bro im partially going insane in real time. im about to become one of those stupidass alpha males that get overly protective of their lovers and shit (except i dont have a lover but thats besides the point)
like highkey i am in desperate need to be possessive over somebody. i wanna latch onto someone like a damn leech and never let them go. i want to make sure that a person never needs anything else except for me. just me, me, me, me, me. pay attention to me
idk where these feelings really came from, but i guess after being abandoned (again) in my last relationship, a switch kinda went off in my brain and now i want to ensure im never left alone ever again
now i just want to make sure that a person doesnt love anyone else romantically except for me
i want to make sure my partner loves me and is as head over heels for me as i am for them
i want them to love me just as much as the day they fell for me
i want their love for me to be just as intense
like bro im already picturing myself physically grabbing my lover and holding them close to me so they cant get up to leave
i mean obviously he would have to get up eventually but bruh for the time being i need you With Me and i never want you going Anywhere Else except for right here . with me
me me me me me
me
these feelings are so intense im tearing up
even though im not upset or sad
fuck this is weird
Being on testosterone and having to go through puberty a second time because of that is weird. Like I'm completely calm, watching sherlock with my boyfriend and one second later I'm horny.
That's actually what my boyfriend has to deal with and I don't even feel sorry
It's weird how good you can make me feel. You can make me forget all my problems. I even forget that I'm Trans and wearing my binder. All that exists, all that matters is you laying in my arms and me holding you close. It's just us. My heart is beating fast and your fingers feel so good on my skin. And for a moment I ask myself if that is what happiness feels like.