in the server.

Okay, I'm excited! How do i join and what is required? To join Yuyuan Crescent Academy simply click here to join! Upon entering we require everyone to be above the age of 18 as there is some NSFW in the server and you will be asked by staff to show proof of age. All the mod team asks is for you, the user, to read and respect the rules as we want to make this an enjoyable and safe space for everyone. Aside from roleplaying we genuinely are here to build a community of people with similar interests and we do chat a lot out of character and host gaming events. If this is something you are interested in we will be more than happy to welcome you! Thankyou for your time in reading and if you've gotten this far comment a leaf! 🍃

Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Yuyuan Crescent Academy!🌿

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2 months ago

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Hello, Thankyou for enrolling in Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️

Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️

Who are we?: We are a brand new 18+ roleplay server that takes place in a modern society AU where your favorite Danmei characters from the MXTX universe are attending college/university! We are also OC friendly!

What roles are there available?: In the Lanling Golden Institute you can be the following: a professor, a student, a tutor, a librarian, a student counselor, part of a fraternity, part of a sorority, and much more!

How does the living situation work out for certain people?: The university offers two main sets of dormitories (Block A and Block B) as well as mentioned above the Sorority and Fraternity houses. Faculty and staff by default live in Block B and below is more in-depth info on the dorm situation: Block A: Shared dormitories, these dorms are much more spacious than Block B dorms, whoever, walls are paper thin and no pets are allowed due to potential allergy risks. You will get a roommate assigned randomly and you will be stuck with them for the remaining of your stay. (think of it like a signed lease agreement) Block B: Private dormitories, these tend to be slightly smaller but that is only because they are realistically designed for one person. Pets are allowed, however you will need to pay a monthly pet rent fee and submit an application beforehand to Dean Jin Guangshan. You also have to apply for a living space here and application approvals tend to vary. Baizhan Brotherhood: The Baizhan Brotherhood Fraternity is a unruly, righteous, and dominant fraternity that does not take well to outsiders; especially those who do not come from wealth. Their main focus is to make college fun and a unforgettable experience by hosting the most memorable parties known to campus. However because of their elitist attitude only those who are friends with or invited by one of the members can attend and can bring a plus one. (you must send an application to join this , pets are allowed) Silver Butterflies: The Silver Butterflies Sorority is a mellow, down to earth, and accepting sisterhood that's main focus is building long term friendships and self improvement! Their acceptance rates are high and they are always looking for new friends to join. However due to being a sorority they are not allowed to host parties. (you must send an application to join this, pets are allowed)

What else does the campus offer and are there things to do outside of campus? Lanling Golden Institute also offers a fully equipped and remodeled auditorium with a performance stage, a band room, an art room, and a dance room for those students who want to pick up any extra curricular activities, there is also a library located in the center of campus. As for what you can do outside of campus, yes; Located 10 minutes away from campus is the heart of the city and there are many places students and faculty alike can spend time in, pick up a part time job in, or preform in. Options like a nightclub, a pub, a cafe, a beach, a park, a restaurant, and much more are available. The campus also offers special school events such as homecoming, sports events, plays, concerts, etc.

How does this work in terms of roleplaying? In the server there will be: a roster (a list of what role each character has for example: Jin Guangshan — Dean) , a character list that shows you which characters are open, pending and taken. (keep in mind after one week of inactivity or of having your character in a pending state due to waiting on a submission you character will go back into a open status), a claim channel (where you can claim the characters or drop any characters you feel you may be inactive with) and the submission channels (there is one for OC's and one for Canon, there is a attached template on both; you just out the form). Since we started not that long ago the majority of the roles are still available and the list is up to date. Once you pick a character, send over their submission, choose a room, and get situated there is a global group chat where students and faculty alike message on there daily this will be your main roleplay starter and how you seek out to RP with someone. Afterwards you can either start a private chat with someone's character, or even go visit them. The roleplay style is third person and semi literate to literate. We do use Tupperbox to roleplay if you are not familiar with the bot no worries, there is a linked tutorial on attached in the server.

Okay, I'm excited! How do i join and what is required? To join Lanling Golden Institute simply click here to join! Upon entering we require everyone to be above the age of 18 as there is some NSFW in the server and you will be asked by staff to show proof of age. All the mod team asks is for you, the user, to read and respect the rules as we want to make this an enjoyable and safe space for everyone. Aside from roleplaying we genuinely are here to build a community of people with similar interests and we do chat a lot out of character and host gaming events. If this is something you are interested in we will be more than happy to welcome you! Thankyou for your time in reading and if you've gotten this far comment a sunflower! 🌻

Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️

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3 months ago

Hello, Thankyou for enrolling in Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️

Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️

Who are we?: We are a brand new 18+ roleplay server that takes place in a modern society AU where your favorite Danmei characters from the MXTX universe are attending college/university! We are also OC friendly!

What roles are there available?: In the Lanling Golden Institute you can be the following: a professor, a student, a tutor, a librarian, a student counselor, part of a fraternity, part of a sorority, and much more!

How does the living situation work out for certain people?: The university offers two main sets of dormitories (Block A and Block B) as well as mentioned above the Sorority and Fraternity houses. Faculty and staff by default live in Block B and below is more in-depth info on the dorm situation: Block A: Shared dormitories, these dorms are much more spacious than Block B dorms, whoever, walls are paper thin and no pets are allowed due to potential allergy risks. You will get a roommate assigned randomly and you will be stuck with them for the remaining of your stay. (think of it like a signed lease agreement) Block B: Private dormitories, these tend to be slightly smaller but that is only because they are realistically designed for one person. Pets are allowed, however you will need to pay a monthly pet rent fee and submit an application beforehand to Dean Jin Guangshan. You also have to apply for a living space here and application approvals tend to vary. Baizhan Brotherhood: The Baizhan Brotherhood Fraternity is a unruly, righteous, and dominant fraternity that does not take well to outsiders; especially those who do not come from wealth. Their main focus is to make college fun and a unforgettable experience by hosting the most memorable parties known to campus. However because of their elitist attitude only those who are friends with or invited by one of the members can attend and can bring a plus one. (you must send an application to join this , pets are allowed) Silver Butterflies: The Silver Butterflies Sorority is a mellow, down to earth, and accepting sisterhood that's main focus is building long term friendships and self improvement! Their acceptance rates are high and they are always looking for new friends to join. However due to being a sorority they are not allowed to host parties. (you must send an application to join this, pets are allowed)

What else does the campus offer and are there things to do outside of campus? Lanling Golden Institute also offers a fully equipped and remodeled auditorium with a performance stage, a band room, an art room, and a dance room for those students who want to pick up any extra curricular activities, there is also a library located in the center of campus. As for what you can do outside of campus, yes; Located 10 minutes away from campus is the heart of the city and there are many places students and faculty alike can spend time in, pick up a part time job in, or preform in. Options like a nightclub, a pub, a cafe, a beach, a park, a restaurant, and much more are available. The campus also offers special school events such as homecoming, sports events, plays, concerts, etc.

How does this work in terms of roleplaying? In the server there will be: a roster (a list of what role each character has for example: Jin Guangshan — Dean) , a character list that shows you which characters are open, pending and taken. (keep in mind after one week of inactivity or of having your character in a pending state due to waiting on a submission you character will go back into a open status), a claim channel (where you can claim the characters or drop any characters you feel you may be inactive with) and the submission channels (there is one for OC's and one for Canon, there is a attached template on both; you just out the form). Since we started not that long ago the majority of the roles are still available and the list is up to date. Once you pick a character, send over their submission, choose a room, and get situated there is a global group chat where students and faculty alike message on there daily this will be your main roleplay starter and how you seek out to RP with someone. Afterwards you can either start a private chat with someone's character, or even go visit them. The roleplay style is third person and semi literate to literate. We do use Tupperbox to roleplay if you are not familiar with the bot no worries, there is a linked tutorial on attached in the server.

Okay, I'm excited! How do i join and what is required? To join Lanling Golden Institute simply click here to join! Upon entering we require everyone to be above the age of 18 as there is some NSFW in the server and you will be asked by staff to show proof of age. All the mod team asks is for you, the user, to read and respect the rules as we want to make this an enjoyable and safe space for everyone. Aside from roleplaying we genuinely are here to build a community of people with similar interests and we do chat a lot out of character and host gaming events. If this is something you are interested in we will be more than happy to welcome you! Thankyou for your time in reading and if you've gotten this far comment a sunflower! 🌻

Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️
Hello, Thankyou For Enrolling In Lanling Golden Institute!🏵️

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3 months ago

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Hear ye hear ye, 18+ mxtx enjoyers!! If you like drama, romance and chaos join our server ⚜ LANLING GOLDEN INSTITUTE ⚜! It’s a college au where mxtx novels collide. The setting is of course modern and we have social media channels as well so your character can post all they want.

We do verify with ID to ensure the safety of our members, but all we need is your DOB! We ask that you cover all other info by coloring over or blurring it out.

To join this discord server, just send me a DM! I’ll add you/you add me or I can send the link in DMs.

Hope to see you!


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3 months ago

Hear ye hear ye, 18+ mxtx enjoyers!! If you like drama, romance and chaos join our server ⚜ LANLING GOLDEN INSTITUTE ⚜! It’s a college au where mxtx novels collide. The setting is of course modern and we have social media channels as well so your character can post all they want.

We do verify with ID to ensure the safety of our members, but all we need is your DOB! We ask that you cover all other info by coloring over or blurring it out.

To join this discord server, just send me a DM! I’ll add you/you add me or I can send the link in DMs.

Hope to see you!


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4 months ago

Hello, 20+ MXTX enjoyers! If you're looking for a place to play any of your muses from TGCF, SVSSS or MDSZ, with admin-run plot events to keep the gears turning, we have the place for you.

This is a new server, so there are plenty of popular characters still open for the taking!

**THE PLOT**

In modern times, there is no magic, no sects and clans, no cultivation… until suddenly, there is. For these MXTX characters, when a person makes it through an incredibly trying time in their life, they find themselves suddenly faced with a glowing gold orb which introduces them to their newfound magical powers.

From there, a whole new realm, called Wuxia, opens itself up; a world one can cross over into from their modern world, and our characters find themselves able to slip between the two worlds like water through cracks in the pavement, from the modern world to one that breathes magic. From normal humans to spellcasters, each character is entrusted with keeping the secret of their realm from anyone not initiated into it.

But with this newfound magic comes a mystery… who is behind these mysterious invitations to the realm of magic, and what do they want?

**Please DM for the link if interested, must be 20+ to join. We do ID check for the safety and comfort of the server!**

Hello, 20+ MXTX Enjoyers! If You're Looking For A Place To Play Any Of Your Muses From TGCF, SVSSS Or

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1 year ago
“Please,” Feng Xin Whispered Again And Now His Hand Was Resting On Top Of Mu Qing’s Head, Fingers

“Please,” Feng Xin whispered again and now his hand was resting on top of Mu Qing’s head, fingers gently smoothing down the fly-away strands of his high ponytail. “Please don’t qi deviate.”

little fengqing sketch for @grungiiuvu inspired by the latest chapter of Cheap Villain's Presentation On The Importance Of Road Safety🥰


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1 year ago

What if this literary was my favorite fic ever

Happy Chapter 25!! Cheap Villain Has Updated Once More, So You All Get To See This Mostly Accurate Doodle

Happy chapter 25!! Cheap Villain has updated once more, so you all get to see this mostly accurate doodle I made for it :DD


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Hello I have a question everyone is going on about Hua Cheng hating Feng Xin despite being loyal to Xie Lian. What do you think of the reason Hua Cheng hatred towards Feng Xin?

Hey Anon! thank you for your question, I'll do my best to answer it :)

First of all, I think it's important to keep in mind that Hua Cheng has reasons to hate Feng Xin outside of his treatment of Xie Lian. Though out of the two, Mu Qing treated Hong Hong-er the worst - arguing that a visibly starved and abused child was lying about having no one caring for him and then later kicking him out of the army out of jealousy - Feng Xin really wasn't much better:

The young child shook his head, but Mu Qing said, “There must be. If he doesn't go back, his family will surely be worried sick looking for him.”

“No, no way! There's nobody!” that young child cried, sounding like he was afraid to be sent back, and he opened his arms reaching for Xie Lian. He was still covered with mud and blood, and Feng Xin couldn't stand it anymore.

“What're ya doin’, kid? Things were urgent earlier, so whatever, but shouldn't you know better by now? This is the crown prince. His Highness the Crown Prince. Do you understand?”

That young child's arms immediately shrank back, but he was still gazing at Xie Lian.

Vol 2, page 362

We see this treatment of Hua Cheng continue all the way to the reveal in Mount Tonglu's caves: because of what Hua Cheng is - a beggar child, a ghost king - he shouldn't be near Xie Lian - a crown prince, a god - and his adoration for Xie Lian and desire to be near him is openly treated by Feng Xin as inappropriate and disgusting, as something Xie Lian needs to be “protected” from at all cost - if Xie Lian wants to or not.

After walking for a while, Feng Xin spoke up. “No. I still don't think Your Highness should hold a strange child for everyone to see.”

“What's the problem?” Xie Lian asked.

“You're the crown prince!” Feng Xin exclaimed. While he spoke, he saw a worn-down handcart further up the alley and said, “Put the kid in the cart and pull it.”

Mu Qing immediately voiced, “Just so we're clear, I will not pull that thing up the mountain.”

”No one's asking you to,” Feng Xin said. He reached out and yanked the child from Xie Lian's arms, and the child started struggling again.

Vol 2, page 364

Because Xie Lian is nobility, in Feng Xin's eyes he shouldn't be seen carrying a child of the lowest class. Keep in mind that it was Xie Lian's own decision to carry Hong Hong-er himself and that the child had repeatedly made clear it didn't want to be carried by anyone else. But Feng Xin still takes Hong Hong-er away from Xie Lian, the only person that the child feels safe with and is being treated well by. Not to mention that he's yanking a child around that he knows has recently been brutally beaten, with no apparent care for its injuries.

Once Mei Nianqing divines Hong-er's fate, Feng Xin treats him like everyone else does except for Xie Lian - as if he's not a human being but some kind of dangerous monster that Xie Lian shouldn't even touch:

The Deputy State Preceptors blocked Hong Hong-er, and the State Preceptor backed away, yelling, “Make him leave the mountain, hurry! Don't touch him, I mean it! That fortune is too toxic; don't touch him!” The Deputy State Preceptors hurriedly moved aside, and Mu Qing and Feng Xin didn't know whether to act.

Seeing that everyone was avoiding him like he was poisonous vermin, the child was shaken and started thrashing even harder, biting and screaming with all his might. “I'm not! I'm not!! I'M NOT!!!”

Suddenly, a pair of arms wrapped around his waist, encircling his small form. A voice came from above his head. “You're not. I know you're not. Don't cry, now. I know you're not.”

[...] A while later, the State Preceptor said, “I mean it. It's best if you let go.”

Feng Xin finally came to his senses and exclaimed, “Your Highness! Let go! Be careful of…”

Vol 2 page 380+ 382

So what we've established is that Feng Xin treated Hong Hong-er at best like a nuisance that Xie Lian shouldn't be seen caring for because of the class differences, and some kind of dangerous inhuman thing at worst. Now, since that was the way everyone but Xie Lian was treating him back then, I actually don't think it would stand out to Hua Cheng that much - but what would stand out to him was that Feng Xin, just like Mu Qing, repeatedly tried to separate him from Xie Lian, both through words and through actions, and that he went against Xie Lian's wishes in doing so.

Now we can tackle the other part of your question, Hua Cheng hating Feng Xin despite his being loyal to Xie Lian. And I think to answer it fully, we must first ask ourselves - was he loyal?

It's true that Feng Xin stayed with Xie Lian longer than Mu Qing did after the banishment, but his choices during that time tell their own story:

“Actually, it's… Your Highness, do you still have any money on you? Or something that can be pawned?”

Xie Lian was perplexed that he'd ask such a foolish question at a time like this. “Huh? Why do you ask?”

Feng Xin was sweating, but he replied boldly, “It's nothing… Just… If you happen to have some, can you… lend it to me?”

Xie Lian laughed bitterly. “Do you really think I have anything?”

Feng Xin sighed. “I didn't think so.”

After giving it some thought, Xie Lian asked, “Didn't I give you that golden belt?”

“That's not enough,” Feng Xin mumbled. “Far from it…”

Xie Lian was shocked. “Feng Xin? What exactly did you do? How could a golden belt not be enough to cover what you need? Did you beat someone up and need to pay them off? Tell me?”

Feng Xin came back to himself and quickly said, “Oh no! Don't take this to heart. I was only asking!”

Xie Lian pressed him over and over, but Feng Xin still swore everything was fine. Finally, Xie Lian said with worry, “Well, if there's anything, you must tell me. We can think of a solution together.”

“Don't worry about me,” Feng Xin said. “There's no way a solution will just fall from the sky. Your Highness, you just focus on solving your own problems.”

Vol 6, page 219

While superficially this might look like Feng Xin is trying not to burden Xie Lian with his problems, when we look at the actual context we realize that that's not why he is lying about what's going on. This is set during the time where they're barely managing to scrape enough food together not to starve, and are struggling to make enough money to buy medicine for Xie Lian's sick father. And Feng Xin knows this, knows that anything of value should go towards their continued survival - that's why he rejects Xie Lian's repeated offers of help and lies to him about there being no particular reason he's asking for money. Is that loyalty?

Soon after, he heard the Queen sigh. “If this keeps up, how will my son ever get better?”

Xie Lian could feel something amiss with those words, and Feng Xin replied in a quiet voice. “He's only like this because he's exhausted. Too much has happened lately. Will Your Majesties also keep a close eye on him? Please let me know as soon as possible if there's anything not right with His Highness, but don't tell him you did. Also avoid saying anything that might provoke him-”

Vol 6, page 220-221

Feng Xin told Xie Lian he believed him when he said that Bai WuXiang was back and was stalking him, but behind his back, it's a different story. Not only does he doubt Xie Lian’s grip on reality and his own mind, he urges Xie Lian's parents to also keep up the pretense and then report to Feng Xin behind Xie Lian's back. Is that loyalty?

And we need to keep in mind that this isn't a one time deal but a pattern of behavior that keeps repeating. Feng Xin keeps treating Xie Lian as too naive to be trusted to make his own choices, hence his trying to keep Xie Lian from caring for Hong Hong-er, trying to “manage” Xie Lian like an unruly child, and then all the way to conspiring with Mu Qing to kidnap Xie Lian away from Hua Cheng no matter what Xie Lian wants because they think they know better.

Xie Lian knelt by the stream and puked his guts out for over an hour, heaving until blood came up. After descending the mountain, he walked through the city for a long time, aimlessly wandering the main streets without a destination in mind. Suddenly, a hand gripped his shoulder and yanked him into an alley. Xie Lian looked around and saw an incoming fist before he even glimpsed the other's face.

“Where did you run off to for so long?!” Behind the fist was Feng Xin's furious expression, but by the time Xie Lian saw, he'd already been knocked to the ground by the punch. Feng Xin hadn't expected to knock him down so easily. Confused, he looked at his own fist, then at Xie Lian on the ground. Before he could think to help him up, Xie Lian had already crawled back up by himself.

Feng Xin's face changed, but in the end, his temper was still flaring. “You've got such an attitude! Dropping only a word before running away and disappearing for two months! Do you know how worried Their Majesties have been?!”

Vol 6, page 263

This is after Xie Lian ran away when he found out Feng Xin didn't believe him and was then lured to the abandoned temple by Bai WuXiang and severely tortured and violated. He was obviously not alright when he left and just from the fact that he disappeared for that long it should be obvious that something is seriously wrong - yet Feng Xin doesn't care about finding out, he's so angry at the way Xie Lian is “failing” to be the perfect image he's made up in his head that the moment he sees him again, he punches him in the face. Is that loyalty?

“Why are you being like this? When did you become this way?” Feng Xin mumbled. “I… I really don't know… I'm… Why did I follow you all this time - ?”

“Then stop following,” Xie Lian said.

Feng Xin couldn't wrap his head around that. “What?”

“I said, don't follow me anymore,” Xie Lian repeated. Then he slammed the door.

Four hours later, there was finally some rustling outside the room and low voices speaking. It seemed Feng Xin was bidding farewell to Xie Lian's mother and father. Feng Xin's voice was extremely low, the queen's voice was choked with sobs, and the king didn't say much, but there was a lot of coughing. The door opened a moment later, then closed. Feng Xin's voice vanished, and the sound of his footsteps grew more and more distant. Feng Xin had left.

[...] Before Feng Xin had left, Xie Lian had been afraid. Now that Feng Xin was gone, he wasn't scared anymore. But even though he no longer felt fear, he felt a deeper agony. Xie Lian had initially held a one-in-a-million bit of hope at the bottom of his heart. He'd hoped that Feng Xin would still stay even if Xie Lian admitted he had done things he shouldn't have, even if he became the worst version of himself. After all, the two had never left each other's side since he turned fourteen and Feng Xin was selected to be his personal attendant. They were master and servant, but more than that, they were friends. And Feng Xin had no one to care for aside from the crown prince either - or, at most, him, and the king and queen. But Feng Xin had really left.

Vol 6, page 273-274

And finally, as Xie Lian begins to crack under the weight of his trauma, Feng Xin leaves. Is that loyalty? Or, more precisely, we have to ask ourselves - who was it that Feng Xin used to be loyal to? Because from what we've seen, it was less Xie Lian the person and more the perfect image of a crown prince and a god Feng Xin wanted and repeatedly tried to force Xie Lian to be - a crown prince who doesn't behave inappropriately by carrying beggar children, who doesn't go against the orders of his Shifu, a perfect god who never falters and doesn't show mental or physical strain no matter what he goes through.

Xie Lian stopped eating and said gently, “But I can sort of understand… your feelings.” After a pause, he continued, “There was a period in my own life that wasn't easy. Back then, I'd always think about how wonderful it would be if someone could still love me for who I was, even if they saw me rolling in the dirt and couldn't get up. Though I don't know if there's anyone out there like that. And I'm scared of showing that part of myself too. But if it's someone San Lang yearns for… I think that even if they saw you at your worst, they wouldn't say something like, ‘ah, you're not so great after all'”.

His face grew solemn. “To me, the one basking in infinite glory is you; the one fallen from grace is also you. What matters is you, not the state of you. [...]”

Vol 4, page 182

This is why ‘what matters is you, not the state of you” is the foundation of Xie Lian and Hua Cheng’s love - they love each other for who the other is, not who they could be or should be by any given standard.

Now, someone might say this is all well and good but Hua Cheng wasn't present for the above scenes with Feng Xin and Xie Lian, so those can't be reasons for him to hate Feng Xin. To which I would say, 1. the above examination was about questioning whether Feng Xin really was as loyal to Xie Lian as that discourse seems to insist by looking at what the text actually tells us. And 2., Hua Cheng did encounter Xie Lian several times during his first banishment. And every single time, Xie Lian was alone, in increasingly bad mental and physical states, with no one helping or caring for him.

The first time they meet again, after Mu Qing has just left Xie Lian and Hua Cheng is a ghost fire:

“I won't forget. Your Highness, I am forever your most devoted believer.”

Xie Lian forced down a sob. “...I've already lost all my believers. Believing in me won't do you any good; it might even bring disaster. Did you know? Even my friend has left me.”

The nameless ghost declared as if swearing an oath, “I won't.”

“You will,” Xie Lian said.

The ghost was insistent. “Believe me, Your Highness.”

“I don't,” Xie Lian said. He no longer believed in anyone, especially himself.

Vol 6, page 136-137

After the failed robbery attempt, when Xie Lian gets drunk and falls into a grave:

“God fucking dammit!” He slapped the ground and yelled, “Is anyone there? Is there anyone who can help pull me out?!”

Of course there wasn't anyone. There was only a small ball of haunting ghost fire, blazing unceasingly as it flitted about. After Xie Lian fell into the pit, the ball of ghost fire rushed over, seeming to want to pull him up - but it would never be able to touch him.

Vol 6, page 175

When the group of heavenly officials and Mu Qing drive Xie Lian off the blessed land and Hua Cheng can't help him because he's still a ghost fire:

Xie Lian lay sprawled face-down on the ground in a state of disbelief, his eyes bulging. One of the heavenly officials had shoved him while he was standing there at a loss and made him take that hideous fall in front of so many eyes. It was too humiliating. There were voices all around Xie Lian, high and low, filling the air and invading Xie Lian's ears. He stared with eyes that couldn't be wider at the blackened ground in front of his nose, then he slowly raised his head.

Mu Qing was standing not too far away from him - standing among those heavenly officials, his head turned away, not looking at Xie Lian. Just like the rest of them, he had no intention of lending Xie Lian a hand to help him up. And thus, Xie Lian understood. No one would lend him a hand to help him up.

Vol 6, page 196

When Xie Lian is brutally tortured and violated by being stabbed over and over:

Unwilling to consider this any further, Xie Lian couldn't help but cry out. “Hel-”

Before the phrase “Help me” could leave his throat, the same icy black belt was thrust into his body once again. Xie Lian's eyes widened in horror. The razor-sharp sword was stabbed in, then pulled out. The next person followed without wasting a second, and the next stab was shoved into practically the same spot. The sound locked in Xie Lian's throat finally broke free, and a long, painful scream tore through his entire body.

Vol 6, page 255

And it doesn't stop there - Feng Xin and Mu Qing both ascend again while Xie Lian is lost in the mortal realm, and Hua Cheng is the only one looking for him. That Feng Xin spent so much time in the mortal realm because he was searching for Xie Lian appears to be entirely fanon, as I cannot recall a single instance where the text actually suggests this. And then when Xie Lian ascends for a third time, Feng Xin and Mu Qing are too cowardly to face him, and only seek him out in disguise. And again, they repeatedly try to separate Hua Cheng from Xie Lian:

After a moment, Feng Xin turned to Xie Lian. “If there's nothing else, you’d better hurry back to the Heavenly Court. Many of the heavenly officials have no idea what happened in that ruckus, and they're still waiting for news above. Jun Wu should have been informed by now. You need to report back and give them a proper account.”

Hua Cheng laughed out loud at his words.

“What're you laughing at?” Feng Xin demanded.

“And here I was marveling at how straightforward you are, but it turns out you like beating around the bush too,” Hua Cheng said. “You just don't want His Highness to associate with the likes of demons and ghosts like me, so why not say so openly? Think it's not your place?”

Xie Lian cleared his throat softly. “San Lang…”

“As long as you're aware that he shouldn't be associating with the likes of demons and ghosts,” Feng Xin said coldly.

Vol 2, page 261-262

So, to sum up, when we look at all this from Hua Cheng's perspective - why wouldn't he hate Feng Xin? He's had zero positive interactions with the man, repeatedly witnessed him going against Xie Lian's wishes, and had Feng Xin try and separate him from Xie Lian over and over again. From Hua Cheng's perspective, Feng Xin abandoned Xie Lian to his suffering and forgot about him, while Hua Cheng never wavered in his faith, and didn't give up on looking for Xie Lian even after hundreds of years.

Throughout the entire novel, Hua Cheng is the only one who consistently respects Xie Lian's autonomy - the only times he ever intervenes is when Xie Lian is about to do something that threatens his own physical and/or mental wellbeing. Many other characters, Feng Xin included, repeatedly ignore or even violate Xie Lian's autonomy and the novel makes quite clear how important and profound the distinction is between how Hua Cheng treats Xie Lian and how everyone else does:

Feng Xin glanced at him and couldn't help but say, “...I'm a little surprised.”

“What?” Hua Cheng replied, not turning or showing a single trace of curiosity.

Feng Xin scratched his head. “Since you're so biased against Mu Qing, I assumed you'd think he wasn't worth saving and wouldn't want His Highness rescuing him. I thought you'd prevent him from going.”

Only then did Hua Cheng spare him a glance. “Half-wrong, half-right.”

“Huh?”

“The first part isn't wrong - I certainly don't think he's worth saving,” Hua Cheng said. “I don't care if he lives or dies.”

“Isn't that a little too blunt?!” Seeing that apathetic expression made Feng Xin start to sweat; when he realized that this man definitely held the same attitude toward him, he sweat even harder!

Hua Cheng snorted, then after a pause, he added, “But only His Highness can decide what he wants to do. I will never oppose his decisions.”

“...” Feng Xin had never heard anyone say something like that before - not a man to a woman, and most definitely not one man to another. But he was quite sure that Xie Lian would only get all worked up and flustered again if he'd been here to hear it. “Ah… I see,” Feng Xin said, not knowing what face to make.

Vol 8, page 44-45

And just to make this clear - this is not me hating on Feng Xin. We also could probably all have lengthy but ultimately futile discussions on what loyalty personally means to each and every one of us, which is why when it comes to discourse like this I think we have to focus on what the text says. And I think through this examination it's become quite clear where the limits of Feng Xin's loyalty lay in relation to how it was tied less to Xie Lian the person and more to who he thought Xie Lian should be, and how even beyond Feng Xin's ultimate lack of loyalty Hua Cheng has many legitimate reasons to hate him in regards to how both he himself and Xie Lian were treated by Feng Xin.

Hope this answered your question!


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Wei Wuxian knows what he's doing 😆

Artwork so pretty thoooo

I finally finished a part of my MXTX band AU/crossover. 🙏

I Finally Finished A Part Of My MXTX Band AU/crossover. 🙏
I Finally Finished A Part Of My MXTX Band AU/crossover. 🙏
I Finally Finished A Part Of My MXTX Band AU/crossover. 🙏
I Finally Finished A Part Of My MXTX Band AU/crossover. 🙏

I really love imagining how these three would get along—probably total chaos with Wei Ying's influence.

Luo Binghe makes fun of Hua Cheng, but he's just as much of a simp. 🫵


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