Not only that, but then finding out that grian is cheating on him because spending time with him feels like a chore to grian.
Scar finding out that even when fate itself connects him with grian, he’s still not his first choice.
But he ignores it anyways, because spending time with grian is always amazing, even though afterwards he always cries because he knows grian will never see him as his number one, his one and only, like scar does. He cries for the endless love that his soulmate doesn’t reciprocate or appreciate.
He griefs for the innocence of not knowing he loves grian more than he loves him back.
scar being really jealous of grian’s soulmate, whoever they are, jealous that he isn’t grian’s better– or at least other– half. scar feeling a little bit victorious whenever grian spends time with him, because who needs soulmates, anyway? they have each other, and that’s enough, right? scar feeling a little prick of fear whenever he thinks about how everything will change after grian finds his soulmate.
scar knows he won’t seek out his own. they don’t matter, because they’re not him.
only for him to learn that he is grian’s soulmate.
scar’s heart almost stops right there.